(English is not my first language, sorry for mistakes)

I'm 17 yo, and I live with my boyfriends family.

My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 3 years now, and since he introduced me to his uncle, I have weird thoughts of him. We always meet on the weekends, and sometimes he stays for the whole week.

He's 20 years older than me, and I have a thing for older men. I don't know why, but every time an older man gives me attention, I have sexual toughts about them, and dream about them playing with me sexually. Sometimes I have dreams about my male teachers, but thats not important rn.

This week he stayed with us, and I saw him every day. We don't talk much, usually just saying hi to eachother.

But my gosh... I felt nervous around him, and I had dreams about him touching my thighs and fucking me?? And I liked these dreams, I couldn't stop thinking about them but also i'm disgusted about the fact that i'm attracted to him..

He's working on something rn, and he's often without a shirt aswell and I hate how I like his body, and I noticed he has freckles on his back and i LOVE freckles, and I'm disgusted of myself bc I can't look away when we are in the kitchen and He has his back to me....

He has the type of body i'm dying for, and hes much taller than me, and he also wears glasses (and he's older).. I hate myself for thinking about him this way.

But don't get me wrong, I would never leave my bf for anyone or cheat on him, and I feel ashamed of having toughts like these.. I told my bf this before and he's not mad at me, he just thinks its weird, and I agreed with him.

Can anyone tell me what this is? Why am I having weird, sexual toughts and dreams of older men, especially of my bfs uncle?? Its so weird, and it souldnt be this way.

If I ever marry a man, please let him be a chef. Imagine coming home to freshly cooked meals every day? A woman can dream.

But honestly, never mind. I'll learn to cook for myself because I refuse to make marriage a survival strategy.

I'm not looking for a man to do things for me. I just think having a personal chef who happens to be your husband would be a pretty sweet deal. HAHAHA.

Anyway, ladies, what's your most unserious reason for wanting to get married?

Since puberty I've had recurring sexual/intrusive thoughts about my mom. I've never acted on them and I don't want to act on them. I know acting on them would be harmful and would destroy our family relationship.

They are distressing and cause a lot of shame. They get worse when I'm stressed, isolated, or using substances. I'm trying to stop feeding them with porn or fantasy and focus on healthy adult relationships outside my family.

I'm looking for advice from people who have dealt with persistent taboo intrusive thoughts - what helped you make them less frequent? Did therapy, journaling, exercise, etc. help? I'm also looking into local counseling/support for substance use.

Not looking for graphic stories, explicit details, or DMs - just coping strategies and support.

Thanks.

I'm posting on a throwaway. Since puberty I've had unwanted sexual fantasies about a close family member. I have never acted on them and I don't want to act on them.

It's distressing because it conflicts with how I want to see that relationship. It comes and goes, but stress and isolation make it worse.

Has anyone dealt with persistent taboo fantasies like this? What helped you reduce how often they come up or stop feeling so much shame around them? I'm looking for coping strategies and whether therapy helped.

Not looking for explicit stories or DMs, just advice/support.

I know this will be unpopular but hear me out.

I’m starting to think we were never meant to have just ONE sexual partner for life.

And I don’t say this to excuse cheating or hurt people. I say it because I think we are still animals at our core.

We like to think we have full control over our feelings and emotions, that we are these highly logical, evolved beings. But do we really?

You can be in a happy relationship and still feel an attraction to someone else. You can love your partner and still have feelings pop up that you didn’t ask for. You can’t just switch it off.

I’ve come to a point where I don’t think it’s entirely our fault. I think it’s just our nature. Monogamy is something we choose to do, it’s a social contract, a discipline, a value system we built for stability, family, society. It’s not necessarily what’s biologically natural.

Animals aren’t monogamous by default, and humans are animals too. We just added morals, religion, and law on top of our instincts.

That doesn’t mean go out and cheat. It means if you struggle with those feelings, you’re not a broken or evil person. You’re just human.

When I was 17-18 years old, there were 3 guys(let's call them evil guys) in my class(they were friends with each other). They used to whisper to whoever sat behind me to annoy me/trouble me. This they did continuously for 2 years. But they pretended to be my friends.

Two of those guys lived in an area where my second cousin also lived. The second cousin's mother was envious/jealous of me and my family. I asked one of those evil guys if he knew my second cousin. He said "No". Years later I saw on his profile a pic with few other boys including my second cousin.

Also I had a political ideology different from everyone else in class.

After 2 years, when I moved to a different place to study, they called me from an unknown number.

I think they did it because they didn't want me to succeed and focus in class. They wanted me to be distracted in class because of jealousy/envy.

What do you think?

I have never come across anyone who had this experience(neither online, nor offline).

I'm 21(M) and I've been diagnosed with OCD by 1 psychiatrist and 2 different psychologists, so 3 doctors in total since July this year. I've told them everything which I'm about to say here.

I do suffer from OCD, I've suffered from ROCD, Real Event OCD, ZOCD, HOCD, Moral OCD and many more, it got significantly worse this year and it's been 10 months of me with not a single second of mental peace. But do i suffer from POCD? That is debatable.

Since the month of february, I've been convinced that I did something bad to my little cousin or m\*lested her back in 2023. This is a post where I've briefly mentioned what I remembered happening : https://www.reddit.com/r/confession/s/bgA7ZxxIvq

I've done many compulsions for 8-10 hours a day since february, including seeking reassurance from AI and other people, ruminating and mentally replaying, punishing myself etc etc. My POCD got worse in June and i started performing compulsions like checking for groinal sensations, deliberately imagining graphic things with k#ds to see if I feel something ( every single time I felt a groinal response or an erection ), I avoid kids, but i also somehow peek at them to CHECK if I feel something, and I sometimes get a mental "pull" to do something to them, which i absolutely hate and distress over, and i don't want to do anything with any k#d.

Why am I saying it's debatable? Because the things I've done as an 18-20 year old are very questionable. From the ages of 18-20, I've continuously viewed loli manga/doujinshi, back then it wasn't for checking as I didn't have "POCD" back then, it was something I just did. Back in 2025 when I was 20, I also found out about the pinterest app, and i scrolled there and eventually found escalating and taboo pictures there, they were not illegal material, but they were morally questionable. I stopped eventually and felt disgusted by them.

Matter of fact, i was always pretty disgusted when I saw someone in the internet making weird comments about k#ds, BUT I was also someone who went ahead and read loli doujinshi. Am i a hypocrite?

Currently, i still go to loli manga stuff but i DONT enjoy them, i ONLY go there to check and perform a compulsion, to see if I'm aroused.

I want genuine advice on what I should do. It's serious. Should I stay away from k#ds? Should I turn myself in? Should I treat this as OCD? or genuine pedophilia?

Please do not ignore this, just give me whatever advice you have. Be completely honest about it.

I don’t know if trigger warnings need/should be posted, but trigger warning about taking your own life.

To be ABUNDANTLY clear, I do not want to take my own life, I just have a very morbid sense of curiosity.

A long time back, fifteen years at least, my dad told me that he read a study wherein individuals who had jumped from bridges/buildings/etc. with the intention to end their lives, and survived obviously, were asked what went through their heads as they fell. And the vast majority of them said that they realized they wanted to live. I was around 10 so I didn’t ask and can’t site his research, I apologize, maybe he was full of shit.

I now live very close to train tracks and someone, one of many, took their life by jumping in front. Herein lies my question: with the bridge/building/etc. “method”, you jump and there is no going back. There is a lot of thought leading up to it, but in the last moment it is a snap decision with not return. With the train, you have to wait. And time it. What is the thought process while you are waiting and timing the train. Or do you think they just lay on the tracks. And when they hear the train coming they are so far gone that fight/flight doesn’t kick in?

Hi guys, so ill keep it short and sweet.

So I was at work yesterday, and I saw a post on my Facebook about a murder..and I don't know why, but I instantly said to myself 'oh that'll be something you would do' when I would never ever murder anyone! I've never had this kinda issue before but all day and since yesterday i've been thinking intrusive thoughts about it...like getting anxiety attacks over it and keep saying to myself that its just a thought and then I'm like 'what if its true' 'what if your like that' then i was getting all anxiety attacks again..i've seen lots of things on the Internet and never really bat an eye...i do not even know why I said it to myself yesterday because it obviously got into my head and my thoughts are playing with me into thinking im some horrible person when I am not. The thought doesn't completely go, but it eases off so I feel calmer for a little while and then it came back on strong and it feels like it'll never ever fade. Its awful. Any tips? How can I manage this. I would never do anthing like this ever and its been in my head all day making me distressed..I've gone for a walk today and I looked at people thinking to myself as a 'test' like 'how do you feel now looking at that guy, do you wanna get him' its horrible. how can I stop this?

im always AGAINST my will hyperaware of my own attention/focus/understanding. whenever im studying/talking/reading OR EVEN THINKING TO MS im bombarded by “where is my focus?” “i wont be able to focus” thoughts. this leads to me feeling depersonalized af. i just feel so far away from myself due to this stupid shit!! and im just 16(!!!!). Im supposed to be thinking abt boys not this 😭😭

Just what the title expresses.I watched the documentary "Abducted :in Plain Sight“ and suddenly I had this question of what would be worse objectively seen,the rape of one young child or the killing of multiple people,at first I leaned towards the rape,as it impacts the child for life and the family is also affected,also dead people cannot be impacted by anything,but ultimately I decided on the mass murder as in theory the more people,the more relatives and friends who will be devastated by the death,so mass murder is a much worse crime with more affect in my opinion.What do you think?I‘m interested in others opinion on thi.

Also this discussion is specifically for people who do believe or somewhat believe in something greater.

In other words, this isn't a post for debating the possibility of a source of consciousness or an afterlife, so if you don't believe in one then this won't be for you to respond to. Thank you kindly

like to think of myself as a decent guy. But what im about to say might reveal otherwise. I like to think that I respect women. If I dont know your name, you are Miss or Ma'am to me. I will always open the door for you. I have not and will not ever cat call you. If I ever see you struggling to lift something, I will politely ask if you need assistance. And I am fully aware that 100% of the female population has had a bad experience with the male species and I dont want to ever make you uncomfortable. If im walking behind you on a sidewalk lll cross the street so you dont fear or have anxiety about me. Ill do the same if its any other situation that might make you tense that i'm close in proximity to you so I make it known im not a threat. I'm actively scanning surroundings if you're by yourself and will 100% act accordingly if another man approaches you or does anything to make you uncomfortable. I am on your side.

sigh   but when I see your ass in tight yoga pants.....OH MY FUCKING GOD DO I WANT TO BEND YOU OVER YOUR KITCHEN TABLE, RIP THOSE DOWN AND EAT YOU FROM THE BACK.

I am so sorry. I am weak. You look amazing. THAT ASS. Good for you.

The best way I can explain how my mind works is like the movie inside out except the emotions are my own thoughts and the feelings attached to them. I can have so many different emotions going on at the same time, even when they completely contradict each other.
For example, my partner has moved out taken basically everything he owns and our dog but we’re still together he still loves me but he’s happier in the time apart then how he’s been for awhile, and I’m sad and upset about it, but I’m also happy because he’s happier than he’s been in a long time. I’m angry about how he’s handled everything and I’m angry at him for leaving, but I’m also proud of myself for completing my goals. I’m happy that I’m learning to look after myself again I’ve been in a depressive rut for a long time, but at the same time, I can feel completely numb.
All these feelings can exist at once. Sometimes I feel them simultaneously, and other times I can recognise they’re there without actually feeling them.
The hardest part to explain is the numbness. I can be crying about my partner, genuinely upset, and then suddenly it’s like something switches. I can go from crying to sitting on the couch watching TV, feeling completely numb. I still know what happened and why it hurts, but I no longer feel the sadness the same way. It’s like I know the emotion is there, but I’m not connected to it anymore.
The strange thing is that I can sometimes bring those feelings back myself. If I’m numb and think about a specific memory or focus on what’s happened, I can make myself feel the sadness again. Sometimes it’s like flipping a switch, and other times it feels like the emotion was already there somewhere, and I just needed to reconnect with it.
I guess what I’m trying to explain is that I can know exactly what I’m feeling without actually feeling it. I can experience multiple emotions intensely, recognise them without feeling them, or become numb while still being aware of everything going on inside my head. Sometimes I can even choose to reconnect with those feelings.
From the outside, I might look fine or like I’ve moved on from something, when really, I still understand everything that’s happened. My thoughts, emotions, and actual feelings don’t always line up, and that’s the part I’m trying to understand. It’s like I feel everything but nothing at the same time and I get exhausted from feeling and just go numb and I’m like on autopilot idk this turned into half a rant

I found these slugs mating and the intrusive thoughts were telling me to cut their penises off mid mating. If you don't know slugs have both parts. They exchange sperm with there penises and then they each get pregnant. Edit: I forgot to mention i did not disturb them.

It's such a stupid thought because I'm hurting me more than him if I go through with it. I cheated years ago and it was literally thousands of miles away in the ocean on a cruise but he still found out.

I hate the fear and anxiety of being sneaky. I could be caught at any moment for any small thing that I overlooked and I don't wanna deal with that fallout.

Is it bad that that's the only reason I don't cheat? I get upset that he keeps old pics and videos of women he used to be with and he says he doesn't goon to them but why keep them if he doesn't? So in my head, I want to do something that makes him feel betrayed, too.

I can't really leave him but I really don't want to accept this part about him. What's wrong with me? Why do I want to have my own betrayal just because he does? That's so childish and unhinged but here I am fantasizing about calling my ex.

My bf would say these are not the same situations because he's not tryna be with none of the girls in the videos or photos..so I guess he fears that I could leave him for my ex so that's why they're not equivalent.

So I like to sit by the big bay window in my home and there’s a big tree within vision and some other trees to the side. I watch squirrels go up and down and lately been seeing them prepare for winter. Now hear me out, what if I went outside and re-dug them up and put them on top of where it was dug……

I hate it. I was sexually harassed by a guy I had a crush on last yr. cut off contact obvi. he came into my work the other day and I keep having sexual thoughts about him. I've had numerous in the past but they are mostly non consensual which sucks but I'm able to deal. idk it makes me feel less evil having intrusive thoughts where I didn't consent.

but I keep having thoughts about this guy and I enjoy it in the scenario (if that makes sense) I don't enjoy them I feel so disgusting. I feel like I'm cheating on my partner but I can't stop having these thoughts and I keep having sex dreams about him and I'm enjoying it in my dreams.

I fucking hate this i feel so disgusting. I hate that guy I had a panic attack at work after seeing him and I feel like I'm just an awful person.

I've had so many unconsencual thoughts and dreams, about family, random people, me being the assaulter but somehow this is effecting me so much more and I don't know how to deal with it