Introduction

A cognition is a thought or perception, and it affects your feelings.
There is nothing good or bad, but thinking makes it so.
Our genes, hormones, and childhood experiences do have an impact on how we think and feel.
Cognitive therapy seems to be the most effective psychotherapy for depression.
You can defeat depression by changing the negative thinking patterns that cause it.

Theory and Research

A Breakthrough in the Treatment of Mood Disorders

The mood-control techniques provide rapid symptomatic improvement, understanding (a clear explanation of why you get moody and what you can do to change it), self-control, and prevention and personal growth.
When you feel depressed, most of your thoughts are dominated by pervasive negativity.
Your emotional turmoil nearly always contains gross distortions.
You must have a persistent willingness to exert some effort to help yourself.

How to Diagnose Your Moods: The First Step in the Cure

Rate each symptom from 0 to 4: not at all, somewhat, moderately, a lot, extremely.
Feeling sad or down in the dumps: 1
Feeling unhappy: 1
Crying spells or tearfulness: 0
Feeling discouraged: 1
Feeling hopeless: 1
Low self-esteem: 1
Feeling worthless or inadequate: 1
Guilt or shame: 1
Criticizing or blaming yourself: 1
Difficulty making decisions: 0
Loss of interest in family, friends, or colleagues: 0
Loneliness: 0
Spending less time with family or friends: 0
Loss of interest in work or other activities: 0
Avoiding work or other activities: 0
Loss of pleasure and satisfaction: 1
Feeling tired: 2
Difficulty sleeping or sleeping too much: 1
Decreased or increased appetite: 0
Loss of interest in sex: 0
Worrying about your health: 0
Suicidal thoughts: 0
Wanting to end your life: 0
Having a plan for harming yourself: 0

Scoring: 0-5 is no depression. 6-10 is normal, but unhappy. 11-25 is mild depression. 26-50 is moderate depression. 51-75 is severe depression. 76-100 is extreme depression.

Understanding Your Moods: You Feel the Way You Think

Illogical, pessimistic attitudes play a central role in the development of your symptoms.
When you are depressed, you can believe, and get others around you to believe, things that have no basis in reality.

Definitions of cognitive distortions

All-or-nothing thinking: You tend to evaluate your personal qualities in extremes, black-or-white and perfectionistic. A straight-A student receives a B on an exam and concludes, "Now I'm a total failure." Absolutes do not exist in this world.

Overgeneralization: You conclude that one thing that happened to you will occur over and over again. After being rejected by a girl, you conclude, "No girl will ever want to date me."

Mental filter: You pick out the negative in a situation and dwell on it exclusively, thus perceiving the whole situation negatively. A person says something bad about you, and you decide people are cruel and fake, forgetting that people have been friendly to you for the previous two years.

Disqualifying the positive: You transform neutral or positive experiences into negative ones.

Jumping to conclusions: You jump to a negative conclusion that is not justified by the facts of the situation.
Mind reading: You assume that other people look down on you, and you do not bother to check. You may respond to these imagined negative reactions by withdrawing or counterattacking.
The fortune-teller error: You have a crystal ball that foretells only misery for you. You treat the idea that something bad is going to happen as a fact, though it is unrealistic.

Magnification/minimization: You exaggerate the importance of things: "Damn, everything will go to hell, my reputation is ruined." You magnify your imperfections and minimize your strengths.

Emotional reasoning: You take your emotions as evidence for the truth. "I feel inadequate, therefore I'm worthless." "I feel tired, therefore I will skip the gym." Because things feel negative, you assume they are. It doesn't occur to you to question the validity of the perceptions that create your feelings. You were fooling yourself all along by letting your emotions guide the way you act.

Should statements: You try to motivate yourself by saying "I should" and "I must." You feel pressured and resentful. You must change your expectations to approximate reality.

Labeling/mislabeling: "I'm a failure" instead of "I made a mistake." Your self cannot be equated with anything you do.

Personalization: The mother of guilt. You assume responsibility for a negative event when there is no basis for doing so. A child starts taking drugs, and you think, "I'm a horrible parent, it is only my fault that this happened, I should be ashamed of myself and never have kids."

Practical Applications

Start by Building Self-Esteem

80% of depressed patients said they felt self-dislike.
The depressed self-image can be characterized by the four Ds: defeated, defective, deserted, and deprived.
You cannot earn worth through what you do. Achievements bring satisfaction, but not happiness.
Look closely at what you say about yourself when you insist you are no good. The evidence you present in defense of your worthlessness makes no sense.

Specific methods for boosting self-esteem

Talk back to the internal critic. Train yourself to recognize and write down the self-defeating thoughts as they go through your mind. Learn why these thoughts are distorted and develop a more realistic self-evaluation system.
Example: A potential customer hangs up on you and swears at you when you try to sell insurance. Emotions: sad (50%) and angry (70%). Automatic thoughts: "I will never sell a policy again." "I would like to hurt him." "I must have said the wrong thing." Cognitive distortions: overgeneralization, magnification, labeling, jumping to conclusions, and personalization. Rational response: "I've sold a lot of policies. He acted like a pain in the butt. Why let this bother me?"
Mental biofeedback: Use a counter and count each time you have a negative thought.
Cope, don't mope: To get well, you must realize that your negative statements are unrealistic and incorrect.

Do Nothingism: How to Beat It

You can change how you feel by the way you act.

Mindsets of procrastinators

Hopelessness: Everything feels pointless, and your motivation is at zero at the moment.
Helplessness: You believe things are the way they are because of things outside your control, so you do not bother to do anything.
Overwhelming yourself: You magnify a task.
Jumping to conclusions.
Self-labeling: The more you procrastinate, the more you label yourself as inferior.
Undervaluing the rewards: You feel the rewards are not worth the effort.
Perfectionism: You set inappropriate goals, which leads to disappointment, and you end up doing nothing instead.
Fear of failure: You imagine that putting in the effort and not succeeding would be a huge personal defeat, which is why you refuse to try at all.
Fear of success: You are afraid of the expectations that come with it and fear you will be unable to meet them.
Fear of disapproval and criticism: You fear that people won't accept you, so you adopt as low a profile as possible.
Coercion and resentment: You feel under intense pressure to perform, both from outside and from within. When you do not perform what you say you must or should, you feel even worse.
Low frustration tolerance: You believe things should be easy and that you are entitled to that. As soon as obstacles come your way, you quit rather than persisting patiently.
Guilt and self-blame.

The Daily Activity Schedule

The schedule has a prospective column and a retrospective column. 8-9: yoga and eat breakfast (succeeded). 9-10: focused work (failed).

Anti-procrastination sheet

Activity: invest money in bitcoin. Predicted difficulty: 10. Actual difficulty: 7. Actual satisfaction: 8.

Daily record of dysfunctional thoughts

If you try to figure out your thoughts in your head, you will get nowhere because thoughts are complex.
When you write them down, they become exposed to the light of reason.
You are the only person in the world who can persecute yourself.

How to get off your butt: the "but" rebuttal

"I really should exercise, but I'm not in the mood." Rebuttal: "I will feel more like it once I start."
Learn to endorse yourself.
Motivation without coercion: stop saying you must, should, or ought.
List the disadvantages and advantages of your habit (for example, eating junk food).
Visualize success.

Verbal Judo: Learn to Talk Back When You Are Under the Fire of Criticism

The sense of worthlessness comes from the internal critical conversation in your mind, which harangues and persecutes you in a harsh and unrealistic manner.
Only one person in this world has the power to put you down, and that is you.
If someone is wrong, do not bother. If someone is right, do not expect perfection from yourself. Instead, focus on whatever steps are needed to correct it.
What can you say when someone is attacking you, and how can you handle it in a way that enhances your sense of mastery and confidence?
Empathy: The motives might be to help or to hurt you. Ask questions to understand exactly what the person means. Listen to understand the situation as the other person sees it.
Disarming the critic: Stand back and shoot back, run away, or stay put and skillfully disarm your opponent. Find a way to agree.
Feedback and negotiation: Now it is time to explain your position and emotions tactfully but assertively. Base the conflict on facts.
When someone criticizes you, you usually go the mad, sad, or glad route.

Feeling Angry? What Is Your IQ?

The real solution is to stop creating your anger.
The pain and suffering anger causes you may far exceed the impact of the original insult.
The perception of unfairness is the ultimate cause of anger.
Moral statements and judgments about fairness are stipulations, not objective facts.
We all think differently, and there is no universally accepted truth.
The irony of anger is that it never works in changing others.
When to be angry, questions to ask: Is my anger directed toward someone who has knowingly, intentionally, and unnecessarily acted in a hurtful manner? Is my anger useful? Does it help me achieve a desired goal, or does it defeat me?
You are making yourself hurt.
Rewrite your rules.
Paradoxically, as you expect less, you get more.
Should reduction is key.
Accurate empathy: comprehend the thoughts and motivations of other people. "Yes, that is exactly where I'm coming from."

Ways of Defeating Guilt

Use these criteria to determine whether your interpretation of guilt is healthy and normal:
Did I consciously and willfully do something bad or unfair that I shouldn't have? Or am I irrationally expecting myself to be perfect, all-knowing, and all-powerful?
Am I labeling myself as a bad person because of this action? Do my thoughts contain cognitive distortions?
Am I feeling realistic regret or remorse? Are the intensity and duration of my emotional response realistic given what I actually did?
Am I learning from my error and developing a strategy to change, or am I moping, ruminating unproductively, or even punishing myself in a destructive manner?
Who says I should? Where is it written that I should?
You can either accept yourself as an imperfect human being with limited knowledge and realize that you will make mistakes, or you can hate yourself for it.
You must learn to stick to your guns.

Realistic Depressions

Sadness Is Not Depression

Sadness is a normal emotion created by realistic perceptions that describe a negative event involving loss or disappointment in an undistorted way.

Prevention and Personal Growth

The Cause of It All

Getting better implies the following:
Understanding why you got depressed.
Knowing why and how to get better, and mastering the self-help techniques that worked for you.
Acquiring self-confidence and self-esteem. Confidence is knowing that you will be successful in a chosen career and in personal relationships. Self-esteem is the capacity to experience full love whether or not you are successful at any given point in your life.
Locating the deeper cause of your depression.

The Approval Addiction

The price you pay for an addiction to praise is extreme vulnerability to the opinions of others.
If someone disapproves of you, it's their problem. It often reflects the other person's irrational beliefs.
The approval addiction may lie in your interactions with people who were important to you as a child.

The Love Addiction

The demand and need for love before you can feel happy is called dependency. You are unable to assume responsibility for your emotional life.
People who find happiness within themselves become like magnets, since they radiate joy and peace.

Your Work Is Not Your Worth

Treat yourself like a beloved friend.

Dare to Be Average: Ways to Overcome Perfectionism

Perfection is man's ultimate illusion.
You can always find things to improve upon, and if you require perfection from yourself, you will always be one step behind and feel a sense of lack.
What am I afraid of?
What is the worst that could happen?
Will the world come to an end if I make mistakes?
Focus more on the things you do right.
You will and should make mistakes since you are a human being. What can I learn from my mistakes?

We talk a lot about what to add to our lives. But sometimes the biggest improvements come from what we stop doing. What did you let go of that made your life better?

22f.

Lately I have been feeling so purposeless. I don’t know what kind of life I want. I truly don’t know. I don’t know what direction to move in. I don’t know who I am. I cannot imagine how I’d like my life to be.

My life is at a complete standstill right now. Help please.

For many years, I’ve tended to present myself as feminine or gay—for reasons I won’t go into here—and I feel completely devoid of masculinity. My primary friendships have always been with girls (none of whom I ever managed to win over), I’ve pursued extremely passive hobbies that served mostly as distractions (reading, scrolling through my phone, staying shut away in my room...), and I’ve had an embarrassingly close attachment to my mother. (Even now, she calls me "beautiful boy" or "little one," which mortifies me.) Looking back, I feel as though I’ve unnecessarily limited myself. I have the sense that I’ve been overprotected, that I don’t know how to face life, and that I’m just a "sissy." This is compounded by a sedentary lifestyle that has left me incredibly weak. I want to embrace my masculinity and my repressed potential. How do I go about it???

I'm a 26 year old single guy. I have friends, I have hobbies, I go to therapy, i take medication, I'm getting back into working out, i have a good degree (currently in between jobs, but i have signed a contract and all so I'm just taking some unexpected time off), I have my own place. In general, I'm doing well for myself. I'm currently also getting evaluated for ADHD.

I keep going, because I don't feel like there's any possibility not to. I mean I have to eat, I have to have a place to live. But I don't feel a point in any of it. I don't get joy from my hobbies most of the time. I don't care about myself. I don't hate myself, I like who I am. But I don't see much point in myself. I know my friends and family value me, so I wouldn't want to rob them of that. And I want to keep living. But I still don't see a point in anything.

I've never had a relationship, I've never been close to one. I've never even kissed a woman. And that is just ruining everything for me. And I wish it didn't. People tell me to not worry about it, but I don't know how. I don't see a point in continuing to live for myself, do things for myself, because at the end of the day I still fall asleep alone in my bed. Alone in the dark with my loneliness. What's the point of doing things for myself if I'm just going to be alone? What's the point of doing things for myself if I'm sitting here in 25 years wishing that I could have had kids. What good will a hobby do me then.

I can't feel a drive for anything. I don't care about my career. I want to get into better shape but I still don't feel a drive for it. What's the point of being healthy and getting a better body if I'll just die alone anyways. What good will the extra ten years do if they're spent alone. What's the point in furthering my career if all I have is myself to spend the money on. What's the point in cleaning my apartment if I'm the only one to see it.

Therapy hasn't helped me. Neither has all the antidepressants. Working out didn't really help me too much when I did it regularly. Nothing works. And I don't know what to do. I feel so alone, all I want is to be able to hug my girlfriend as we fall asleep, but at the same time I feel zero confidence in believing that she'll ever exist. And I don't know what to do.

I'm 24, a part-time online masters student (also going to be working part-time once my new job starts). I don't have any friends here or partner- my only friend lives abroad. I am struggling to find any fun or variety in my life.

I volunteer occasionally with a wildlife Trust, I am learning to play the guitar, I crochet, read, walk, hike and watch documentaries. But I am not finding fun in them anymore.

I want some hobby, club or activity that is affordable and would help me make some friends.

I would also like to learn how I can actually enjoy my aloneness without being so depressed and feeling like I'm missing out because the misery is killing me.

My routine is the same and it's boring me so much.

If you aren't having a great day, if you think you are not enough or just want someone to listen to you and hear you as you speak your heart anonymous without feeling judged. Feel free to comment and be yourself 💜⭐

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I've been thinking about something interesting about human behavior.

Sometimes we understand exactly why we do something. We recognize the pattern, know where it comes from, and even understand what we should change. Yet we keep doing the same thing.

Why is understanding our behavior so different from actually changing it?

I'm curious about what people think. Is it mostly habit, emotional attachment, fear of change, or something deeper?

I've been exploring these questions through psychology and would love to hear different perspectives.

Day 11 of improving myself

I woke up at 6:00 am and today I did the following

Health -

Running

Workout ( body weight exercise and dumbbell exercises )

Mind-

1) Meditation

2) Chess 1 match

3) Book reading ( Never finished , Sorrounded by idiots , Slight edge )

4) Language learning ( German )

5) Brain exercises

6) Read 2 pages of encyclopedia (today's topic - chips and processors and computers history)

Academics -

1) finished 9 chapters (5 hours study)

Finance -

No earning today

Daily affairs

1) Read the newspaper and got updated with the latest happenings with the day

This is all I did along with good habits and basic care for myself

Physics nowadays feel intuitive and I can understand it better now , I try to answer weird questions with it

And like to venture into the unknown

My love for physics is increasing

Good night lads ...will update tomorrow

It's Monday, so a lot of people are on day one of something right now. Plenty of others have already pushed it to next Monday, because starting on a Tuesday felt wrong somehow.

Something I keep noticing in threads here: nobody says "I'll start Monday" about small things. You don't wait for Monday to drink a glass of water. It comes out about the big rebuilt version. The new routine, the full diet, the 6am gym plan.

In that sentence Monday isn't really a date. It's a way to keep the plan clean. Start on a Wednesday and the week already has blanks in it, so it feels like failing before you've begun. Wait for Monday and the plan gets to stay perfect for a few more days.

A few things that seem to break the loop:

• Start on an awkward day on purpose. Thursday afternoon. The plan is messy from minute one, so there's nothing left to protect.
• Start with a version small enough to feel a bit silly. Not "run 5k", just "shoes on, out the door, back in ten minutes if I want".
• Make Monday a review day instead of a start day. Look at last week, change one thing, keep going.

The uncomfortable part is that a perfect plan you haven't started feels better than a messy one you're actually doing. Only one of them changes anything though.

If you've said "next Monday" more than a couple of times about the same thing, what were you really waiting for?

i used to spend like 20 minutes before every workout reading about form. watching videos, checking if i was doing it right. then i’d be tired and skip the workout lol. i just stopped and started going straight to the first set. three months in and i’ve done more than the whole year before. what have you cut that actually made a difference

how do i stop being so useless? im always such a letdown. no matter how hard i try i dont seem to be getting good at anything. my teachers used to tell me im gifted or something as a kid but now im starting to realize that im probably kinda dumb but i cannot let the desire of being gifted or especial go. but i know i can't be that sort of a person. the type others look up to. i know but it still bothers me and i cannot make peace with being an average dumbass with average iq and below average capabilities. im the worst in everything i touch. im not even good at gaming but i want something to be good at, yet that something perhaps will never exist? if my goals and wishes were stuff i could actually do maybe i could be a bit more useful. more competent. but i am unable to wish for anything but the best stuff and its making my existence unbearable.

I have a tendency to overeat and graze out of boredom or stress, but don't have a full binge eating disorder. I suspect this habit is tied to my BPD, where I binge to escape both the emptiness as well as bad feelings. Additionally, I really struggle to focus when I'm not munching on something, I can't study unless I'm putting things in my mouth. I chew a LOT of gum and it helps with the sensory seeking aspect, but not the emotional. I also try to binge on fruit, but when I'm really upset, I can't stop myself from reaching for the sugar. I'm so so so petrified of what I'll do to my weight, but I can't seem to stop. Don't know if the binge eating or BPD subs can help me with this; please, any tips, especially from those who might relate?

Edit: I've tried to find sensory replacements for food, but nothing else hits the same besides self harm, so I guess I'm in a pick-your-poison situation. Has anyone found an effective replacement?

Hi all! So if you have people in your life that sometimes will not respond to a text, email, etc. Do you do the same to them? I have someone in my life that will ignore my emails cuz she does not want to engage in say a vent I have about something (not her) but when reversed I always , like 100% of the time, make myself available to hear her out.

I have tiny bursts of motivation every so often to improve myself but they go away so quickly. I try to force myself to keep going but it never works.

I'm 24, and honestly, I'm frustrated with myself. I do make progress when I start learning something, but as soon as it gets difficult or requires sustained effort, I lose interest and start looking for something else. With AI and everything it rotted my brain even more

Anyone questioning me what I am doing can shatter me cause I dont feel confident in my skills. making plans to improve my career and learn new skills, but I struggle to stick with anything long enough to become really good at it. I do spend hours daily learning and all but nothing seems like I am putting my heart or actually focusing all the things i learn feels surface level. I am not able master or go deep in my career path because it gets boring or lazy if I have to keep real efforts

The worst part is that I genuinely want to achieve something in life. I want financial independence and a career I'm proud of, but I am loosing trust in myself to put in the consistent work required to get there. cause I am seeing this pattern since my entire life. I cant rememebr once in my life where i felt confident like yes I have something to my name.

I'm 24, and I'm scared I'll keep repeating this cycle for years. I don't know if it's my attention span, my habits, or something else, but I'm exhausted by it.

How does someone even end up in the position that im in. Im 26f, with a degree but have been unemployed for past 3 years. I dont have any desire to learn about finances, career, get a car, learn adult responsibilities. I Live at my parent’s home. Use my savings to spend on little things but everything else paid by parents (thankful) but realize its keeping in a loop. I know living at home is the reason for majority of my depression but i cant seem to get out (and my parents dont want me to move out weirdly enough).

What you recommend as the first steps to avoid feeling comfortable with struggling. It seems like for me i cant take any initiative until a major change would force me to. But with the support of my parents, i think its making me not want to be self independent even more

For years, I only used social media for doomscrolling. Months lately, I have decided to reduce times on them entirely until I can quit it, because of how it affects my mental health and consume all the time I could have lived my life to the fullest.

But I recently made some friends who are pretty active on social media. They post regularly, are really expressive, post so many fun things, and have unique aesthetics. I find myself feeling missing out, scared of not fitting in with them, whenever we hang out, they cannot tag me on Ig to post on their story because I rarely use it.

I don't think I want their lifestyle; I don't want to constantly take photos, post, do trends, do makeup to take photos, care too much about my appearance, or edit photos. It takes too much time for a result that I don't care about. I get overwhelmed easily and want a peaceful environment where I don't have to do all of those things.

But somehow, I still think using social media to express myself is not a bad idea; it is just that I want to do it in a way that does not drain me, more authentic and less aesthetic pressure.

So, does anyone have the same feeling as me? And how do you solve it?

Hey friends! I have a question for you.

When it comes to refreshing and clearing your brain to totally reboot it, what works best for you?

Is it some kind of action (like a workout, jog, or walk) where sweating it out helps clean up your head and spark inspiring thoughts?

Or is it doing nothing, melting into shavasana, or even actively practicing boredom while sitting in an armchair?

Let's talk!

My attention span is in shambles, with no exaggeration. Sometimes I engage in highly stimulating activities and still need additional stimulation on the side.

It's affecting my life a lot as anyone can guess, I have diagnosed and medicated ADHD and I've tried some things already.

The main thing was using less extreme things to stimulate myself, so avoiding stuff like video games and watching tv shows in excess. The main replacements are studying, going on walks and reading books. It's something I do gradually to not burn myself out.

I'd like to receive some advice from people who were in a similar situation - your input is valueable even if you're not neurodivergent.

went on a trip last month and was kinda excited to finally use it. walked up to order coffee, the barista asked me something super normal and my brain just went blank. 400 days of the owl telling me I’m crushing it and i couldn’t put together one sentence

i think the streak only means i opened the app. i was doing the easiest 5 min lessons in bed with hints on, tapping the word bank, getting my little flame and going to sleep. that was it

doing 10 min a day now where i talk out loud with no hints and write sentences from scratch. it’s embarrassing how bad i am. same thing’s happening with my midterm prep this semester i swear, i keep doing stuff that feels like progress.

Hey guys, I’m currently in a course where we do different activities like gymnastics, art, music, swimming and other stuff. There’s a trainee there who takes part in several of these activities. I’m 20 and she’s around my age too.
Lately, there have been some moments where I’m not sure what to think. For example, I started making something, and she started making the exact same thing, just with a different material. She has also asked me questions, like whether my sister was born before me.
Another time, there were 6–7 other people sitting there, but she chose to sit right next to me and asked me what I wanted to do. I started knitting, and she said she felt like knitting too, so she started knitting as well. We then looked through a book together to figure out how to do it and talked about it.
She has also asked me where I got my bracelets from, which she had noticed several times, and what they mean. When I was sick, she asked me the next day if I was still able to celebrate my birthday.
There were also moments when she saw me coming in from outside and asked me why I was wearing my jacket and if I was cold. I remember thinking, why is she asking me that?
We also played a ball game where you had to throw the balls in a certain rhythm. There were 7–8 other people standing there. The first ball went to someone else, then I got the second ball and threw it to her. When the third ball came, she immediately threw it back to me first, even though there were plenty of other people she could have thrown it to.
Yesterday, she came in because she has an exam coming up and needs a group of people for it. Out of everyone there, she approached me first and asked if I would be willing to participate when she takes her exam, But I think she asked others that before, too.
There have also been moments when I asked her for her name, but she wouldn’t tell me until I eventually guessed it, and then she said I was right I don't know why she didn't say it maybe because of the job
I’ve also made jokes a few times, and she has laughed at them several times and smiled at me. She has told me about her training and mentioned that she isn’t really happy with her job at the moment. I also told her that I think she’s doing a good job, but I don’t know if she appreciated that or how she felt about it.
Since she’s doing her training there, she probably has certain rules she has to follow, so I don’t know if all of this is just normal behavior or if it could mean something more. Or whether she's just doing her job
What do you guys think?

Moved countries, broke student to very well paying job, scrawny kid to very good physique, extreme social anxiety to being able to talk to anyone anytime, no friends to a core group of friends, being serious and boring to laid back and life full of hobbies and interests.

My life is dramatically different. But extremely unfulfilling.

I have no one to share my life with. No love. No partner. Never made any improvement whatsoever. No matter how hard I tried. No matter what I did. No matter how much I improved. 28 years of my life transforming and never could I find someone that loves me.

Everything feels useless and meaningless. All this transformation to only end up feeling lonely and depressed.

I am 19 years old, I'm finishing high school and had one job in my life, disconsidering the quick ones with my father as a mason. I don't know how to study properly, I'm addicted to my phone and +18 stuff, I've done 2 technical courses, one for graphic design and one for basically game design. I procrastinated enough, I need to get a grip but I don't know where to start. My leg is injured, and I can't search for jobs right now, but I don't have the money to get proper design apps and softwares, I'm sick of the same cycle over and over again, I would be very glad if someone have any tips for how I start.

Tiktok has consumed my entire life, my attention span is shit and yada yada, but what i wanted to ask was what do i do in my free time without tiktok? Also i love watching edits so what do i do if i want to watch edits of my favorite character? And how will i find out about a new show, new season of a show, new movie, videogame or wtv? Im genuinely trying to quit but im also scared because i feel like i wont know what to do with myself once i do