Felt a little catfished by my date last night

We matched on bumble and conversation went fine. We talked on the phone a few times before meeting. And she did mention how she needs to lose 20 lbs and needs to get back to how she looked in the summer. I didnt really think much of it because I dont mind chubby. I was chubby, my exes were chubby. Its fine! I like a lot of body types.

However. I felt totally catfished. She showed up and its a huge difference than what is on her profile. At least a 30 lb weight difference. Which just. Bothers me because like. How old are those pictures? Why not be straight up and show your body as is? When I hear "oh I need to lose 20" I don't think much of it because im going on the pictures she showed.

Now I just feel bamboozled and a little irritated. Its a lie. Ive always had my pictures up to date with my body as is. It doesnt make sense because like. Im gonna meet you anyway? So why not show me what you really look like?

What would you do? The date went fine but my attraction to her is questionable at this current state. It doesnt help that she showed up with greasy hair and ill fitting clothes. Kinda like no effort for dinner. She did come almost straight from work so im thinking maybe go out once more to see if I feel differently.

I dont know.

Anyone else been catfished? Thoughts?

why are there so many “do i look gay?” posts on here. is this an american thing or something? most of my lesbian or queer friends are in their early to mid twenties and i genuinely don't think any of us look alike in the slightest. i'm not sure why i keep seeing these posts almost every day, but i promise you there is no universal lesbian look

you can be the most feminine woman ever or look more masculine, and neither makes you any less of a lesbian. being a lesbian is a sexuality, nottttt a look!! i feel like we need to stop putting so much emphasis on whether we look gay enough because what does that even mean when lesbians can look so different from one another? you don't need to fit a certain aesthetic or look a certain way to be part of the community

you don't need validation from strangers on the internet to dress how you want, either. wear what you like, do your hair however you want, and present yourself in whatever way makes you feel comfortable. you don't owe anyone a particular appearance!!

I fully embraced my lesbian identity a little over 2 years ago and have definitely been enjoying hooking up with women in that time. I’ve found that I enjoy penetration and much prefer it over oral, scissoring, or other types of activities. I’ve started to feel weird about this as it seems so many gay women are very into scissoring and being eaten out, I feel a bit out of place. I also love being penetrated with the strap, but have seen some women describe that as too straight so they don’t like it. Now i’m getting insecure that I enjoy “straight” activities in the bedroom. Anyone else feel this way?

just a bit of a rant and PSA : some lesbian promoted events have hosts who are NOT lesbians, let alone queer. specifically in miami, FL. please do your due diligence if this is something that may rub you the wrong way. had an old coworker send me a flyer for a “sapphic speed dating” event she’s hosting (ive been in a committed relationship for years now, btw). mind you this woman is one of the straightest people ive ever met in my life and has been living with her man for years. her event group is hosting a sapphic event and she will be the one making money from it.

i’m not sure why straight people think this is okay. i told her why that’s out of pocket and unacceptable and she became defensive and stands on the fact that it’s okay because her lesbian friends are co hosting with her. straights have every single other party/ bar for them! why can’t we have a couple things for ourselves without it being infiltrated ???

Gave my gf head for the first time the other day.

I reallyyyy liked it but I wanted some extra tips because I have no idea what to do with my hands during besides either holding onto her thighs or fingering her with one. Also endurance, my tongue got sore after a few minutes but I persevered 🫡 but for the next 2 days the base of it was sore from overworking it ig 😩 I just love watching her become a mess so anything will help

I’m still young and haven’t been with another girl yet and I’m also kinda scared to. I have a breast deformity called tubular boobs. They don’t look the way other girls do. They are saggy, puffy, small and sit in a V shape. I often wonder to myself if anyone will ever find them pretty. I don’t know is this just my insecurities talking? I know I can’t ever afford to get them fixed so I’m just stuck with the way they look. I’ve heard the “people will love you for your personality not your looks” thing before and yes it’s a nice thought but I want a partner to also find me attractive y’know?

With so less lesbian media I can't help but imagine many lesbian stories in my head. I wonder if u all do this too. I don't want every lesbian movies to be about struggle and coming out, sometimes I want my movies to have lesbian in a non homophobic world and not doomed u know.

Edit: Lesbian writers please let us know ur work so we can support you.

I fear this maybe somewhat of a long post. I know what I have to do, but I just need to vent and possibly get some support. I appreciate there’s millions of posts like this but just getting it off my chest helps.

For some context, I’m a 24F grew up in a very conservative South Asian Hindu family where even dating is seen as a taboo. I’ve been told that I need to get an arranged marriage and have kids since I was 11.

I knew I liked women when I was 12 and came out as bisexual to my friends who were very accepting. I always knew I liked women. I love everything about them. I dated a girl in high school and I knew in my heart that this is what I wanted. But men, I constantly questioned my attraction towards them. A lot of what I convinced myself was ‘attraction’ towards men was mainly because of my family and their expectations. I was desperate to always keep them in my life. I’ve never had a boyfriend nor ever gad sex with a man.

When I was 18 I told my mum I liked women, it was quickly shut down with “you will marry a man and have kids”. I tried to convince myself I liked men. I moved to the UK for University at that point and I tried going on dates with both men and women. But I was constantly so repulsed and disgusted that it would never make it beyond the first date. I remember kissing a man, rushing home to my friend and bursting into tears because it was disgusting. I would always walk away from them because I didn’t want them touching me. And I hated it when they were interested in me.

Whereas the dates I had with women were everything and more. I wanted to be with them, to touch them, kiss them, love them. I constantly dreamt of having a girlfriend, a wife. I can only ever imagine a future with a woman.

A lot of my sexuality was tied into my culture, expectations and guilt. I love my family, my mum and dad have worked so hard to give me the life I wanted. I stand with immense privilege because I’m a doctor and I went through all of medical school without worrying about finances, they’ve always given me everything I’ve asked for and they’ve supported me through everything. So I feel like I owe them something.

I constantly questioned my sexuality but this year I realized I can’t keep torturing myself like this because that’s exactly what it felt like with men, torture. I came out as a lesbian to my closest friends.

I’m home for annual leave. My mum and I were having a very heated discussion on organ donation (weird right) because she was upset I opted into it without discussing it with her first and that she had a right over what happened to my body if I were to die.

One thing lead to another and I ended up coming out to her. I’m going to just list everything you told me point wise because it’s a lot

\- She said she wasn’t surprised and she always had a feeling. When I asked her why she didn’t talk to me about it she said “why should I make things easier for you?”

\- I asked her whether she still loves and cares about me. She said she is my mother and she’ll always love and care about me. But she can’t accept me. She says it doesn’t change how she feels about me.

\- She went into a little bit of an existential crisis where she kept repeating “what have we been working towards our entire life. She said that my poor father has high expectations for me and he’s a fool working like a donkey everyday.

\- She said that regardless, it’s my duty to get married to a man and have kids. She said marrying a woman is just not an option and is not something she can accept nor support. She said that at the end of the day I just have to “get on with things” and “do what has to be done”. She said that maybe I can potentially find a partner that will be understanding of my ‘situation’

\- She said that she doesn’t feel betrayed ‘yet’. And that it depends on what I choose to do in the future. If I do marry a woman then she’ll feel like she wasted her life away. She then proceeded to say things like “God will find a way” and that “God will show her the right path”. Disownment depends on what I do in the future as well.

\- She said that she refuses to get laughed at or looked down on by the rest of her family. I asked her whether she rather I didn’t say anything and she said it’s “God” that made me say it out loud so she could manage her expectations.

\- Finally, this conversation was shelved for today. It’s just around speciality application season for me and it’s quite a stressful time because my visa is tied to my work. So she said let’s focus on that for now and we’ll think about everything else later. She said that she won’t tell my father because he won’t be able to handle it.

There’s also so much uncertainty because I’m an F2 doctor (UK grad) and I need to get a speciality / clinical fellow spot or I’ll have to come back home next year (August 2027) which I’m afraid will cause my family to force me to get married. So I need to ace the exams.

I know what I have to do. And mentally I’ve always been prepared for potentially being disowned. I know it’s not happening now but the fact that it’s highly likely is painful. And I have so much guilt. My parents have gone above and beyond for me in so many aspects of my life and in theory I know I haven’t done anything wrong but I feel like I betrayed them and it hurts so much.

I’m 27F, diagnosed with ADHD, and I’m realizing that I have this pattern where I constantly need to have someone I’m romantically fixated on. I’m wondering if anyone else experiences this and whether ADHD plays a role.

For some context, I know I have attachment issues from past experiences and I’m actively working on them in therapy. I’m pretty self-aware of my patterns at this point, but actually changing them has been a completely different story lol.

For over a year, I was obsessively ruminating over someone I briefly dated. Constantly replaying our interactions, wondering what could’ve happened, checking her socials, etc. I recently met someone new who I genuinely like, and it’s almost like my brain has just transferred that obsession onto her.

We’ve only been seeing each other casually, and she’s been very upfront about wanting to stay single. I knew this from the beginning and thought I’d be fine with it since I’m not necessarily looking for a relationship either.

But now I find myself thinking about her CONSTANTLY. Wondering whether she likes me as much as I like her, whether she’s seeing other people, whether I’m her favourite, overanalyzing texts, checking socials, and getting anxious over the smallest things. It’s exhausting and honestly embarrassing to admit.

The weird part is that I don’t even necessarily want her to be my girlfriend. I think I just want to feel special to her or know that she likes me more than the other girls she’s seeing, which I realize is probably more about validation than anything else.
And to be clear, she hasn’t actually done anything wrong. She’s been affectionate, communicative, and consistent with what she told me she wanted. Most of this is happening entirely in my own head.

I feel like my brain needs a romantic fixation to keep itself entertained. When I don’t have someone to think about, life feels less exciting, and when I do, it’s like they become the main character of my entire mental life. I genuinely can’t seem to just have a normal crush and enjoy getting to know someone without turning it into a full-time obsession.

I’ve been reading about limerence, ADHD hyperfixation, dopamine seeking, rejection sensitivity, etc., and a lot of it resonates, but I also don’t want to attribute everything to ADHD when I know attachment issues are probably a big part of it too.

Has anyone else dealt with this? Especially the feeling of needing to have someone to obsess over at all times?

What actually helped you break the cycle? I’m already in therapy, but I’d really appreciate hearing from people who’ve experienced something similar, particularly anything that helped with the compulsive checking, overthinking, and constant need for romantic validation.
I just want to be able to like someone without them consuming my entire brain 😭

Hi! I’m 25F and recently moved to SF/Bay Area from another region of the US. One of the things I was excited about was exploring the dating scene here. I’ve always known I was a lesbian, but never really explored that while living in my hometown. 

Since moving here, I’ve tried HER and Hinge and have been on three first dates in total. I know that’s not terrible, but I can’t help but feel like I’m undesirable/unattractive. 

I think a major part of this is internalized racism. I see so much negativity about Indian-American/South Asian-American women online, particularly when it comes to dating and attractiveness, and I think it’s affected how I see myself. It’s hard not to internalize those messages when you encounter them so often. What’s also difficult is knowing that it’s likely that the people I’m trying to date are probably exposed to the content/may have subconsciously internalized those stereotypes too, if that makes sense? With the rise in anti-Indian sentiment on what feels like every single platform, it’s just always at the back of my mind that everyone thinks of my family and I in this way.

I also find it difficult navigating a queer dating scene where so much of the dating pool seems to be white. I’d love to be with another WOC because I imagine there'll be a greater sense of shared understanding and honestly I did feel this way on the three dates I went on (who were all also different Asian ethnicities), but I can’t help feeling undesirable to them (and maybe it's even more internalized racism to think they'd always choose a white partner over me? insane ik). I know these feelings don’t necessarily reflect reality, but I don’t know how to stop thinking this way. 

I guess I’m looking for advice from other queer WOC who’ve struggled with internalized racism and feelings of undesirability because of such online rhetoric while dating. How do you unlearn these beliefs when you feel like you’re not anyone’s preferred type/immediately disregarded because of your ethnicity? And how do you keep putting yourself out there without letting these experiences affect your self-worth? 

I want to get to a place where I don’t automatically assume someone won’t like me because of my ethnicity, but right now, I’m struggling with that more than I’d like to admit. :( 

Anything is helpful, thank you <3

I actually posted here a year ago about my fear that one day my relationship with my long term girlfriend of 4 years might end because she wants to have kids, get pregnant, and have a family. Well, it happened last Saturday. Ended the relationship of 4 years and 11 months. We're approaching our 5th year anniversarry next month but I guess, life is full of surprises. That's just it, just an update and still in pain.

I am so sorry i wanted to accept the chat but ended up ignoring it so I'm posting again on the communities I posted in in hopes you'll see it and remessage me I really wanted to chat

Looking forward to seeing my girlfriend (LDR). I think I’ll weep when I see that beautiful face

So this might be a short story made long but here we go. I told this girl I’m in a situationship in that I wanted to spend time with her but I don’t wanna spend too much money but I still wanted to do sum because it felt good outside. I’m a college student who pays bills so I made sure I made a lil money that day and told her I would come get her. When I called her she was already at the spot I wanted to take her to watch the sunset and was with her brothers so we didnt do anything. I was taking all day because one of my jobs is Walmart delivery. And I was getting stuff to cook for us later as well. And I had classes earlier that day. But I still wanted to get sum for her so I got her a boo basket. Had lil beauty stuff in and with candy and juice. I set it up in my back seat and had a lil light on.

Ended up getting her to the car and sb ended talking to her and she seen the light in the back seat obviously but I was still trynna play it cool because I was nervous lol. Gave her the gift we looked through everything seemed like she liked it. she didn’t embrace me or anything so idk I was already nervous and I’m looking at her mannerisms so I’m just trynna play it cool.

Ended up going to Kroger we laughing about lil shit yk. Come back she sit the stuff on table start playing her game. I start cooking the food yk. While I’m cooking I’m getting a lil irritated because I feel like she not paying me no attention. Usually when she cooks for us I’ll talk to her here n there. Check on her 1 or 2x she didn’t check not once but it was ok cause I’m thinking maybe cause she a lil tipsy/ tired cause she was drinking with her brothers. And it was late.

fast forward we eat she tell me thank you . Gts . I wake up I have to go to class and I’m like you fell asleep on me. She said I wasn’t doing nun to keep her awake. I said I wasn’t doing a whole bunch she said it was the energy. She said I basically didn’t set the mood right when giving her the gift. That the “moment only lasted 2 sec and we just went to Krogers “ and you forgot the flowers. Things tend to slip my mind easily but soon as I remembered which was only after we got back in the car from Krogers. Im in the process of getting diagnosed with adhd which she knows. Which is why things slips so easily. But I gave them to her and I was so adored by how cute she looked holding them. But she basically said it was my attitude when i gave them to her which I was nervous but yeah. We’re both 23 as well

I’m curious if certain behaviors are red flags or not that big of a deal in relationships. I know some of these are up to debate between the couple, but I’m worried my girlfriend and I are very incompatible or maybe it is a “red flag.”

1. Consuming adult content in any form (watch, read, listen)
2. Following old FWB on social media
3. Saying hi to and chatting briefly with exs (situationship, FWB, flings, or a serious ex)
4. Calling your friends beautiful, gorgeous, or sexy
5. A glance at another persons butt or boobs (not in a creepy way please don’t be gross)

I believe adult content is fine unless it’s an addiction or obsession. The other three I don’t believe are a big deal. I’m a social person and also genuinely curious about people so I love to strike up a conversation. Certain people from my past I do have blocked and won’t speak to, but most of them I wouldn’t hide from as they’re decent people. I believe it’s completely fine with my partner to do all the same as well, but it is their choice if they choose not to.

Edit: more context in comments

Hey guys, I’m gonna be using the talk to text so it’s a little easier but I just want to write this because I want to see how other people in the community thought about this but I’m a stud. I’m a black masculine lesbian and for the first time in my life, I do feel really comfortable in myself and the way I dressed and the way I present, but it sucks because the only thing that is sort of keeping me from putting myself out there again because my last relationship thing was like probably around two years ago and then I haven’t been able to get close to anyone else after that because I hate the thought of being perceived like I know I’m black and masc presenting so a lot of people assume that maybe I really like sex and I’m a player and I’m not a good person and I’m evil and I try to let it brush off my shoulder, but I feel like in the relationship sense like I do want to be in a relationship. I think it’s hard to put myself out there again because I hate the thought of getting into a relationship and then right off the bat having to try to approve I’m a good person and then also like I’m literally just a girl you know like I present masculine but my personality I don’t know if you would say it was either masculine or feminine you know and like there are some things I do and I hate when people are like oh you know you’re so sassy, like no I’m just myself you know and I’m I’m doing whatever I want and I’m saying whatever I want and I don’t wanna be judged for things because people already assumed that I’m gonna be like emotionally unavailable or like never cry and always wanna have sex and a player and I think it’s just hard for me to put myself out there and I am young. I’m like 23. Well I guess I’m sort of young. I just feel like it’s difficult in the younger queer community. I feel like now I’m sort of entering like like you know mid 20s it seems to be getting better but there’s been like multiple times. People are just coming up to me and they’re like you know yeah like I wanna fuck like you should fuck her things like that and it’s just like gross honestly like I feel like really bad about it and I’m like I don’t wanna just be seen as a sex symbol and I wanna be in love but yeah so that’s just sorta sucks, like I want someone that I can treat like a princess but I want someone to treat me like a princess too.

I travelled down to her and we had a first date! I'll be staying over for a few days and WOW the chemistry is insane, we are so in sync 🥰

I had my first in-person date as a trans woman with my girlfriend she went through every effort to give me the Princess treatment and "girlfriend experience", it was really sweet and I was so flustered.

As soon as she stepped out the uber she threw herself onto me and I caught her, after cuddling she took me by the hand and began leading me away for our plans!

The first two places they suggested were closed but the third one was a cozy cafe that did porridge and granola, it was absolutely fantastic and we sat with the window view upstairs, it was absolutely fantastic and the whole vibe of the place was lesbian coded. We were excited but flustered and not sure what to say, we managed to break the ice and connect which was really nice.

On a whim they took me to a cat cafe which was so ADORABLE, I absolutely melted for the little kitties and the staff were so lovely! We cuddled on a couch, watching the kitties and we kept looking into each other's eyes before she went in for a kiss! We ended up cuddling, flirting and kissing a lot throughout the next hour. Safe to say the first date was a success and we had an amazing rest of the day and night too!

Can't wait to keep spending the next few days together!!

Hey everyone !

I'm a 20-year-old from North Africa, currently studying computer science and hoping to relocate to Europe in the next year or two. Spain has been particularly on my mind lately, and I've recently been putting more effort into learning Spanish

I'd love to meet people from different parts of Europe, make some new friends, and hopefully find a few people I really click with. And if you happen to speak Spanish, I'd be especially happy to have a practice buddy. I'm always excited to learn about other cultures, languages, and what everyday life is like in different places, it’s so fascinating how things can seem so different but also be similar despite thousands of kilometers separating people.

A little about me : I'm a language enthusiast who speaks four languages fluently and would happily spend far too much time learning a more. I'm also a huge nerd with a soft spot for anime, manga, books, musicals, cartoons, and video games. I enjoy writing and drawing, and I'm hoping to publish my own novels someday.

Outside of being a nerd, I love nature, long walks, museums, bookstores, and pretty much anything involving water. I could spend hours by the sea without getting bored. I also have a soft spot for animals, especially cats (i have multiple friends sending me cat pictures daily for a dopamine boost and yes I will stop in the middle of the road to pet a cat because it’s a cat and cats are cute and they deserve love.)

Personality-wise, I'm usually pretty calm and soft-spoken, but get me comfortable around you and I won’t shut up. A yapprr at heart, what can I say. I love a good conversation, whether we're talking about something serious at 2 a.m. or enthusiastically explaining our latest niche obsession to each other (please do, i love listening to yappers as much as i love yapping)

I appreciate people who are open-minded, kind, curious about the world, and comfortable being themselves. I especially enjoy meeting people who can talk about pretty much anything without feeling the need to judge everyone else's life choices

I'm also a big planner, I love knowing what I'll be doing/getting/trying/ect and having multiple alternatives also planned and ready if things don’t work our

As for why I'm posting here : Europe is big, because it’s a continent (very advanced geography I'm aware), and I'd love to get to talk to more people from different countries there (very especially Spain) rather than just daydreaming about it from afar. I'm curious about the languages, cultures, little everyday things, and experiences that you don't necessarily learn about unless you're living there

I'll also be hospitalized starting Sunday for a few days, so I'd love to get to know more people while I'm sat doing nothing in a hospital room !

And who knows ? Sometimes the best connections happen when you're not specifically looking for them.

If you've made it this far, tell me something about where you live that you think more people should know about ?

Or, if you speak Spanish, feel free to tell me about a favourite Spanish expression, song, book, or show. I'm always looking for new things to discover :3

Looking forward to meeting you all ✨️

back in may, a friend and i shared a drunk kiss. this friend and i are in the same friend group btw (it's 4 of us). the next morning she had told us that she blacked out, so i gave her a play by play of the night. she seemed regretful at the time.

just a bit of back story, this friend was in a commitment of over 5 years with her first love and after their break up she's been in connection with others (not that it matters). but i had gotten out of a 4 year on and off situation with my ex in 2024 and have been fully single for 2 years since then. i'm someone who is okay with being single and not dating. i'm also 28 and am figuring out what the fuck i'm doing with my life?

so fast forward, we moved on and decided to not dwell on the kiss. but we ended up kissing again the weekend of pride. after that, we went on a date and agreed that we were open to the idea of us getting to know each other on a romantic level. she admitted that there was an attraction towards me. she also had expressed on that date that a relationship was just something she's not ready for. WHICH IS OKAY, i was aware of that from even before we got involved with each other

but it's been almost 4 months of us talking (we've also been friends for over a year now), and recently she had expressed that she's still not ready. again which is okay but i have pulled my energy back a bit. i also feel that we lack compatibility in ways that matter to me. i don't believe in changing someone to meet my standards, i think she's great as she is but i don't think i am interested in settling for potential.

after my last relationship i made a promise to myself that i want someone who is certain about me. i don't think anyone will ever be fully ready for a relationship and the responsibilities that come with one, but i think if we've been involved this long and nothing has changed in that aspect i'd rather just stay friends.

and we had a conversation recently where she expressed that distance doesn't help deepen a connection, but it feels contradictory? it's like she doesn't want a relationship but wants the closeness of one y'know?

i think i'm having a hard time with this because i don't want the group dynamic to die because of this choice. i really care for her and have so much love for her. but i also have to honor myself and respect my choice. i dont want to be led on and i dont want to lead her on.

has anyone been through something similar? or can give me any input, pls and thanks

Just wanting to see how other lesbians in relationships talk with their partners.
I talked with my gf recently about something that she did that bothered me and it didn’t go well.

If your gf approached you with something that you did that bothered her how would you react?

Im 26f and my ex fiance and I broke up in January. Ive been in therapy and doing a lot of my own healing. I havent really been looking to date and I just figured if things happen then they happen. I am happy being alone and I dont really desire anyone else like that again. I currently have a crush on a friend of mine but its just a crush and nothing more
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So 23f hit me up on instagram. She has very deeply pursued me. She is very interested. The thing is, Im 26, sober, independent, and Ive been through a lot. Im looking for maturity in my next partner and want someone with a lot in common with me. This person doesnt seem that. However, I cant tell if Im just offput because I just have been lacking interest in others or if its fear of rejection OR if its because I have a crush on someone already. I just dont know what to do really.

not sure what to label this, but the title needed to be eye catching. i know how to drive, i just do it non legally, lol, but i am unfortunately a 27yr old virgin. also on mobile so sorry for any bad layout/wall of texts this post will have.

i live in a fairly rural area of northern british columbia. i’m 27, have never been in a relationship or have even kissed anyone, let alone held their hand, and have known i’m a raging dyke since the 3rd grade. nowww normally, this wouldn’t be such an issue because i’ve worked on it diminishing it to a small problem rather than the gigantic one it’d been from the ages of 13-25, but my sister (who’s straight) has once again gotten into my head by telling me that i haven’t “really grown as a person” since i haven’t dated anyone at all, and, well, like i said, it’s gotten into my head. i feel like a loser to say less, lmao. i reminded her that what worked for her might not work for me, and she simply said “you do you, boo🤪” in response.

there’s not a lot of LGBT people within the area, and my family is quite large so the very few of fellow gays/lesbians around are either still in high school OR they’re related to me somehow, some way. dating apps are never useful, and any connections made always end up ghosting or dying into nothing. the nearest “big” city is 7hrs away, whereas Vancouver is roughly 16-20hrs away by driving.
i’m in college at the moment, a year off from my last real job as an education assistant, have done some serious improvements to my general health/mental health over the past 5yrs, and i’d like to say that i’m not terrible looking as a masc presenting lesbo, so, really, to make a long story somewhat short, i feel as if i have the right qualifications to someday soon “truly grow as a person,” as my sister put it lmao, by finding someone.

i guess this is more of a long winded complaint over straight people (my sister) making me feel less than by not reaching the same “growth” markers as she has already at 29, but it’s pretty stupid how inferior this has made me feel. i was literally fine puttering along without that thought planted into my head, and now i just feel like a freak all over again because i haven’t had the same “growth” as my sister.
like, obviously i want to date someone and grow with them and all that, and i know it’s circumstances keeping me from doing that at the moment, but it just really sucks feeling this way. and it sucks that my sister KEEPS saying stupid shit like that to begin with!!

crying a whole river ong😭😭😭😭😭 so sad.

All I ever wanted was to be loved, but somehow, I keep ending up hurt.
I’m tired of hoping that someday someone will choose me and love me the way I love them.
I wish I could stop wanting to be loved so badly. Maybe then, it wouldn’t hurt this much 💔

I am not sure if its allowed or not. But if it is not allowed, you can remove it. Thank you