i just wanted to post this because i can't stop and i can say i became desperate.

i'm a fresh boy, just got 18 lately, and sadly i'm very abused to the point i tried to ki|| myself twice, and it was more like a serious plan.

I got cheated on, bullied, ended up in bed, faced death, broke up, rejected, judged, betrayed, i ended my 2 bestfriends a while ago and they hated me quickly for a pathetic reason, and i have a lot fears, but my life is in a terrible place, everyone around me is bold and out-going meanwhile i'm the loner which caused even more pain and being judged.

which caused me in an early age (i started at the age of 16) in doing self-harm, at first, it was just trying something, then a hobby, then a joy to the point i used a lot of tools and brought a special razor.

now i founded out that if someone saw it i'm in trouble because people in my country has zero empathy, now i can't even wear a t-shirt because i won't be accepted. everyday became simply like trying to escape.

i started checking on therapy, and i became worse and started doing it more often, they just fed me up medicines, 3 before sleeping, and 2 when waking up, yet never anything that makes me feel any better

just curious how many people actually tell their psychiatrist while being evaluated / in treatment since i haven't been telling them currently

Is it considered a relapse if i'm cutting just enough to feel the pain and the burn without actually bleeding ?

So I have to get blood drawn soon and I have some cuts that arent healed yet and my parent doesn’t know I dont want to have her know but idk what to do. I need to tell her so she doesnt freak out when it happens but then all my privileges will get revoked and ill be untrustworthy again

I've seen the post about differences of a cat scratch and styros. It's sad cat scratches dont bleed, styros do. But when I bleed i dont see the white layer, hence the name, so I didn't think it would be a styro. I did have to press the wound two times to stop a bit of bleeding, and some cat scratches have left whiteish flat scars. Can someone clarify what this is?

Looking for a friend on this page that has really helped me out. Please dont delete

I really feel the need to hurt myself, i dont know what to do. Does anyone know any good coping strategies?

can i do an arm workout with cuts that reaches the fat layer/beans? i have one cut on the outside part of my lower arm, it's still open and a few days old. i do aerial so it's very arm heavy

I recently relapsed and cut again after not cutting for, like, two years, so I forgot how long they take to heal. And, like an idiot, I did it in a somewhat obvious place (my pants and socks mostly cover them). They’re about a day old now and still super red and obvious.

Hi, I have not been self harming for long, maybe 3-4 months and even then not that frequent but the amount of relief it provides is insane. I’m diagnosed with Major depressive disorder and I also have a lot of anxiety. I’ve been clean for about a month but I’ve come very close to self harming a fee, and I’m not sure how to stop it from happening in the future :( sorry I’m not really sure why I’m making this post, kinda confused. Also attached picture, not sure what layer it is but I suspect styro.

So for context, I'm a fairly new to cutting with a blade. I've self-harmed a lot as a kid, but usually not deep enough to leave scars (scratching with nails, etc.) but now I have marks on my wrists.

I haven't been to school in about a month (psychiatric hold) and when I can finally go, I DEFINITELY want to cover my scars because well... I'd rather not show other people. I get that scars are nothing to be ashamed of, and I love seeing people showcase their own scars, but I'm just not comfortable with that yet. I have bandages and tape, which are my main tools to cover scars, but I suck at putting them on. Some of the wounds are also fresh, so I can't really use make-up on them. My teachers sometimes make us remove jackets since it's really hot in our classroom, so wearing long sleeves isn't full proof.

Basically, what I'm asking is:

Can someone please teach me how to use bandages properly so they don't fall off?

What are other ways to cover wounds/scars?

A doctor might have to see this thigh soon. Please be honest. I can’t deal with being reported.

I am not clean by the way, I just need this one thigh to look clean.

(please don’t make this a trend, I don’t want to be that person)

Ive been having some really big fears of my future and how my love life will be. I have a very big idea of how I wish to live my life as i want to get married and find a man who loves me as a whole. Im scared the scars will be there and be very obvious as ive never gone too deep but my thigh is all scar tissue and its obvious ive cut for a decently long time, everyone ive been with either fetishizes or just tells me to not do it anymore which everyone knows is a very hard thing as it is an addiction. I guess my point of the post is for some people to give their opinions on it because i feel like ill never fund someone who loves me and doesn't hate the scars or have a fetish for them.

I don’t feel valid with my self harm, it’s not long enough and or good enough compared to others. It’s mostly on my left arm and I know that some will scar and a few already have since I pick them often- I don’t want to get better I really just want long cuts in a line that look like how sh usually presents itself. Also maybe my cuts aren’t deep enough but they don’t protrude outward like others do and they don’t turn white??

Today, my bf, now ex bf, broke up with me. I relapsed pretty badly. My whole leg bleeding type of thing… I usually go deeper when it’s my legs (since I always wear long pants), but yeah.

I felt like it was out of the blue. Like, we were good together?? Idk why he just wants to remain friends… it took me 3h to reply and when I did, I broke down crying and relapsed.

The worst is that I’ve just told my friends about this guy, yesterday. Think I’m going to wait a bit before telling them cuz it would be embarrassing for me.

I don’t even know why I reacted that way. We were dating that long (a few weeks). I shouldn’t felt such a strong reaction from that. Idk if I’ll be able to remain friends with him. I like him and all, but it would break my heart even more to be near him.

Just leaving it out there since I’m obviously not going to talk about it to anyone.

one week ban from i am sober idek what i said😭

I relapsed yesterday night and I didn’t bleed, it was more of just like an eraser burn type thing, still hurts. but it’s visible and idk how to cover it up from my parents who said if I relapse again they’re sending me to a mental health facility. help me please!! Sorry should’ve mentioned! It’s on both sides of my left arm and on my left thigh. Not many cuts but noticeable ones

when posting pictures to like ig i dont know if pictures like these are considered triggering?

These are year old scars and I have been clean for over 4 months now! Wondering if people can tell when I am not wearing long sleeves, since my family has never noticed.

Get a jug of skin-safe liquid latex, spread it out thin onto a large flat surface, and roll it into a big ball. You can cut this ball in half and cut the latex. It’s EXACTLY like skin, cheap, and lasts forever. Hopefully it distracts you long enough or makes you feel better so the urge leaves :)

Also doing thick sfx makeup(latex+tissue 8+ layers) and cutting that. You could put fake blood in between layers. I’m not sure if this is would promote your brain to do it more or what?? But if nothing else works why not try it.

I've heard you shouldn't use toilet paper or tissues for fresh cuts I'm assuming because it can get stuck to the dried blood,what else can you use? Preferably household items.. I can't use gauze.

Edit: I mean for when there's too many in one area for a bandaid sorry I forgot to clarify

So, I'm using this as a throw-away account, but I guess I just wanted to talk about this. I just turned 18 and the first time I self-harmed was when I was 15, though it was only a few times (cutting and burning) and I pretty much stopped immediately, so it never became a particularly big problem. However, at the end of the last school year (Year 12), I started cutting; I'm not sure exactly why, but I think it stemmed largely from stress and a deep sense of self-hatred after I messed up in a friendship and thus lost one of my closest friends and I just generally feel like I barely have any friends left. Anyway, I stopped over the summer because I was at my grandparents' house and couldn't really self-harm or hide it properly whilst I was there (staying clean was honestly a massive struggle) and I pretty much started again as soon as I got back to my parents' house.

The thing is, I feel like up to a few weeks ago I was still genuinely struggling, to the point where the notion of having to do my schoolwork and essays did make me feel like I would rather die and led to self-harm a few times, but I don't know why I'm doing so right now. I have coursework which is overdue and I just mentally cannot get myself to do it, but I'm mentally not doing badly, yet my brain is still viewing self-harm as being somewhere between a punishment and a source of motivation (like, if I cut myself then I'll be able to get work done or it means that it's okay if I haven't done it because it's kind of 'valid') and I don't really know what's going on in my brain.

And there's a part of me that just wants to get worse, but I also physically can't cut myself deeper and I don't really know what to do, but there's a part of me that only feels valid and as though it's okay that I'm not being productive if the cuts actually start bleeding again, if that makes sense. I don't know, I guess I was just wondering if anyone else is going through the same kind of thing. My arm has stopped bleeding as much as it used to and it's making me feel worse about myself and it's also making it harder for me to get work done. Sorry, I guess I mainly just wanted to rant because I feel like there's nobody that I can talk to about this in my real life.

Hoje de noite eu vou para a casa de um amigo, ele não sabe dessas cicatrizes.

Ele já é meu amigo a bastante tempo então acho que simplesmente vou parar de esconder isso :3

Essas cicatrizes são muito óbvias?

Eu deveria usar mangas longas hoje?

It helps to a degree, but I just feel like I'd be less ashamed of people seeing this if it were the real deal than this sharpie drawing which just feels childish...