I'm not going to rehash a lot of the talk about phallo that happens in trans spaces. I was on an...adult website....yes....and happened upon a video that was educational about erectile pumps. it's in a foreign language, but there's an interview with the patient, some vid of pump installation and then demonstrating it. The pump works exactly like the ones trans men get for phallo. I assume they're similar, if not the same pumps. He pumped his cis penis up using a small pump behind his testes (whereas the pump is in the sack for most trans men who opt for it).

I only am putting this here because a lot of trans men mention having to pump up a penis and that being a disconnect. Well, cis men do deal with this too. This is kind of the nuclear option for Erectile Dysfunction but it is an option. I think a wellish known food reviewer opened up about having one installed due to ED from diabetes. Obviously everyone doesn't but it feels a bit less isolating to know that, yes, men have this hardware installed too. I spend time in ED forums (Yes trans men can deal with it) and it's floated around by some men who have tried most everything but the idea of penile operations usually scare many men away (rightfully so).

Just a late night rambling. I know someone's going to say "No duh". I am not eligible for phallo and can't afford it so I haven't deep dived into the specific hardware surgeons use.

I recently had a doctor's evaluation for top and hysto, and during the appointment she mentioned that it was uncommon for people to want hysto. For me it's a no brainer, the organ I have make me physically ill to think about and I live my life detached from the fact that my body is the way it is. If I can remove it, I want it out and gone. I don't need any of it.

But, since it apparently isn't that common, I'm wondering for the people that choose to not get hysto, why did not make that choice? (Not counting people who can't access hysto for whatever reason, but would want it if they had the option).

I live in the Baltic states and there has been increased aggression from Russia such as drone threats. I hope every single day that nothing happens.

I’m scared of losing access to hrt. Not too many pharmacies in my area have T, there is a T shortage in my country, so I can’t usually stack up for more than 3 months worth of T.

I hate that so many people call trans men like me "performative" when we act similarly to cis men, especially when it comes to struggles with toxic masculinity, typical male insecurities like the whole looksmaxxing thing and misogyny. I struggle with these, I'm not proud of it. But what sucks even more on top of all of that, is that people will come to me and say I'm just doing it and acting that way because I want to fit in with cis men. Or that I just want to pass. Why can't it just be because I am a man? Why does my transness always have to be brought up? Or they say I can't be misogynistic like a cis man because I'm born female and will say things like "you just switched from here". But I was never a woman??? But I cant escape it, people will always just see that.

And it's hard to explain but it just feels really embarrassing when people word it that way. I'm not that different to a cis man, am I? Then why is it that when I deal with the same stuff as them, mine gets called fake? Am I a fake man? Is my manhood fake? I hate myself. I already feel bad about myself and then other people say these things to me and it's like proof.

I just wanted to put this out there to see if anyone had a similar experience. I had really bad dysphoria around my chest before top surgery, and I figured I’d wake up after and just feel instantly better.

The night before surgery my dad called and told me I was making a huge mistake. My mind had already been made up, and I’ve heard it a thousand times before, but it still didn’t put me in the best mindset.

After surgery I was in a binder for 2 weeks, but took it off to shower. There was a relief that it was done, but seeing my chest with drains and surgical glue and everything felt so uncomfortable I hated looking at my body. On top of that I lost a lot of muscle and gained a little weight, and have body image stuff on top of dysphoria. Whenever my mom asked “are you so happy with your results?” Or “are you so happy you did it?” Of course I’d say yes, but I also didn’t feel happy and I didn’t know what was wrong with me.

That feeling didn’t fully go away for months. For the first month I was terrified I made a mistake, which made no sense to me because this was all I wanted since I was 13 years old, and had spent the past 6 years binding and taping and hating my chest. I started to feel little bits of excitement when I got to wear a tight tank top or low button down, but seeing the big red scars on my body just made me feel so weird.

Anyway, now I’m 4 months post op, have gotten all my strength back and am starting to make new gains, my scars are obviously still prominent, but not fresh looking, and I love my body (at least my upper body). I look in the mirror and I feel like I finally look how I am meant to.

I just wanted to write this in case anyone post op shares the same feeling, to say that it’s normal, or at least something someone else has felt, and for me at least it wasn’t something that lasted at all.

So I'm from a country where circumcision isn't very common and so I would like an uncut 3-in-1 packer but there just aren't many. The only ones I've found are either super small, not 3-in-1s or by axolom which aren't realistic to me...

I've been thinking of getting a cut one and just buying a morme foreskin sleeve on it or something like that. Anyway if anyone has any recommendations please tell me I'm desperate. I just need the shaft to be over 5.4 inches and somewhat realistic.

For starters where I live starting T is super hard and they will decline you for absolutely anything. I'm currently going through examinations cuz I might have a brain tumor or brain cancer but they are taking super long so I might just die from that. Then if I don't have either they still would decline me because what if T makes my symptoms worse. It'll take so long that when I finally could start i'd probably be over 25 and waisted my "golden year". And not starting T isn't an option for me because I'm a fighter and I want to fight against guys because fighting girls gives me so much dysphoria. But I most likely will never see the day I get T or anything like that. Also the only times I've ever felt somewhat okay in my body have been when I've been on ecstasy.

Anyone had/have parents or family/friends that technically weren't on board with you transitioning but they didn't completely stop you or throw you out. They played the more passive role of: "Well you can do whatever you want but just know you're still gonna be a woman/be my daughter etc. Etc."

I guess what im trying to say is, they don't stop you from going on T and getting surgery. They dont abuse you (physically anyway) or throw you out. But they also still see you as your birth sex and may call you your chosen name and he/him to your face but when you're not in the room its immediate deadname and misgender?

Im not trying to say 1 is worse than the other. But the toying with emotions like calling you want you want to your face but immediately deadname and misgender when you aren't there like you're some psych paitent they play along with you to avoid conflict is so..... scummy? Very uncomfortable and honestly I rather you just verbally abuse me and call me slurs to my face because at the very least I know how you think of me from the initial.

Me and my family have come a decent way. Some bumps in the road but were relatively in a good spot thank god. But just knowing there's some parents that play that implicit passive role is again, so uncomfortable and uneasy.

I’m not even a sex obsessed pest I barely care for the act but it’s the fact that I fucking can’t do shit even when I wanna. Basic ass animalistic shit and I’m not even allowed that much I’m fucking less than a dog.

i suffer from such bad dysphoria, even 3 years on t and after top surgery. but i am so short. i cannot be found attractive by women. my face is so round. i get no progress at the gym. worst of all, i will never have a cisgender penis (if any, considering how expensive and non-common phalloplasty is in my region). how do you keep going. it feels like postponing the inevitable. i am still getting misgendered by my father and people can tell I am transgender.

I have invisible nips or ghost nips where my areola isn’t defined unless my nipples are hard. They get taught and wrinkles when hard but don’t stay that way unless stimulated.

I hate my breasts. Always have. I think I’m mentally committed to getting top surgery but I want to know if there is anyone else who has done it with these types of nipples.

I think they look too feminine and k can’t picture them on a masculine looking chest. I think about not having nipples but would I be robbing myself of sensation in the future when maybe it wouldn’t look bad? I don’t even know if I care though. My nipples has only caused me pain while on my period and I’ve never enjoyed them being played with.

so I struggle to do my own tshot intramuscular so my boyfriend does it the pharmacy gave us the wrong size needle and the extra half an inch made me nervous so my boyfriend said he wouldn't stick it in all the way and I looked away, after I asked him how much did he do and it was less than an inch which is usually how long the needle is supposed to be I hope that makes sense. I didn't feel the needle at all so I'm worried he injected into the fat of my thigh and not the muscle. would this cause problems? I hope this makes sense

i’ve been on t for about nine months now, my dose is 1ml every two weeks intramuscularly and i was just wondering what the typical dose is because from others in my state (red state) and others i’ve seen online they all seem to be on lower doses

to be fair i’m not super knowledgeable about subcutaneous vs intramuscular and weekly vs biweekly but years ago i went through planned parenthood in a different state (previously red now light blue) and i was on .2ml subcutaneously on a weekly basis. i had to stop after four months because i had to move (to previously stated red state) and it took a while before i could go back on it. now i have private insurance and when i told my endo about my previous dose they said that was way too low

my current levels are >450 and when i started i was low even for a cis woman, if it matters im 5’8 and around the 250lbs range

my first time around i did see changes and the minuscule voice drop but obviously now that my dose was higher and i’ve been on it longer there’s definitely a bigger change but even around the four month mark it was different. this time around i didn’t get the hot flashes or the excessive sweating and i’m on meds for acne from a dermatologist as a precaution but even that wasn’t too bad compared to my first round

excuse the rambling lol i was just curious because i always hear of others on different doses and people always wanting to up their doses and not being listened to by doctors

I have 2, 3 in one packers and I don’t know how to pack. I can’t find any good pictures of cis guys in boxers soft and my size so idrk how to position my packer. I currently have this like open harness packer because I need something I can kinda “thread through” so I can stp and I thread it through the hole in my boxers and put the rod in to have sex so I don’t have to change everything which gives me hella dysphoria. I need all the help and advice I can get for maybe different harnesses or how to wear/how to find good references for packing down. Sometimes I leave the shaft out and then the fabric holds my balls and top and then I pack down but I feel like it’s not realistic??? I also sometimes tuck the shaft in but that one has a list of reasons for being inconvenient.

So I have a pretty large chest, and I’ve been binding for years. Over time, my binders get stretched (pretty quickly) and as I’ve built up a small collection, a while ago (probably a year or maybe coming up on 2) I started wearing 2 because both the ones I owned became stretched out. I have just been doing that ever since because I can’t achieve the level of flatness that I need while wearing only one binder. I do usually wear my newest one paired with an old, looser one on top, so it’s not much more compression- it just adds a tiny bit more that really pushes my chest into being a more masculine shape and also holds it into place. I’ve never experienced any kind of pain or even discomfort when binding, even in early days. I’ve never had much sensation in my chest and it’s quite large and sags downwards (sorry for the awful descriptors) so I feel like it’s just compressing fat rather than what I can imagine being more painful for those with smaller chests that perk upwards, as it’s compressing directly the more sensitive areas of a chest (if that makes any sense). I’ve never had anything like rib pain or breathing issues in relation to binding either. If it’s a real issue, I’d consider wearing only one binder while layering clothing. Anyone got any thoughts on this?