My mom is biracial Black and white. My dad was Indigenous American with a high blood quantum. I was raised mainly by the Black side of my family but I am a recognized indigenous American as well and I have always been subjected to racism from all sides. Too white to be Black. Too Black to be Indigenous, and too brown to be white. There's never any acceptance within the mono- and biracial communities, and worse? Don't you dare date outside your color because you'll get accused of being a race traitor. I'm so sick of this mentality.

Everyone here in Europe is so racist, and it seems like nobody speaks about it. I'm mixed race black and white, and all my male classmates are saying the N word and making monkey jokes. When I talk to them about it, they say sorry and then immediately after say it to my face.

I was born and raised in my country and speak the language perfectly.

I'm going through a lot right now. On top of that, when I wore my hair loose, two of my male classmates asked me "did a bomb explode in your hair or what?" I can't even like a boy because I feel like he'll reject me for a white girl. I've been called slurs, and when I was four I got hit by an asian kid in kindergarten and told I should go home to my own country. I had to delete TikTok because it's such a negative place for anyone who isn't white to be, as all the first comments under a POCs video will just be slurs.

One of my classmates was shouting hi to me, and suddenly some random kid from my parallel class just called me a racist word in my language and didn't say anything else. I feel so targeted at all times.

Idk if this makes much sense since English isn't my first language, but can anyone make me feel better?

I don't necessarily feel bad for myself as I know that I'm beautiful as I am and I absolutely adore dark skin (It looks so lovely), but thinking about the future of my country and all the kids and older people who experience similar things makes me feel so sad.

For example, one person will ask what I’m mixed with and say my hair is so loose and describe me as light skinned, and then someone else will describe me as “just black” and “mono racial” and say I have “little curls”

It really has been messing with me. I see myself as Black but it makes me uncomfortable only being seen as such but the mixed category also feels really slimy and gross too. Idk I’m not really happy with anything and feel awkward about my racial identity. I find myself flip flopping internally a lot

I’m not here to generalize but to illuminate my experience. I don’t want anyone to take this the wrong way. I’m at this new cafe on my college campus and I’m easily getting along with all the other ethnicities there, Mexican, White, Puerto Rican and East African. Yet, the two main African American women are giving me issues. The 1st I’ll call L, has snatched things from my hands and has told me, “Smile you look like you hate everyone here”. Than the Second one we’ll call A, overhead her say to another coworker, “Why does she act light skin”. The only reason why I’m quiting this job is bc The African American have more social power in the workplace nowadays and it would just be better if I just leave. II’ve been in similar work situations like this before, I would complain about someone behavior but if there at a higher position or more liked than me I to get side eyes for complaining especially if no one else has.

Also I think I have already complained about L,s behavior of snatching out of my hand.

-Someone who’s exhausted

Any good books you would all recommend or essays etc?

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