Guess I'll be making another batch

Why tf does everyone in my dms wanna fucking feminize me (╥﹏╥)

People will be in my dms talking bout how cute I'd be as a girl and then fucking tell me to pay for the estrogen myself like (╥﹏╥)

that's not forcefem that's... Suggestionfem

Burger, fries, chocolate milk

Bullshit rice noodle soup with sodiumaxxed broth. I’m gonna die alone and salty, literally and figuratively.

I saw an escort last week and I couldn't get it up. A life without romance or mutual love has now turned into a life without even paid companionship or sex. I can't take it anymore

I dont like my body,my love life or how my brain works

im not the most handsome guy, the smartest or the most successful and ill never be

I dont know how to change or how to be happy.

Todays lunch:Oven baked chicken and potatoes

ban all posers idc

I am currently getting cucked by my own landlord, he kicked me out of my own room that I pay for for two hours because he is planning on doing a house showing so he can sell it. There are no available apartments in the area to rent out. I might go homeless despite having money in the middle of the Norwegian winter that usually reaches -15°c. I have to either lose my job and thus any future I have or keep working while being homeless and most likely live in my car.

Kebab and beer so I don't go cold while waiting to be able to go back to my room that I pay for.

Brownie edges and milk

Deserved tbh since this is normgroid infested dystopia anyway. I too would avoid my damn self. Pastamaxxed as usual, fuck that pasta hating fk.

pork tenderloin medallions with potatoes, bearnaise and garlic bread. And a monster

Everything I’ve done was with him in mind. I gave up my hobbies and dreams because he didn’t approve. He said they were for “losers and “gay men” (you can imagine the word he used), and now the people I know who stayed in those hobbies are happier and more successful. He had a dinner recently for my sister and brother in law and didnt invite me or even speak about me. He said multiple times that all he has now is my sister and her husband. I did everything to help him when he was struggling. I took out loans, got a second job, I got him an interview at my company for the easiest job they have and for good pay and he didn’t show up, I even stopped when I almost finished my degree because he didn’t like the community college I went to, and I transferred ro a university and owed them $20,000. And now he’s mad at me because I can’t help him with money anymore and chose to focus on myself. Why did I waste my life trying to appease this fucking loser? Why did I care when he didn’t approve of the women I had interest in? Why should I have given him any thought? He married the first single mom who gave him attention after he didn’t take no for an answer. I was so happy Saturday morning too, I realized I went down 4 pounds in 2 weeks. But my sister texting me about this dinner just made my stomach turn.

Chicken and rice with soy sauce. Was okay but cold.

(17m) Shit is hitting the fan real quick y’all. 2 months ago my therapist let me talk about things other than food, I was a good 15 pounds heavier then. A month ago I wasn’t even diagnosed with an eating disorder. It’s been bad for a while but this past year it’s been worse, I’ve gone from my highest weight to my lowest. My therapist says if I keep losing she’ll recommend me to a “higher level of care”, that’s shrink speak for putting me in a program.

Going to a program right now would entirely derail my life. I’m not going to a goddamn hospital. I have to go to college, I have to finish my applications, I have to save money for college and get a job, I have to keep my GPA up for said college. I have a lot on my plate right now and I can’t give it up.

I don’t want to recover but I honestly think I’d feel okay about maintaining, that’s what my therapist wants me to do anyways. The problem is that I’m so used to eating 900-1300 calories a day and in order to maintain my weight I’d have to increase it to at least 1850. That feels like a lot to me right now. I feel alright about my weight I guess but eating that much terrifies me. I know I need to stop puttering around and actually eat more but it’s scary. I am trying to eat more now, it’s been an uphill battle though.

Having to choose between my future and the path to self destruction that’s brought me both pain and comfort shouldn’t be this hard. It should be easy to tell myself to give this up and go to college but it’s not. I wish I could have both. I wish I could keep doing this to myself with no consequences but I can’t, that’s just not possible. I keep telling myself it’s not that bad yet but the people around me disagree. I know I need to suck it up and at least stop losing but I feel like my mind won’t let me. It will, it has to.

Yummy Surprise.

There's an epidemic. I used to lurk here, back when the tourist problem wasn't nearly as bad. But a certain type of to foids have has of begun the for invaded, so now things are going to shit.

They just make posts begging for attention, overshadowing the actual cels in here. Foids inherently have it so much easier, and yet are still so greedy for the ego stroking that chad won't give them, that they're now flooding the sub with pity begging posts. Its sickening.

Especially when I see genuine guys who actually struggle and are lonely; its like in diary of a wimpy kid where Greg pretended to have a broken arm to get the sympathy and attention that Rowley got.

also in the spirit of getting stuff off my chest, 75% of r/BoyDinnerDiaries posters are chuds in denial. The posts i see there are often more depressing and blackpilling than the posts i see here.

Stand together brothers. Ignore the foids