So I'm a picky eater if someone forces me to eat something I hate I will act like someone is trying to poison me I will close my mouth swing my arms and legs and my mom complains about me being a picky eater like for an example when my mom makes something for dinner that I don't like tonight was chicken Alfredo I used to like it 5 years ago but then I didn't like it everytime my mom makes it I tell her I don't like it she always says "yes you do" as if ive always liked it usually when I don't eat the food she tells me to starve which I never do since I just wait for her to fall asleep to eat but today she took away my tablet now the thing is I got the tablet for myself and since I'm not an adult yet there's nothing I can do the thing about this parents is that this can make a child feel trapped and helpless because they have no idea what to do so they resort to stealing, lying, and sometimes they resort to nothing if those two things fail and for some reason I got punished for something I cant control, I can't control what I like or dislike

I’m so depressed and wanna die and I’m gonna relapse on Benadryl tn I’m at boarding school and I have to wait for the package room to open then I’m gonna relapse. I plan to end my life during thanksgiving break. I’m so depressed and I want help but I can’t get kicked out of school cause that’s what happens at my school when ppl wanna die

Hi, I have some undiagnosed thing that makes it so my body is pretty prone to tendinitis, my right arm has been unusable the last 4 months and that drove me to becoming ambidextrous. I haven’t encountered any issues writing physically but when I go to pass my notes and writing to digital I’ve gotten some bad scares with my left hands tendons starting to hurt and im genuinely scared of both my arms ending up useless because all I’m good for requires my arms. I have tried a couple speech to text softwares but I still need to go in and correct many things.
I’m here to ask if there’s a device that can digitize my notes and writing or if anyone has good speech to text software recommendations, and please with no genAI, I don’t want my data sold or used for ai training and I’m extremely against genAI, but if you do have recs it would really help me, thank you in advance

Hello, I wanted to post on the Girls Und Panzer subreddit the opening of the manga with a different music, because I think It fits well, but there's a rule on this sub saying "No low effort posts", and I kinda don't know how to make the difference between a low effort and normal post, so I wanted to know what's y'all thoughts on this.

Thank you ! ^^

I desperately need help after narcissistic abuse has left me unsure who to trust.
I’m incredibly isolated and can’t even leave the house without it being a huge deal.

The situation has spread to my work. My finances. My friendships (although they were thin on the ground) and the village I live in.
I need some people I can trust who understand and have really been through it. I’m not talking your ex cheated on you. I’m talking, destroyed your sanity and self esteem and then used that to evidence you were the problem, prove there was a pattern and isolate you in a way you’ve never done to anyone and share your most traumatic moments with people you don’t even know.
I’m posting this, and I’m even worried either hell see it and post a nasty comment, or one of the people involved will. That level.

I’ve been to services for support, but haven’t been able to get it.

I adopted a dog a few days ago, and I think I’m going through the “puppy blues” as I’ve seen it called online. I was so sure about this decision, I took every class, I went through a trusted rescue and found a dog that matched my needs/wants… and after four days home, I hate him.

I feel like a horrible person. He’s not even a terrible dog, just needs some patience and training, but I think I hate him. I wanted him so badly. I did everything right. I hoped and prayed and called and did what I was supposed to do! So why do I feel like this? I’ve had dogs my whole life. Since I was a child. And I always felt bonded to them right away. My last dog was a Rhodesian Ridgeback, and I had him for 14 beautiful years before he passed. I just don’t understand what’s happening with his new pup. Am I awful? Does this get better? Have others felt this way too?? What do I do??

Hi, on Saturday night I greened out for the first time. I had about half a 25mg eddie, which i normally eat abt half of a 15mg. My friend was in town for the first time so in short we just wanted to get messed up. Well i for sure did. Before we even reached the party i felt time start to lag for me. It felt like everything was moving at a lower fps. I started to have a panic attack and my friends helped calm down and get home with some food. Now it’s two days later and im still experiencing a delayed sensation to time and touch. Idk what to do.

For some more context (?), one time my friends and i accidentally took thc-p once which is like MEGA strong weed, and we were all high for like 4 days. Except that time, i didn’t green out. All i felt was tired. I was just tired for four days. So idk why this is impacting me so much.

Maybe more added context, I live in Texas, where we don’t have good regulations on this stuff. But i did buy from a store

anything helps, thank u

So I've been struggling with many mental health issues and one of the ones that upsets and stresses me the most is Executive dysfunction. As you probably know executive dysfunction is a common issue for people with ADHD, which is a learning disability I do have. Now my problem is that I'm in highschool in grade 11, and having executive dysfunction has taken a toll on my work completion process, I know I have to do work, I WANT to do it, I have the motivation to do it, I try to force myself to do it, and it feels like I can barely get anything done, it's like there is an electric wire around what I need to do, and everytime I try to do it, it doesn't let me. When I've tried to force myself in a state of executive dysfunction it doesn't work, I've tried only working in 15 to 20 minute increments and taking a 10 minute break, but that didn't work either... I've tried many things to help me overcome this, but nothing seems to be working. Now since I also have idiopathic hypersomnia, a neurological brain disorder that causes people to sleep excessively during the day without having any control over it.

I'm usually sleeping up to 70-90% of my day, which also contributes to not being able to work properly since I'm basically asleep all the time. I don't want to grow up to be a failure, I want to pass, I want to work! But everything just seems to be preventing me from doing so.

Please if you have any advice that could possibly help please reach out because that would mean a lot...

My dad who moved out about 4 months ago is moving back with us and I am struggling. When he lived away some of my family mentioned I was more happy and seemed more relaxed, and now that he's coming back soon I'm starting to panic.

When I was younger we connected more but as I grew up he started drinking and he became really agressive and just stressful to be around. He always yells at everyone, barks orders. The only time he is nice is the day after he's drunk and he is apologizing and stuff...

I've been struggling with sh since the school year started but I'm trying to stay clean. I do it when I get too overwhelmed. The problem is that my dad is the person who can make me the most overwhelmed and I dont want to sound stupid but only by barking orders to me I slightly tear up or I burst out from anger.

I don't know what to do when he moves back I don't want to cry everyday because of him. Should I go talk to my mom about it or a close friend, cause I'm terrified?

I have this thing where I have this deep attraction/fetish/fantasy for older women. Like in their 50s. I’m sure it’s tied to issues with my mom or whatever but it continues to ruin my life.

It’s frustrating because it’s reciprocated in secret back at me. I had a boss (woman in her 50s) who made several passes at me and when I finally tried to reciprocate she had me fired and falsely accused me of sexual harrasment. I lost numerous other job opportunities and even friendships behind that accusation. I couldn’t even work in the city I lived in at the time in my industry it was damning.

One time I went to Vegas years ago and ended up connecting with this older married woman in a matter of hours and we kissed briefly but we trauma bonded so damn hard I think about her to this day.

So now I’m in a new state, married, with a kid. And sure enough again I befriend an older woman (60s). We start talking and connect over our mental health issues and unhappiness with our partners and something in me activates like a dumbass and I’m OVERCOME with desire.

I tell her I’m attracted to her and that I want to kiss her. We hug for a long moment then go back to our workday. This morning I go to our usual spot and she gives me the “let’s stay professional” talk and says we can’t talk anymore and she won’t tell our boss as long as I give her space.

I’m so fucking stupid. I keep sabatoging my own life. And for what? I want to deeply connect with someone so bad but for some reason I want it included in some weird secret sexual tryst with a woman old enough to be my mother. Is that a kink? Just trauma? I don’t know. But I almost cheated on my wife who is nothing but good to me (but doesn’t always understand my suicidal thoughts, depression, and anxiety the way I thought she did).

I feel so fucking alone and disgusting and foolish and weird. From the outset people see me and think I have it all together. Good family, good job, attractive, etc.

And I still feel like a child. I just want to cry all the time, but I can’t. Like I’ve tried. I don’t know if I’m just too disassociated as a person or what. I just want someone to hold me and tell me I’m ok and everything’s going to be ok. The need is so deep it makes me sick of myself.

This time I narrowly dodged a bullet, but it seems almost ingrained in me to be inappropriate.

I'm a female muslim my family isn't those "girls belong in kitchen"type. They want me to have my full education and now I'm doing my last year of highschool. My goal after that is to go to aviation uni but they didn't approve of it cuz I'm a girl and it would be hard for me . I get what they mean but it's still not a reason so I need your help to convince my fathers

My mom has already accepted but the man is the problem

I am making this post in hopes to connect with people with similar or the same issues..

I have OCD, I get intrusive thoughts that I won't go into detail describing, but I loathe them.. They are truly disgusting, having these thoughts makes me feel just as disgusting about myself as the thoughts are. I do not want them and I do not agree with what they are on any level whatsoever. I cannot stop them and it's so crippling at times.. I feel so disgusting..

Does anyone else struggle with this kind of thing? How do you cope with this?
Any advice will be greatly appreciated.

So idk, i feel guilty? Hi im a 19female college student and we have an incident happened in pe, my classmate/acquaintance? Or friend? Is having like an asthma attack or hard breathing?

I know you mostly have to stay calm but she was asking for a paper bag or plastic, she doesn't have an inhaler? She never informed us about her having any health issues? Or idk. I was holding her and she was crouched on the ground trying to breathe, i try to call out for people to get or if they have anything she use to like pump, most of the boys just sat there not moving and then i went with second call for someone to carry her it took them litteral idk how many minutes but finally took her when she fucking passed out.

She's alright now, but looking back to it why does it feel like i was the one in the wrong, i hear a guy saying that we should have not surround her or anything or could have not panicked?

I feel like he was targeting that sentence to me, i was screaming, heck im even sick i have cough and my throat hurts but i scream to catch attention to help her, but idk anymore i just need help, i was thinking of apologizing to the girl for panicking or idk...

That was my first time experiencing an event like that...my class consist of 10 girls and 35 fucking boys, so i don't know anymore...

not about suicide/sh but its mentioned soooo idk being precautious

I just can’t let myself believe that people care about me and it hurts really bad when they show that they do. I feel the best and idk? safest? when i think people don’t care about me so when they start REALLLYYY showing they do it ends badly for me.

My friends say they love and care about me all the time, they check up on me, regularly ask to hang out, make sure i’m doing okay, normal friend things, etc. and it feels great for a second but i tell myself it’s obligatory and they don’t really mean any of it. I feel so worthless so why would they care.
I know that they do but idk i just can’t accept it.

I (obviously) struggle with my mental health and
most of my friends do as well. We’re all very open to each other and encourage talking to each other to get shit off of our chests but i never talk about anything serious or anything that’s ACTUALLY bugging me because i think they won’t care (EVEN THOUGH THEY HAVE MADE IT VERY CLEAR THEY ALL DO) and i feel self centered, narcissistic, and extremelyyyy selfish. Deep down i know they care and they really want me to talk about what’s upsetting me and i do want to talk about it but the second i work up the courage i start heaving and never end up saying anything.

My best friend will do the stupidest most simple things ever and i’ll start crying.
They made a doodle of us as cats earlier.
and i sobbed because they thought of me for a SECOND and decided to draw us and send it to me.
it makes me nauseous and more often than not i go into a brief period of being suicidal because it feels overwhelming and usually ill end up hurting myself.

it means the world to me don’t get me wrong-
but it hurts so bad
immediately after they do something to show they care i feel guilty for doubting them
and then the guilt spirals back into self hatred which brings my self esteem back down
and then im suicidal again and i isolate.

I would also like to clarify that they have never made me feel bad in any way or given me an actual reason to doubt they care about me this is just how i am unfortunately.

sorry if this makes no sense im still frazzled from the drawing thing and its nearly 3am. i’ll probably come back later and edit it a bit so its less confusing if needed.

Just like the title says, I’m fed up, and I hope not to see him for the next few years. Has he done anything specific to hurt me and bring things to this point? Not really—or well, I don’t know if that was his intention. I’m four years older than my brother—I’m the oldest. I was told I was mean to my brother when he was a baby—pinching him or hitting him. There was a time when I’d push him down the stairs at home and just laugh. I don’t think of myself as a psychopath, because I’m capable of feeling emotions. My brother, on the other hand, has always been quite affectionate and loving, giving hugs or kisses on the cheek. I eventually stopped the aggressive behavior when I got a cell phone. He entered adolescence and is still just as affectionate; however, I don’t like physical contact, so I avoid letting him hug me at all costs. In the past, I was abused by a family member; I was young and didn’t understand what was happening. That led to a cycle where I ended up touching my brother—luckily, those instances were very few and far between. Eventually, my parents found out and took both of us to see a psychologist separately. I was a teenager when the pandemic hit, and I was living with my brother, but the abuse led to physical distancing (as I mentioned earlier). He started middle school and entered his teenage years; that’s when the rude behavior began—complaining when asked to do something, yelling, punching the wall (he’d actually always had anger outbursts, a trait he inherited from my dad), and hitting me. These days, although that behavior has lessened, he does get upset if something doesn’t go his way; he makes a lot of annoyed and displeased faces. These interactions have been so frequent and constant that, since the beginning of the year, my feelings of contempt toward him have grown. I’ve had violent thoughts in which I ended up stabbing him with a knife or hitting him in the head.I forgot to mention that two and a half months ago I was diagnosed with depression; I don’t know if that could be a factor, in addition to the suicidal thoughts and the fact that, 20 days ago, I shouldn’t even be alive. I’m sorry if this is confusing—I think you can tell it’s late, and I just want to vent because my next session with my therapist isn’t for a few days. I’m sorry if it’s hard to understand at times—I’m using a translator. I’m open to hearing your opinions. Thanks for reading.

J’ai récemment découvert que mon ex avec qui je suis restée plusieurs années m’a trompé du début à la fin, c’est un menteur pathologique et en plus il s’est amusé à m’envoyer un tas de photos qui en fait dissimulait parfois des preuves qu’il me prenait pour une imbécile ( il adore Photoshop) , sauf que je n’ai rien vu parce que j’avais confiance en lui malgré le fait que j’avais perçu qu’il me mentait à plusieurs reprises, mais je n’imaginais pas que c’était pour des choses aussi graves.
Quand je m’en suis rendu compte, je n’étais déjà plus trop amoureuse de lui juste un peu encore attachée parce que j’ai accepté qu’on qu’on continue de se voir un peu.
Le problème c’est que quand je me suis rendu compte qu’en fait il me mentait depuis le début à savoir deux carte SIM dans son téléphone, un espace caché des applications dissimulées des fausses captures d’écran de messages, un autre compte Airbnb bref.. ça a été un choc et un vrai trauma pour moi et après m’être fait dépister, j’ai vécu l’enfer car la douleur de m’être senti utilisée manipulée trahie était une accumulation de sentiments horrible que je n’avais jamais ressentie.. et j’ai donc analysé tous les messages échangés ou du moins tous les mensonges auxquels j’ai eu droit pendant toutes ces années sur seulement quelques semaines qui ont été difficiles pour moi car je ne dormais plus, je ne mangeais plus, je n’avais même plus envie d’être ici tellement je me suis senti humilié et méprisée.. je commence à aller mieux grâce à mes proches qui m’ont beaucoup aidé, mais je n’arrive pas à me détacher de ces fichus Photos qu’il a pu m’envoyer et je passe encore beaucoup de temps à tenter de comprendre ce que ce sociopathe sans cœur m’a partagé. Je sais qu’il est temps que j’arrête, mais j’ai ce sentiment que tant que je n’ai pas terminé .. complètement compris ce que je devais comprendre à ce moment-là, je n’arriverai pas à passer à autre chose, je sais également que le principal c’est d’avoir fui ce monstre et que de toute façon tout ce que je sais déjà suffit amplement à ne plus vouloir entendre parler de lui, croiser son regard ou même penser à ce qu’il m’a fait, mais parfois c’est plus fort que moi. J’ai beau en être consciente, j’ai du mal à décrocher, j’aimerais bien avoir vos conseils car ce que j’ai apprécié sur cette application c’est d’avoir des conseils très judicieux et réfléchis de la part d’inconnu qui prennent du temps pour m’aider, bien plus qu’il n’en a pris pour m’aimer..
Je sais déjà que je n’ai pas à m’en vouloir d’avoir été manipulée naïvement par quelqu’un que je pensais être bien et aussi que le bonheur m’attend et que je serai bientôt, je l’espère passer complètement à autre chose mais encore une fois c’est compliqué car la douleur m’habite encore. Et j’ai le sentiment qu’elle n’est pas prête de partir tant que je continuerai d’essayer de tout analyser pour comprendre à quel point il mérite de passer sous un train.

Merci à ceux qui prendront le temps de lire.

Ive had the worst ex ever but I cant stop thinking about her. I fall in love so hard everything why cant I find someone thats the same way that will love me forever. Theres more to my situation but this subreddit wont let me say it but I need help and nobody can help and im doing to ðįę alone within a few months and I have nothing to show for my life. I don't want to be alone but I habe nobody that cares till im gone thats when everyone will wonder how they could have done somthing

Please help. I haven’t even been able to start looking for a job for a year now. I work out at the gym and study en, de languages, but I am incapable of undertaking any task that lies outside my daily routines. I can’t even go onto a marketplace and buy the things I need, because I don’t do that on a regular basis. All I do is cook, do laundry, work through Anki flashcards for German and English, walk to my evening German class (an hour of brisk walking each way), solving my english and german Anki cards and go to the gym. And just recently, a guy walked with me to the notary and the dentist, so the process of getting dental work done and handling paperwork has also become part of my routine. But to hell with that marketplace, which website I can’t go on, I’m not even trying to look for work. I'm 29m. I’ve had trouble finding work before, because all I have is a higher education degree, with no specific professional specialization. I often found employers right at my previous workplace. But lately, I’ve figured out how to use a job-search website, put together a few resumes, and managed to land a job a few times the standard way — through a job site. I’ve worked primarily as a general laborer on construction sites and in cleaning, but I’ve also held more specialized roles, such as a roofer and a furniture assembler. But the problem is that, recently, I found a job at a hardware/fastener store through a job site and worked there. And now I’ve moved to another country. My native language is Russian. People here do speak Russian, but not very well, and I don’t feel confident enough to work as a salesperson. And I cannot speak their native language. I need to go back to construction or furniture-making, but I’ve had a rather long break. My English is poor. I can talk and hold a simple conversation, but I can’t even give directions if I run into someone who is lost on the street. My German is even worse. I can’t even hold a conversation; all I can really do is introduce myself and make sense of an announcement. I don’t know what kind of job I could do; I don’t feel confident about putting together a resume, and I don’t understand the job market. I even start to panic at the mere thought of having to go to a website and look for something there. Help me pls...

I am a 36M autistic turning 37 this Saturday. This year has been by far the worst year of my whole life, and the stress and depression is unbearable.

This week I did light SH to my arm, and I feel like life is spiralling out of control. Not sure what to do in this situation. I truly do not want this birthday, but it is coming up very quickly.

I'm having to move out of my home with no notice because of a domestic altercation with my father. I'm 24. I'm autistic and chronically ill. I have a place to go but I'm so scared. I don't do well with change. There's so much to work out with transferring my care and my meds. I've tried to move out before to go to college and despite the fact that I wasn't even happy at home, the homesickness was so agonizing I was having breakdowns several times a day and couldn't take care of myself.

I have a good support system where I'm going. I'm lucky I do have somewhere to go and that it's with a loved one. But even if this isn't true, I feel like I'll never be okay again right now. How long does it take for a new place to feel like home? How do I cope with the fact that I've lost my childhood home and all my familiar surroundings in what feels like an instant? I'm going to miss my mom and my bedroom and the bathroom I'm used to so bad.

I'm sorry in advance if it takes me a while to get back to anyone who comments after I go to bed. I have a lot to do over the coming days and sometimes I get nervous to check Reddit for a while for irrational anxiety reasons. I still appreciate you for reading and I will appreciate any support or advice I get even if I'm not in a place to respond right away.

I’ve had a very off and on relationship with my girlfriend. I was helping her financially within months of dating her. She was a coworker of mine.

She would get mad at me and break up with me for days and weeks at a time. Not answering her phone, radio silent.

She also informed me that she had briefly chatted with another former coworker but he sent her dirty pictures and she was so appalled that she blocked him.

This coworker would call her nearly weekly. One of these times, when she goes radio silent on me I text him and say “stay off my ladies phone. We both think you’re a creep”

He then immediately provides screenshots of her having the opposite reaction of blocking him when he sent the picture. She told him “if you sent them earlier I would’ve met him.”

He also sends one that was a month later. Him telling her that she plays childish games and he’s not going to play with her. I ask him 3-4 if they slept together, and he doesn’t answer. Just keeps going on about how crazy she is. Eventually he blocks me.

Now I know she at least lied to me a little bit. I also can’t stop thinking about the fact that they likely slept together. Sometimes I even think about it when I masturbate.

Is this a form of self hate?

Is it time for me to move on from this toxic relationship? Do you think she slept with him?

M16. I've been like not happy for a while, but I don't think I've been closer to thinking about harm. I don't know why , but a therapist has never helped but I usually lost the thought thinking about my family, but I can't stop thinking about it recently, I just don't know what to do

In person I get pretty much ignored. I'm naturally the quiet one in conversations just listening and don't really bring any attention to myself at all. I lack confidence but I'm much more confident than 2 years ago. I've been told by reddit mostly that I'm good looking, but I can't see it and really don't know how I'll ever make any kinda move, cos it seems no one will make a move on me