this is probably just a lot of denial and internal-transphobia from years of being transphobic, but I just want to vent:

i don't want to be trans. i don't even know if i want to be a girl. i was happy as a guy until i learned i didn't have to be one, but, even then, I don't feel dysphoric about most male traits. there haven't been many times in my life where i've felt upset about my birth gender/sex.

i am NOT mentally healthy. i've felt like shit every day for years. maybe i have ocd or something? maybe my anti-depressants are making me have these thoughts? i feel paranoid.

if really am a girl, then i wish i would've been born in a girl's body; since that isn't possible, i just want to stop having these thoughts and go on with the rest of my life.

i don't want to be trans. i don't want to hate myself because of the way i was born. i don't want to hate the way i look. i don't want to worry if i pass. i don't want to take hrt if there's a chance i'll regret it. i don't want to spend money on surgeries. i don't like getting surgeries in the first place. i don't want to constantly worry about my rights being taken away. i don't want to be disowned by my family. i don't want to lose friends. i don't want strangers to hate me. i don't want people to see me as a creep. i can barely stand living most of the time and i don't want to risk it getting any worse than it already is.

i don't even know if i want to be a girl. i feel an odd but nice feeling in my heart when I imagine myself as or dress like a girl, but only sometimes. i don't feel like i fit in with any queer communities. i've felt like a broken person for years and maybe it's because my sex and gender expression doesn't line up with who i am.

i hope one day i'll wake up and totally forget that i've ever felt this way. i hope one day i'll wake up and be happy and able to cope with everyday life like most people do.

im uncomfortable with sharing my name on the internet but still a little gender confused lol

FINNALLY I'm into an RPG group! And we are going to play a story with the D&D system! Aaaaannnd....THEY LET ME PLAY AS A FEMALE MAGE DRAGONBORN!!!!!

My friends didn't ask me why or stuff like that and just accepted that I'll be roleplaying a female character! I was scared of saying that my character is a girl and i just sent her story to my friend (the master) to read it, and i let it explicit that she is a girl. He didn't say anything and just wrote on our group: "[deadname]'ll be a female mage dragonborn" (in Portuguese, or words have gender, so the message was like this: "[deadname] vai ser uma draconata maga")

I'm so happy and excited to roleplay her! She is like, all i wanted to be? A person that lives in a magical world, a race that is SICK AS HELL, a mage, and most important: A GIRL! I already love her so much, i think i'll put her in my fantasy story....

BEWARE, WORLD, THE DRAGONBORN IS COMING! WATCH OUT TO HER ACID VOMIT! (Yes....she...she can pulk acid....because of her cooper dragon ancestry....

AAAHHHHH, I'M SO HAPPY!....uuuhhhh...c-could i get some GGD? Please? 🥺😵‍💫

We're going back to the alone corner with this one!!! 🥳🥳🥳 (sarcasm, I am very sad)

We'd been together for not that much time (about 3-4 months) and I did tell her, about month back, that I was starting to question my gender.

She'd told me that with her struggles she wasn't sure about us staying together if I found myself out as trans and uh....well let's just say she stood on business tonight.

As she was saying goodnight, I urged her just to give me an opinion on my IG profile (which I had customized to meet my "new" identity) and came out once she noticed the "she/her" pronouns and the new name.

She then told me that, with her current situation this would likely not work out, as she wasn't sure to not just be straight and she felt emotionnaly unavailable (understandable as she lost a relative not long ago).

While hurt, I feel some relief and an urge to joke about it (gotta tell my therapist about that as its a recurring theme whenever I'm stressed out or scared) soooo I dunno how to feel.

What I dunno either is why I'm making this post, I mean, it won't bring the old status quo back....I'd guess I need some reassuring that this had to happen and that I'm not a bad person for coming out (that sounds silly but some thoughts of mine are sadly...).

Could I request some GGD maybe?

(Maude, She/Her)

Was hoping to try a new name I picked for myself, you know to kill two birds with one stone.

Anyway, love y'all, hoping you don't have to face such things or worse ❤️❤️❤️❤️

(Wow, a post that isn't me venting about my horrible family? What a surprise!)

I personally don't like my current surname. It's just a mashup of two random English words that have nothing to do with each other. Tho I wonder if anyone on this sub actually changed their surname when they transitioned. It would be nice to have a surname that actually sounds cool and not super boring like my current one.

sry im new here

colorado, vote NO on prop 134 and 135

I hate when people ask "are you ok?", and I just feel pressured to say "yes" to them. People who I know will not support me, people who cannot keep secrets, or just people who will do the right thing and help me.

I just can't keep boymoding, it is grinding me down and I don't know how much longer I can last. Can I please have some GGD.

I told my parents I want to be a girl, but haven't really talked about BEING a girl (name and stuff). Finally gonna start officially being a girl once I get the girlie name, pronouns, and clothes happening. I'm quite happy/excited but also a bit hesitant (my parents are supportive tho). I have decently long hair but have no clue how to make it look girlie (despite youtube for many nights).

A couple weeks ago, I would've through I'd never come out, nonetheless dress and be treated as a girl. Thank you for the constant support through over a year and I hope everyone finds happiness in their lives :3

This quote genuinely just motivates me whenever I hear it, and I hope it helps at least one person as much as it has helped me:
"No matter how ridiculous the odds may seem, within us resides the power to overcome these challenges and achieve something beautiful. That one day, we'll look back at where we started, and be amazed by how far we've come." -Technoblade <3

Characters are Haruka Tenoh / Sailor Uranus from Sailor Moon (specifically the 90s anime which is what I've watched) and Izanami from Persona 4.

Being handsome as a woman is my primary transition aim frfr

Now, here am I again, just 3 days after. Now this may even sound stupid, but I just need to make sure or whatever to stop thinking about it so much.

So, I was just wondering like is it strange that I was reading a reddit post of someone here, don't remember of who it was or what it was about really (sorry) but I remember reading a part of how femenine he looked without even transitioning and subconsciously thinking how lucky and closed the app like in rage bait. But since a couple of hours I just realized, is it normal?(I know it's stupid, but I was just wondering)

I hate dysphoria so much

"Wow, you look like a girl from behind", "she's over there- I mean-", "my daughter" asdfjj wawa, keep going!!