RCA for several months.
I'm undiagnosed Something, don't know what but I know I'm on SOME kind of spectrum, struggle with communication, and cant afford any actual diagnosis for documentation.
I complete my tasks, I show up every day, I've never called in sick or missed a day, I've never not finished my route. I feel like I struggle a lot with anything thats unfamiliar (new routes, etc) and get overwhelmed really easily but I try my best even if I do sometimes bring back mail/flats because i cased it wrong.
my biggest problem is communication. I think I understand, but sometimes I don't and I end up doing the wrong thing or going to do a different task than what I was assigned because of it and I just feel like I get a lot of 'dude wtf' when I get back to the office. I get really nervous that I'll get fired for making so many mistakes
I don't think I've done anything catastrophically wrong but I am just kind of stupid and struggle with communication, even when I try to make sure to get clarification. I'm worried I'll get fired because I just kind of consistently make small mistakes and miscommunications, but I also just haven't gotten the chance to work many jobs because of these issues and I just don't know how much leeway is allowed for this kind of thing. I don't have medication or documentation to back up anything 'real':tm: so for all purposes, I do just kind of look like a ditz and it worries me because this is the first job I've managed to get since covid and I actually really like it minus the constant 'did i fuck up' panic attacks.
What's the difference between a 'you annoyed the supervisor and made someones life hard for a few hours/day' talk and a 'you're on thin ice' talk? i'd really love some insight into expectations/allowances/whatever just to at least have something to gauge my panic attacks into X_X