EDIT: Whoever is down voting this is weird as hell 😭
Hello girls!
I'm making this post with the intent to vent and/or maybe receive some advice.
I'm a tall girl, always have been, but never considered myself traditionally plus sized until more recently.
I was a very late bloomer, was always super tall and super skinny until about 17-18 I finally began to fill out. I loved that I finally filled out because I was starting to feel confident in my body and more like a woman. I finally as an adult feel sexy and secure in myself rather than an awkward lump. And I still feel so confident and comfortable with my body!
However, growing up, I used to by larger clothes so I could keep them for years rather than get all brand new ones the next season, a thing my mom started doing for me by the time I was 7 because I was too tall to stay in kids clothes. Partially because of my height, partially because of fashion and beauty standards of the 00's. Once I filled out, I couldn't do that as well anymore. I started getting fitted and measuring myself and I'm in the 1X range and I'm a size 18. But I don't "look" the way other plus sized women do.
I can't help but feel almost out of place again. Because I know what communities like these mean to women who have been bullied for the weight, who have dealt with the horrible beauty standards over the years, who have fought against these companies for trying to fit them in clothes rather than make clothes that fit. And I feel as though calling myself plus sized is almost like mocking those women or diminishing their experiences.
However, I'm not exactly a size medium or large anymore either. I don't fit most clothes in most stores because they don't make them for my body. They make them for other types of women. I struggle to find clothes in my size all over again just like when I was a kid.
I love my body and the idea of being plus sized doesn't bother me because I find all women and all people beautiful, but I've been criticized in the past for not looking a certain way when using these sorts of labels.
Am I plus sized?
Am I just a victim of big fashion?
Is it both?
Or do I just suck?
Thanks for reading 💕