Wow was just blocked from the Facebook group did ocrevus fail you. After I left my first post. I shared my raw truth with no loyalty to a company. Iv had ms since ‘08 and felt I had something to share being as I’m on ocrevus myself. I couldn’t find the group which was strange since I had been quietly reading everything for 6 months but realized I was blocked after going into a text message with my mother yesterday where I sent her that group link to Check out and consider. When I clicked the link I realized i was banned. They got me out of there within 30 minutes before my comment ever got approved or posted so here I am. I want to share this and I hope someone who is in that group gets to read this and just know that group is determining what information is available to you, how scary is that. This was my comment it took my a while to write, it wasn’t easy, I felt I was being powerful yes but deeply logical and fair I even stated I agree with them in principle. Here is the comment I left on that Facebook group did ocrevus fail you.
I’d like to introduce myself. I’ve read most of everyone’s posts and comments, and I’d like to interact with you all—and just to be clear, I’m not looking to fight. Where do I even start? Honestly, my head has been spinning since I found this group, but I guess I’d like to share my story.
I was diagnosed the week of my 16th birthday. My very first MRI showed 10 brain lesions, so I’ve had this disease since I was young. I became a pediatric patient at UCSF, and during my first appointment there, they immediately discussed medications. I turned everything down. Because of my age, I could see the doctors' frustration and worry. Even then, my parents and doctors let me make my own decisions. Regardless of their pressure, I was never going to crack and give in, and I think they knew it.
At 21, I lost vision in both eyes and was basically blind for two years. As you can imagine, this was terrifying. It scared me enough to finally give a medication called Copaxone a shot (no pun intended). Copaxone was not easy to take—it was a self-administered injection three times a week that I had to keep cold in the fridge. As hard as it was, I took it exactly as directed for a year, until one random night I had a severe allergic reaction and nearly died. I had to stop immediately. I was so angry when they next recommended a pill called Tecfidera. Tecfidera was so incredibly hard on my body that it actually made me miss thawing out syringes and injecting myself every other day.
By the time I was 25, I was completely off medications and going against the advice of every doctor I met. I told myself I wasn't going to take their "poisonous shit." Instead, I decided I would go the natural route: eat well, sleep well, take my vitamins, and exercise. I started finding social media influencers who claimed to have MS but were doing amazingly well—while simultaneously trying to sell me their books or charging me to join their seminars for advice. I kept telling myself that MS is different for everyone, that it was going to be different for me, and that it would all be okay. And for the most part, it was okay during that time.
Until it wasn't.
At 30 years old, I developed a lesion on my spinal cord. Now, four years later, I am hardly walking and dealing with an insane, 24/7, 365 "MS hug" that offers absolutely no relief, no matter what I do or take. For a couple of years now, I have been living in pure torture. It’s that exact moment when the shit hits the fan—when you really go down and don’t get back up—that you are left thinking, *Did I make a bad decision? If I had taken medication, would this not have happened?*Living with that "what if" makes me lose sleep.
After taking a hard look at myself and realizing the reality of my situation, all the negative feelings I previously had toward medications went completely out the window. I was once someone who went blind from MS and still told people not to take a Disease-Modifying Therapy. But this last attack made me realize I absolutely, 100 percent have to use any tool available to slow this down. Even if it hurts me, yes. MS backed me into a wall so badly that I’m no longer worried about infections or even death.
After fighting medications since 2008, I made a well-informed decision to start Ocrevus. I’ve taken eight doses so far, and it’s been so far, so good. For me, it requires giving up eight hours a year; I walk in and walk out, and I don't even feel like I took anything—they might as well be dripping saline. Even though I haven't had an attack since starting it, do I deeply believe in it? No, not really. Am I scared? Yeah. Do I trust a pharmaceutical company? Hell no. But I thoroughly understand the situation I don't want to be in and cannot be in, and I am willing to take any chance needed to avoid that outcome. I can’t be sitting in a diaper asking someone for a sip of water at 34 years old. And if that day does come, I know that after 15 years of fighting, I can at least say, "Well damn, I tried everything I possibly could."
Will this post age poorly? I hope not. I just wanted to share my perspective because I see some people in this group shouting, "Poison, poison, get off it immediately!" Please consider people like me who basically agree with you in principle, but desperately need to give something a shot. We might have already tried the natural route, and it only bought us a few brief years of happiness. Some people’s MS will disable them regardless of medications or lifestyle choices; at the same time, some people's won't, and maybe you are taking a medication you never even needed. Everyone is different, so please consider your own unique situation.