I mean if I totally challenged myself , do self improvement, put myself out there,etc... that there is nothing more I can do . I have to believe that God has a wife for me hidden in some place ? I already believed this for years and put in the effort. But everyday I become worse than before. So what are your thoughts about this?

It's impossible to attract any women at all because of my racial background. I always feel like I am being judged because of my race, and I can tell that women really hate seeing my brown face. It feels like I am fighting gravity just trying to get a woman to treat me like a human being for even a second. All of this rejection has resulted in severe self-hatred. I feel like an actual sub-human because I have never been treated like a complete human being in my entire miserable existence. I am automatically a sexual and social pariah because I happened to be born the wrong race.

Being a brown man is an absolute death sentence in the dating market.

Being a South Asian man is functionally a disability that turns you into a social and sexual leper. If I could choose my race, I would pick absolutely anything over the one I got.

dont know where to start there was a girl named "eylül" yes i am giving her name out publicly i will give mine aswell "emir ali" so i had a crush on her 3 years ago i liked everything about her. But i never got the chance to ask her out later that year i learned that her father and my father are great friend (also she lives in the house that my father had made and my house and her house is litterally 200 meters away from each other)

So one day when i was sleeping trough class teacher called me i get up and walk to him he asked me to bring a pen to him from the other class while eylül was already handing him the pen he asked for i asked her to hand it to me and i will give it to him but then she said something i couldnt hear and hit my hand when i sit back and the class ended i asked her what happened her friend was near her she pushed me aside and told me to fuck off so i left the next day i learned that i got framed which i dont even know what it is nor what was it to this day she is at my class and she is dating with my best friend. i see her everyday and each time she greets me always i only talked to her like 5 times this year its like 5 to 10 sentences little talks hence we have to because we are in the same class i saw her again today heading her home i greet him but i felt disgust of myself i felt like a pig because i was eating my food in the park i didnt even know she was coming that way i taught she would have came from my home's side. Well no more yapping i just want to hang myself and end it all i am such a asshole

i forget to mention she is always kind to me for some reason i want to gwt punished for my past actions but she never brings it.

I have had basically 0 relationship experience before this one and I’m usually ghosted/rejected when I try to get into one. I don’t really know what I’m doing wrong. It’s not that I don’t want to improve myself; I can’t shake the feeling that something is fundamentally wrong with me. And frankly, I don’t know what it is that makes me so unlovable. I’m of average attractiveness (I think), I have my life together to some extent, and I would say I’m a generally caring person to the people in my life. Maybe I’m too boring? I do deal with depression/suicidal ideation, but I don’t talk about that with people irl or make it anyone else’s problem.

The older I get, the more “weird” it is that I haven’t ever been in a real long term relationship. I pretty much just want to give up and accept I should just be alone.

The feedback I got was that they “didn’t think they could love me”. Ouch.

I’m very lucky in my life, I have good friends and family, they aren’t perfect, and neither am I, but they are always there to help and support me.

Yet I feel alone because I don’t have my person, and I just wonder why I can’t accept being alone, why do I want to be in a relationship. Why can’t I cut away wanting to be loved in that way. I honestly wish I could, I’ve got so many good opportunities going for me in my life and this thing of not wanting me to be alone and to be chosen is holding me back.

It sucks, it really does. This stuff keeps me up at night, I don’t sleep well, I’m tired at work, I don’t have the energy to explore my hobbies.

Surely life must be better than this, and surely there should be a way to cut this out of my life.

I’ve always struggled to find a girlfriend, even though I was friends with a lot of girls in school growing up. I have asked out plenty of girls in my 22 years on this earth, but to no avail. It’s always never just a rejection, it’s always a lie buried underneath. One time a girl said she wasn’t looking for anyone, only to have a boyfriend then next week. I’ve tried everything I can think of: school, friend groups, going in public, speed, dating, and dating apps. But they always are disappointing. There are so many guys out there, why would anyone choose wheelchair bound guy like me. People say girls aren’t that shallow, but I know they always see my wheelchair and never try to really see me. I don’t have a lot of fears in life, but my biggest fear is dying alone, despite everyone saying there’s someone out there for me.

I forgot how comfortable I was being alone honestly.

We are seen as a red flag, most of us just lack the experience with women because we are shy or didn’t develop confidence or whatever else.. while the guy who slept with women and developed confidence is seen as a safe bet, the irony!

I'm literally the only person I know IRL thats struggling with this loneliness stuff so much. Granted, I don't know a lot of people but it got me thinking... am I just a total weirdo? Or are there more like us, but they just put an act on in public (as I do)?

Like I genuinely don't see other losers like me on the streets. I don't see friendless, kissless, ugly unlovable people on the streets, and then you have me. I probably stand out a lot. But why do I feel so invisible if I stand out? Why doesn't anyone want to get to know me? Do they just have a radar that says "stay the fuck away from this guy!!!!"? What have I done wrong to not deserve love and friends? I have good social skills too, you just gotta talk to me first...and it seems like nobody wants to be the one to initiate the talking. Why do I always have to be the one? Fuck this rotten world..

Felt like venting, I'm sure most of you can relate.

I feel so wrong when thinking of being cuddly and affectionate to a person I would like, as if shouldn't entertain those thoughts. Like it's wrong of me to think they could appreciate time with me. I'd mostly be a bother.

Feeling lonely. Would like to have a friend to interact with. Check my profile if anyones interested preferably age 40+ years.

it's so fucking useless and a burden to my existence. I'm developing some real deep resentment towards how people treat me sometimes. and i just wanna keep ranting about it because it's reached a boiling point.