hope everybody is having a wonderful hour, and that the next is even better than this one

I have almost no self control, I am reading everything as an insult, I can't keep a job and I can't find any hope or satisfaction.

One would think I would be eager to go back, but honestly... It was still shitty. This life wasn't even good, when I was younger, healthier, didn't have to think about money(generally, I didn't even spend that much and now I can't control myself), there was no ai and post-pandemic shithole. I think the most crucial part is that I am now used to being treated like shit and getting fucked by the universe constantly.

This is like…4 hours into our fight, that started in person. 💀

the outside would match the inside for once. i wanna be tossed in a washing machine

Background picture by Kazunali Tajima, Withered Flowers series 2021

Then I start crying out of nowhere

I genuinely started believing in astrology, because my zodiac was predicted to have a pretty shitty year(cancer). I won't say it's the worst(because I was 14 once), but oh boy it was awful...