For those of you like me who have chronic depression: did you ever reach a point where you gave up?

How did you get through it?

What made you get through it?

If you haven't, what are you currently doing?

My body and brain are giving up. I have hit a wall. I can't make myself move forward. I'm caught between not wanting to and wanting to all at once. I'm not talking about harming myself, and I don't have those thoughts. I'm just...giving up.

For the past 2 years I have been feeling an intense sense of dread in my stomach from the moment I wake up in the morning to the time I fall asleep at night, every single day. It appears completely contentless and doesn’t change depending on my thoughts or what’s happening in my life.

The weird thing is that I don’t really have the usual anxiety symptoms. No racing heart, no hypervigilance, no future oriented worrying, just constant pervasive dread. I do also have anhedonia and fatigue though.

It started after a random panic attack, and then just kinda stuck around in the background constantly until I had another panic attack ~5 months ago in which it got way worse and stayed way worse. For the last 5 months I’ve been living through what I can only describe as hell.

Basically I just feel horribly isolated because this symptom seems so unusual and it’s so debilitating and I’ve never heard of anyone else having this. I’d be so happy to hear from anyone that’s experienced anything even similar and if anything worked for them.

I recently started a new job 2 weeks ago. Today I had a rough day. I work in engineering and got a job as a test engineer. Today I got stuck finding quotes for all of the different equipment needed and my brain just shut down and wouldn’t let me do anything. Honestly this job is going rather fast, a lot needs to be done and thought it was manageable until today. I was anxious and struggling and couldn’t focus after a bit and just couldn’t do the things that were boring and I had to make a decision. It was a lot like my previous job which was my first job out of college. I really had struggled with getting anything done and being at desk, I was diagnosed with adhd and have been on medications my new job was going well until today.

Now I don’t even want to try next week. I want life to stop. I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts a lot of the past 7 years and it’s been especially bad since I graduated college and it’s been feeling really bad today. I’m tired and I don’t feel like I can do anything because I can’t just do the easy work I need to do. I make good money, it’s a great career. I really feel like I can’t do it. I hate myself for wasting this. I did the degree, I got a great paying job that many dream of. I can’t function once I have to face anything new and I avoid and wind up failing. I am so stressed out. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to do next week at work.

I’m just drinking and watching baseball because that’s the only thing I care about to distract myself with.

I don’t know how to make my brain succeed at anything. I feel like such a failure. Everything feels pointless. I am seeing a therapist and have some supportive friends but I feel like I rely on friends too much and I can’t see my therapist as often because I live farther from her with my new job. It all feels so hopeless.

Hi everyone

It’s hard to find the right words but I guess I’ll just ask away. I M/19 have always been self conscious about myself in general. I didn’t have a great upbringing, I hate the way I look and I have lots of regrets. Im still young and have my whole life ahead of me but recently I have felt like my life was missing something, I have lost 30kg in 4 months, my grades are great, but I have a sense of loneliness. I have friends and family but I still feel alone. Sometimes I lie at night and I just wish there was someone next to me who I can lay my head on and just forget about all of my pain. But due to my self consciousness I really don’t know what to do. I have just been constantly panicking that im going to be alone forever, not necessarily that isn’t anyone for me but that I’ll never truly love myself enough to let myself be open to that. What do I do?

I'm just tired of everything. Tired of working so hard. Tired of humans and how behave. And frankly, tired of being tired.

Worked so hard for so long and nothing worked in the end. My spirit is beaten. I lied to myself over and over again that It would finally be okay. Worked like a mule. Medication. Drugs.

I'm tired of modern life. How my friends became adults and they changed. The fact that I don't have real friends. The fact that Im barely making it. I totally understand why some people go crazy and become tweakers in the metro and behave crazy and unpredictably.

People are too fucking dumb to see that the The society is shit and We are building systems that do benefit us at all. Everyone is doing what they are told and following the steps that the society has laid for us. Nobody questions the direction where we are heading as a human race.

I really feel like ending it. Feel like humans as a species were not designed to live in a world like we have created. Or we weren't supposed to live past 30. The human psyche was not designed for living in the modern world.

I am just an average guy with nothing special. I have no close friend, I had one best friend with whom I felt good but she broke friendship over my mistake and asked me to stay the fuck off. I have terrible anxiety issues. I can't even tell anyone cause I have no one , everyone only thinks about themselves , Everything And everyone I care for makes me attach and then leaves.

I am also not good at anything, now I am starting to have memory problems too and tbh I am tired of daily anxieties, daily overthinking, making scenarios in mind that I just want this to stop.

I haven't had a single Good day in months. I don't know why I feel like this I have good parents and a good family. I just don't feel like I deserve anything.

Hi, I need some advice for what to do.

I'm experiencing multiple panic attacks every day, and it's affecting my ability to perform basic self care. I feel extraordinarily depressed, and I cannot find any relief.

Therapy and psychiatry are proving ineffective, and I'm in a state of severe suffering. Do I need to seek inpatient care? I have no history of substance abuse, nor any problematic behavior towards others.

What resource am I supposed to seek out right now?

I survived multiple suicide attempts. There was a time when I didn't actually want to die, but I couldn't escape the suicidal thoughts.

I even tried to get hospitalized to keep myself safe, but I was turned away. My family and mental health professionals couldn't give me the help I needed. A few friends helped me through my darkest moments, but the relief never lasted.
Eventually, I realized I had to learn how to live with myself.

It took me 3–4 years.
I kept asking myself, "If I don't have faith in myself, who else is going to love me?"
So I started treating myself like someone I was in a relationship with.

I started small. Doing the dishes, taking a shower, meditating, trying to stay positive, and learning to observe myself from a third-person perspective.
Little by little, things changed. I've been in a much better place since 2024.

Last night was rough, and a line I'd written years ago came back to me.
"If you think the things are too late to make it right, then do it right now."

What helped me might not work for everyone.
And just because I had to find my own way doesn't mean anyone else should have to face this alone.

If you're struggling right now, please don't give up on yourself. You deserve support, even if you haven't found the right kind yet.

If this post brings even a little comfort to someone who's been hurt or made to feel alone, that's all I need.

I’ve been struggling with pretty severe anxiety and depression throughout this year, though I’ve had it my whole life. I find myself really struggling with eating. I’ll feel hungry to the point my stomach gets upset and it’s so hard to motivate myself to eat food. When I do eat my portions are pretty small. I eat basically the same things every day because I hardly even taste what I eat anymore. I’m hangry and miserable all the time, but I can’t seem to get myself to eat more, I just don’t care or eating feels like such a daunting task. I do have emetophobia which has caused food anxiety over the years, and though I do get anxious about getting sick from food I eat sometimes, I’m more so like apathetic about eating? And if I do eat, and I really focus on the food I’m eating, I’ll find something gross about the texture and it’ll almost trigger my gag reflex. I don’t know what to do. I know this isn’t healthy, I’ve lost nearly 20lbs over the last couple of months. I’ve started to weigh myself more often and I almost feel a sense of satisfaction when I see I weigh less than before. I used to love food, eating, and cooking. Now, I feel like anything I eat is just for pure sustenance and it’s so so hard to get through the day. I don’t know what to do. Does anyone have any advice?

It's pretty much guaranteed that I'm not gonna have a life I'll be happy with. Even though nobody will say it to my face, I'm pretty sure I'm a failure.

I might end up on disability benefits because of a couple diagnosis, since I might not even be able to hold the most basic job, and I don't think I'm gonna be able to travel much, if at all.

This isn't life. This isn't worth living for and waking up in the morning. This isn't worth living the rest of my natural life for. But I pretty much have no other choice.

I almost jumped off a bridge when I was 18. I am now 26, and I deeply regret not doing that. Sticking around wasn't worth it afterall.