r/bipolar1 • • Aug 02 '24

Advice for managing a manic crisis

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Seems like there's been number of posts asking for help with managing a budding episode. So, I wrote up my best advice and imma sticky this after it goes through some vetting. Please comment if you think I'm giving out bad advice or if you have anything to add to this typa crisis plan.


Crisis: meaning you are worried about your mental state. (borderline worried = worried)

hypo/mania engine: the mechanisms within your body & mind that induce, perpetuate, and escalate a hypomanic or manic episode.

When you're in crisis, your main goals should be:

  1. stay SAFE
  2. reduce "brain chemicals" that drive the hypo/mania engine (i.e. the "brain chemicals" that induce, perpetuate, and escalate hypomania and mania. These "brain chemicals" include dopamine, cortisol, serotonin, adrenaline, and noradrenaline/norepinephrine).

The following is a general guide for reducing "brain chemicals" that drive the hypo/manic engine. For ease of reference, I'll list each item with a brief description first. Each item in this list is expanded below to explain why it's important and offer a few tips on how you might be able to implement it.

  1. If you have antipsychotics, take them as prescribed. If you don't have antipsychotics, get some ASAP. You're in crisis and APs are a weapon against mania.
    1. If you don't have a psychiatrist, see your general practitioner or urgent care clinic. They can often get you APs in a pinch (assuming they've been prescribed to you before).
  2. GET SLEEP!
  3. REDUCE STRESS. Avoid stress at all costs. Take time off work/school. Invest in your favorite hobbies. Stay away from folks who stress you out. Relax.
  4. REDUCE STIMULATION. Stimulating your brain by engaging in social interaction or consuming media that evokes specific emotions will rev you up. Staying at home, in a comfortable environment, is recommended. Chill.
    1. Note: 'excitement' is about the same as 'stress' with regard to 'making mania worse'. They induce the same "brain chemicals".
  5. Create a simple daily routine and stick to it.
  6. Take time off work and school. You are in crisis. Your stability is a priority! Some jobs offer Short Term Disability & FMLA (medical leave) which can get you ~3 months off work at ~60% pay, without risk of being fired (arguable). Ask HR or your manager about it.
  7. Avoid drugs, alcohol, and stimulants including caffeine & sugar. fr fr, lay off the caffeine.
  8. Contact your support network. Let them know you're in crisis and your plan for managing it. If they're willing to help, take them up on it.
  9. Consume at least 1500 calories per day. More is better.
  10. Stay hydrated.
  11. Exercise. Aim to avoid injury. Exhaust yourself most days, but be sure to give your body a rest every few days. Low impact cardio is recommended, like an elliptical or swimming. Lifting weights and running might be a bad idea cuz of injury risk. Be SAFE.
  12. Stretch. Relax. Treat it as meditation and do some focused breathing. Mania makes you tense, even if you don't notice it...relieving that tension helps to calm your body & mind.
  13. Take breaks often to sit and chill. BREATHE. Focusing on a task (or tasks) nonstop ain't healthy bruh.
  14. Schedule an appointment with your psychiatrist. They can help you through a crisis by adjusting your meds.

PROTIP: a cheat code for "beating" mania is to frame 'specific things that help you to combat mania' as 'enjoyable/pleasurable'. ...mania seeks pleasure and YOU get to choose what is pleasurable for yourself. If you work hard enough at this type of reframing, it's possible to make mania work to beat itself. Ask yourself: is managing this episode of mania well something that could bring you pleasure?


1. Antipsychotics

Why take antipsychotics?

Antipsychotics were designed to wreck mania. The way they work is by blocking some of your dopamine receptors. Dopamine is an essential "brain chemical" in the hypo/manic engine and APs blocking some receptors can often stop an episode cold.

Tips on how to take antipsychotics

Take APs per your doctor's recommendation.

It's probably a good idea to see your doctor if they're not aware you're in crisis. They may suggest adjusting your dose.

If you want to stop taking antipsychotics after the episode is over, make sure to taper off safely per your doctor's instruction. Quitting APs quickly can cause some nasty withdrawal effects that include 'inducing mania'.

It is often the case that APs wont be enough to put an end to an episode, by themselves. Don't count on APs being a magic bullet...do everything you can to put an end to your episode.


2. GET SLEEP!

Why SLEEP!?

Sleep deprivation can escalate and perpetuate an episode like none other, because it contributes to elevated levels of "brain chemical" that drive the hypo/manic engine.

Getting some solid sleep can do a world of good when it comes to calming a manic episode.

Tips on how to get some sleep

Granted, sleep is not easy to get while manic. Not easy, but not impossible. There are some things you can do to help with the sleep thing:

  1. Create a sleep "ritual". The more consistent you are with your "ritual", the stronger your Pavlovian response will be. For me, it looks something like the following, but you gotta figure it out for yourself:
    1. Put an end to "screen time" for the day, at least 1 hour before bedtime. No more TV, computer, or phone.
    2. Shower
    3. Orgasm
    4. Get comfy (keep sweats & socks close by if you might get cold, pillow between the legs if that's helpful, box fan or some other white noise to block out background noise, etc.)
    5. Focused/meditative breathing while under the covers.
    6. Programmed dream: make yourself dream the same dream while your conscious mind is still awake. Force the same narrative to go through your head. The active focus can tie up loose thoughts.
  2. Set your bedtime in stone. Set an alarm to remind you when it's time to start your sleep "ritual" and strictly adhere to it.
  3. Set your wake up time in stone. Even if you wake up throughout the night, stay in bed until your 'wake up time' and TRY to continue sleeping.
  4. Keep a pen & pad by your bed. When you have thoughts keeping you up, write them out in the notebook. Often, writing something down will let your brain let go of it, because it understands the thought will not be forgotten.
  5. A 'sleep playlist' or audiobook of something you've already read/heard can be helpful to tie up loose thoughts.
  6. Make sure to exercise during the day. If you're physically tired, it can help.
  7. If you can't get sleep using the above, there are meds that can aid with getting sleep. Melatonin is an over the counter med that can help. Ativan or klonopin can be helpful if your doctor will prescribe them, but be careful with those drugs because they're addictive. There are more prescription meds that could help...talk to your doc to see what they can set you up with.
  8. If your thoughts are keeping you up, give yourself 30 min or an hour to engage in a cathartic/meditative activity. Writing about the thoughts that are keeping you up can be helpful. Stretching can be helpful. Other things can be helpful. Avoid stimulating activities like media or chatting with folks.
  9. Ensure that you avoid stimulants like caffeine and sugar throughout the day.

It is possible to get sleep in the throes of MANIA, but it often takes some effort to get there.


3. REDUCE STRESS

Why REDUCE STRESS?

Cortisol is a major player in the hypo/manic engine. Stress increases your cortisol levels. Avoid stress bruh.

Be aware: events that cause spikes of stress can escalate the severity of an episode instantaneously. Even if you're managing well, a stressful event can possibly turn an episode into something that is unmanageable.

If you're able to mange stress well, the instantons spike in the episode can be reduced back to something more manageable...try to chill bruh.

Tips on how you might reduce your level of stress

  • Take time off work or school if you can.
    • There's something called the Family and Medical Leave Act (FMLA) in the US. If you file for it, your employer technically can't fire you for taking up to 3 months off work. There's also a decent chance you're eligible for Short Term Disability (STD), which can get you paid ~60% of your paycheck for up to 3 months, while you take time off. Talk to HR or your manager about FMLA and STD and they should point you in the right direction. You'll likely need to get your psychiatrist to sign off on the forms, but it should be relatively simple assuming you have a psychiatrist.
      • WARNING: technically your employer can't fire you for doing the above. However, the vast majority of us are 'at-will' employees, which means that your employer doesn't need a reason to fire you and it's hard af to prove they fired you cuz you took FMLA or whatever. Don't abuse this system.
    • If you're in school, talk to your counselor. It may be possible for you to withdraw from your courses to give you time to ride out the episode and recover, without damaging your GPA.
  • Avoid people & situations that stress you out (duh). YOU ARE ALLOWED TO CARE FOR YOURSELF by refusing contact with specific individuals.
  • Invest time in as many outlets as you can. Outlets help to relieve stress. Write, draw, dance, exercise, play games, have a good cry, find someone who will let you talk your head off at them without judgement. Do the things you do to reduce stress and do em a lot (not drugs or alcohol tho...those will ramp mania up).
    • It's common that a manic episode will induce a sense of 'Purpose' in you. Working toward that purpose might benefit your stress level, as long as it's safe.
    • Remember to take breaks. Outleting can be helpful, but working on anything continuously without breaks for hours on end is detrimental.
  • Organize your habitat and keep it that way. When you're manic and looking for an item, it can be stressful if you can't find it. When you're manic, you might have a tendency to pick items up and discard them mindlessly, causing substantial clutter. ...things will go much more smoothly if you make it a point to keep your habitat organized while you're in episode.
  • Nature walks can be helpful.
  • BREATHE. Just focus on taking deep breaths. In and out. Count your breaths and aim for that to be the ONLY thing in your mind. You'd be surprised how effective it can be for reducing stress, especially right when you're smacked with a big dose of it. Try to take a couple minutes per hour to drop everything you're doing, chill, and BREATHE.
  • Reduce your responsibilities if you can
    • If you can afford it, get take-out to eat. Only if you can afford it...watch dat manic spending. If you can't afford take out, find a meal that you mass produce and portion out for the week.
    • Get disposable dishes and silverware, to reduce cleaning dishes.
    • Ask loved ones if they can help by taking on some of your responsibilities. Be grateful like a motherfucker and make sure that you return the effort they give you after your episode is over.
  • Stretch. Mania has a tendency to make muscles more tense than usual. Stretching can be monumentally beneficial, especially if you can make it a meditative experience (put your focus on elongating the specific muscles you're stretching).
  • Make SAFETY a priority. Maniacs have a tendency to get themselves in situations that aren't quite safe...and that's stressful.
  • Specific mindsets can help to reduce stress significantly. If you're able to embody these types of mindsets, you'll be much more resistant to the bullshit mania can throw at you. Try to keep these ideals in mind when you find something is stressing you out. Examples of some helpful mindsets:
    • 'don't sweat the small stuff...it's all small stuff.'
    • 'I don't give a fuck'
    • Stop caring what others think about you.
  • If you leave your habitat, have a plan for how you'll manage stress if it arises. Bring an outlet, like a notebook to write your stress out in or headphones to listen to calming music. Plan to remove yourself from stressful situations and take a walk. If you find that stress is overwhelming you, try sprinting until your legs fail. When stress strikes take a break from everything till you get your head straight.

4. REDUCE STIMULATION

Why REDUCE STIMULATION?

Stimulation stimulates the mind (duh). Stimulation is what triggers the release/absorption of "brain chemicals". If your goal is to manage "brain chemicals" it stands to reason that reducing your stimulation is a viable vector.

Keep in mind that 'stimulation can escalate & perpetuate mania'. When you're planning your activities for the day, aim for reduced stimulation.

Note: 'excitement' is a major culprit in inducing the "brain chemicals" that drive the hypo/manic engine. I know it's lame, but be wary of 'excitement' as much as you're wary about 'stress'.

Tips on how to reduce stimulation (specifically the type that increases "brain chemicals" that feed the hypo/mania engine)

  • Avoid social media. Posting is a bad idea. Responding to posts is a bad idea. Reading the posts of others is a bad idea. Social media is poison for a manic mind.
  • Avoid media in general. Chilling and watching a movie or something is fine. Reading up on the latest political news or other media that can elicit a strong emotional reaction is not a good idea.
  • Reduce phone time to an absolute minimum. Turn your phone on silent, or better yet turn it off.
  • Stay in. Don't go out. Grocery shopping is fine if you don't have a friend or family member that is able to do it for you. Going to the gym is fine. Going out to a social event is a bad idea. You shouldn't be going to work or school...you're in crisis, remember?
    • If you must go out, don't drive. Driving in a manic crisis is DANGEROUS. NOT SAFE.
  • Don't allow a group of folks to visit you at home. One or two folks coming over might be fine.
  • Don't take on too many tasks at once. Ideally: do a task till completion, then move on to the next. ...Ideally. I know how it goes. fr fr, try to finish up on one thing before you invest in the next.

5. Create a daily routine and stick to it

Why create a daily routine to stick to it?

Decrease day to day variables. Keep life predictable. Lower cortisol levels (and reduce release/absorption of other "bad" "brain chemicals").

The more predictable daily life is, the less unexpected bullshit there is to deal with. Remove the guesswork & impulses when thinking 'what should I do right now?'.

Tips on how to create a daily routine

Keep it simple. The more you try to cram into your daily routine, the less likely it'll be that your routine sticks.

  • Sleep time
  • Wake time
  • Meal time
  • Exercise
  • Stretch
  • Free time
  • Chill time

It would be smart to limit time you spend with others outside your home. Stimulation revs us up, plus there is a higher chance of us getting into trouble outside of our home. Stay SAFE. Get used to telling folks "no" when they ask if you want to go out with them.

Tips on how to stick to a daily routine

Sticking to a daily routine may not be super fun or exciting. Understand that. Understand that minimizing 'excitement' is something you gotta do if you wanna keep your manic crisis from getting out of hand. ...think about what you value more: getting through this episode SAFFLY or chasing excitement?

Write your routine down. Set alarms to remind you when it's time for something. If you live with folks, ask them to help you stay on track.

COMMIT to your routine. If you're thinking "man, this routine thing sucks", the impulses mania pushes into your head will have a greater chance of kicking you off your routine. If you're thinking "I ENJOY doing the things I need to do to stay as stable as possible", mania will have a harder time detracting you. Cognitive reframing ftw.


6. Take time off of work and school

Why take time off work and school?

Important note: remember you can go on 'Short Term Disability' to get paid up to 60% of your current paycheck for up to 3 months

Less stress. Less stimulation. More time to chill. More time to focus on curbing your current episode.

Many of folks have lost their jobs, messed up their grades, or blown up their social lives during a manic crisis due to manic behaviors.

Taking time off school/work will be of tremendous benefit.

How to take time off work

Talk to HR. If there's no HR where you work, talk to your manager.

  • Tell them you are bipolar.
  • Tell them you are in a manic crisis and that you are unable to work.
  • Ask them how the place of employment deals with the 'Family and Medical Leave Act', if in the US...if outside the US, there's probably a similar thing in your country that protects your job.
  • Ask them how the place of employment deals with 'Short Term Disability' (STD).
  • End the conversation. You are not obligated to tell them anything about what's going on with you and it's inappropriate for them to pry.

What is the 'Family and Medical Leave Act' (FMLA) and how does it work?

FMLA is the mechanism of the US government that protects the jobs of folks who need to take a leave of absence for family and/or medical reasons, for up to 12 weeks. 'A manic crisis' certainly falls under the umbrella covered by FMLA.

When you enact FMLA to take a leave of absence, your employer is legally not allowed to fire you for taking this leave of absence. ...though almost everyone in the US is an "at-will" employee, which means that your employer can fire you at any time for 'no reason'. Keep this in mind and don't abuse FMLA.

Your employer might have a specific form on hand that you can fill out to enact FMLA leave. If they don't, you can google "FMLA forms" to find the standardized form. You will likely need the signature of your psychiatrist on the form to finalize it. Make sure you sign it and make a copy to keep in your own record.

What is 'Short Term Disability' (STD) and how does it work?

STD is a type of insurance that most employers have, but not all.

If your employer has this insurance, you are able to receive up to 60% of your current paycheck from the insurance company for up to 12 weeks.

Ask your employer for the forms, fill them out, copy them, and submit them. Your psychiatrist will need to sign off on them.

How to take time off school (surefire way)

Talk to your councilor. Tell them you're bipolar and in a manic crisis. Tell them you need to take time off school.

Your councilor might require a psychiatrist's sign off and they might not. Your councilor will guide you through the process of withdrawing from your courses.

If this happens before your school's deadline to add/drop classes, you can drop all your classes and likely won't have to pay anything for the semester (save room and board). If this happens after the add/drop deadline, you may need to pay for the semester.

How to take time off of school (less certain way, if after the add/drop deadline)

(((this section requires some research on my part)))

If it's after your school's add/drop deadline, you might be able to "complete" the semester while taking some time off.

Send your professors an email explaining the situation (bipolar/manic crisis & need time off of school). Ask them if you have any options other than withdrawing from the course and being stuck with a bill for the semester that you'll receive no credit on. Possible options:

  • ask them what your current grade is and what your final grade would be if you receive a 0 on all future assignments & exams.
  • ask them if you can make up assignments/exams that you'll miss during your necessary leave of absence, after you've recovered.
  • (((IDK, there are probably more vectors here)))

You might find that some of your professors are willing to work with you and others are not. Talk to your counselor to set up a plan of action.


7. Avoid drugs, alcohol, and stimulants including caffeine & sugar

Why avoid drugs, alcohol, and stimulants including caffeine & sugar?

"Brain chemicals" bruh...doesn't matter what the drug is, it will fuel the hypo/manic engine.

Notably, pot and psychedelics are known to induce and worsen psychosis if you're manic.

Caffeine & sugar (especially caffeine) increase dopamine & cortisol, which are big sources of fuel for the hypo/manic engine.

Tips on avoiding drugs, alcohol, and stimulants including caffeine & sugar.

Just say "no". Keep in mind that these substances will make mania worse.

If you're addicted to the substance, quitting cold turkey probably isn't a good idea. It's hard to say which will impact mania worse: quitting or continuing your use. If you're addicted, aim to keep your usage to an absolute minimum.


8. Contact your support network

Why contact your support network?

To alert some key folks that you're in crisis and inform them of your plan for managing the crisis. If you don't tell them, how can they know? If you don't tell them your plan, they're probably gonna worry...so, be sure you tell them the plan.

Maybe they'll be willing to help out. Maybe they have a specific way of interacting with you while you're in episode. At the least, you'll be warning them that you're manic and they will be able to avoid you if they're not able to deal with that. ...let's face it, while mania may be difficult for us to deal with, it can also be difficult for those around us.

If you have a solid support network, it can be a great source of stress relief, support (duh), and security.

Who is in your support network?

Family & friends who you TRUST and who are willing to offer you support during your episode (even if that "support" is leaving you tf alone).

How can a support network help to support you?

  • Give you space when you need it. Sometimes the best thing someone can do to support you is to stay away. If you think that's the case with a specific individual, be kind about how you inform them.
  • Lend a caring (non-judgmental) ear to let you talk off. Emotional support & validation.
  • Help with cleaning & organizing your home.
  • Help with preparing food.
  • Provide gentle feedback on how well you're managing.
  • Give reminders to help you stick to your plan. Help to hold you accountable.
  • Provide transportation to the grocery store, gym, psychiatrist, or hospital.
  • Be a sounding board to bounce (possibly ridiculous) ideas off.

WARNING:

Don't expect help from your support network. Mania is taxing on those you're around. If they offer, great! If they're not willing, don't hold it against them.

NOTES:

If folks are willing to help, BE GRACIOUS! And make sure to return the love after your episode is over.

Not everyone in your support network will be able to accept you in a manic state without grief/judgement and that's okay...just limit the time you spend around them. It's also important to note that those who can accept you in your manic state do not have unlimited tolerance.

What if you don't have a support network?

Don't sweat it bro. Stick to the other tips and make it a point to set up a support network after this episode is over.

If you want someone to provide feedback or to help you stick to your plan, try posting on  and ask for help.


9. Consume at least 1500 calories per day. More is better.

Why consume at least 1500 calories per day?

Malnourishment puts a strain on your body & mind and will release some "brain chemicals" that feed the hypo/mania engine.

Your body & mind need at least 1200 calories per day to stay out of "starvation mode". I recommend at least 1500 calories per day cuz us maniacs likely burn more calories per day than an average person.

At minimum 1500 calories per day bro. Try to get more.

What kind of calories should you consume?

Protein. Fatty protein is best. Don't neglect your macronutrients (protein/fats/carbs). Try to get some healthy fats and carbs.

Stay away from sugar. Sugar is a simulant and will increase the level of "brain chemicals" you're trying to avoid.

Tips on how to consume at least 1500 calories per day while manic

Choke it down bro. I know you think you got better things to do than eat and food isn't too appetizing, but you need these calories for the sake of stability.

If you absolutely can't stomach much but find you can eat a whole-ass pizza, then pizza it is. Hitting the recommended levels of macronutrients is ideal, but you gotta do whatchu gotta do to get those calories, ya know?

Have dedicated mealtimes. When you wake up, make sure you eat your whole breakfast. When your alarm goes off to remind you it's lunchtime, eat your whole lunch. Same for dinner. Snack as much as you can.

Prepping food in advance can be helpful, cuz making food fresh for each meal can be a chore. I like to bake 3 lbs of chicken on Sunday, then heat it up throughout the week with some rice & broccoli on the side. ezpz. Def gotta choke it down, but that's just a minor effort of will.

Don't go crazy with takeout. If you can afford it, cool. But most of us can't afford to live off takeout. I know it seems like a simple solution, but make sure you stay within your budget. Beware of manic spending.


10. Stay hydrated

Why stay hydrated?

"brain chemicals"...duh. (I feel like a broken record)

Dehydration increases the level of "brain chemicals" that feed the hypo/mania engine.

Tips on how to stay hydrated

Get a large water bottle and note how many times you fill it up per day. Aim to drain it at specific times each day. Dr. Google says 15.5 cups (3.7 liters) per day if you're a man or 11.5 cups (2.7 liters) per day if you're a woman...aim to hit those numbers.

Watch your pee. If it's dark, drink more water.


11. Exercise

WARNING

Exercise can stimulate mania if you're not accustomed to it. If that's the case then it's probably best to limit yourself to walking as exercise. Going for peaceful walks in nature can be helpful.

Why exercise?

"Brain chemical" regulation. Exercise is a healthy outlet for stress (read: a healthy way to reduce some of the "brain chemicals" that feed the hypo/mania engine).

Exercise is a great way to burn off the excess energy that maniacs have and will make it easier to do other things that are good for a maniac, like chill out and sleep.

Tips on how to exercise

Don't go crazy with it. Exercise is good, but too much exercise can be bad. Keep in mind that mania makes us feel like you can physically exert yourself to an extent that's unhealthy and unsafe...mania can circumvent your brain's pain/strain inhibitors that tell you when your body needs to chill and rest.

Don't go crazy with it, but try to exert yourself to the point of exhaustion as much as you can do SAFELY. Be sure to stretch daily to reduce your physical strain. Give yourself a rest day every few days.

IMO low impact cardio is best. Swimming, elliptical, and HIIT are great ways to exhaust yourself while keeping the strain on your body to a minimum.

PROTIP

Swimming can elicit something called a 'diving response' in your brain, which is great for calming mania down. You can also elicit the 'diving response' by submerging your head in cold water while holding your breath.

Avoid injury like the plague. Injury = stress. Injury = taking time away from exercise, which is a bad thing for a maniac. Stay SAFE.

IMO, lifting is not a great idea to do while manic. Higher chance of injury with the baseline tension that mania induces and it's very easy to get distracted from the exercise between sets.


12. Stretch

Why stretch?

To relieve muscle tension (tension/strain in muscles = bad brain chems).

You may not notice this, but mania has a tendency to increase your baseline muscle tension. We often walk around with our muscles in a more tense state than normal and that tension can add up to some negative effects on your brain.

Stretching is a great way to chill tf out and relieve that tension. After muscles are relaxed from a good stretch, you'll be more comfortable, less on-edge, and find that it's easier to chill tf out.

Tips on how to stretch

  • When you notice some part of your body is tense, stretch it right away.
  • Ideally, you wanna stretch your full body at least once daily and stretch the parts of your body you feel stress/strain issues in more than once per day.
  • If you don't already have a stretching routine, I'd recommend phrakture's 'starting stretching' guide:
  • A foam roller can be great for stretching too. Specifically for the IT band, hips, glutes, hamstrings, back, and shoulders.
  • Rolling a tennis ball against the wall can be great spot treatment for shoulders, back, hips, and glutes.

Stretching can (an probably should) be a meditative experience. Take a minute to relax and commune with your body.

  • Focus on each individual muscle...feel yourself release it. Feel how the muscle is is lengthened with your stretch.
  • Focus on your breathing.

13. Take breaks often to just sit and chill

Why take breaks?

Your body needs rest. Your mind needs rest. Constantly doing stuff without rest will induce stress & strain that increases the brain chems the hypo/mania engine feeds on.

How to take breaks?

Sit and chill. Try not to think about your next moves or whatever, just be in the moment. Focus on your breathing.

Aim for a 10 minute break once every hour or so.


14. Schedule an appointment with your psychiatrist.

WARNING: be aware that if your psychiatrist THINKS you might be a danger to yourself or others, they will put you in the hospital against your will.

If you think you're in danger of being put in the hospital against your will, consider that the hospital might be a good idea. It's generally easier to get released from the hospital if you're the one making the choice to go there.

Why schedule an appointment with your psychiatrist?

If you're in crisis, they should know...so they can be prepared if you need them in an emergency.

They can suggest temporary med increases to try and put an end to the manic episode.

You need them to sign off on FMLA and short term disability.


r/bipolar1 • • Dec 01 '22

Too Much of a Good Thing: What Mania Feels Like

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r/bipolar1 • • 12h ago

What hallucinations have rattled you the most?

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Ever since going psychotic a couple years back, I am super triggered by little noises and little touches from like my hair a or tag poking me in the back of the neck.

During my episode, I heard guttural voices and thought someone was able to touch my back, like draw a hand up or down my back, because they could travel between dimensions. Anybody else lose their minds so bad that the memories echo the terrors on a frequent basis?


r/bipolar1 • • 4h ago

Looking for advice. How do I stop thinking?

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I've posted already earlier sorry sorry I just was wondering if anyone has any advice on how to stop thinking something is a Sign for oneself. Or that sort of thing. It's beginning to scare me cause they're also advising me to do things. Not seriously yet at all and I'm super good at ignoring commands bc I've had them for ages, I just don't like it. It's just the kinda vague you should take all those pills or you should drink that, not genuinely serious like compelling me or anything just it's beginning to not be me thinking that stuff again. I've been there before but I wasn't medicated then. It's still very ignorable but the possibility of it getting worse is kind of stressful. I know taking all those pills/drinking that, as in the examples, won't hurt me, I've known that for a while, but I still don't want to do those things adn it's stressing me out. I know I'm just getting anxious over what is practically not much at all, but it's kind of weird how my brain has just ... shifted in the last week or two? The Signs thing, it's not loads of times it's just happened a few times. It's weird how it's become the first thought even though I don't know what they're signs of or anything, they're just... I dunno, the world is filled with things for me to interpret.

Again though I know perfectly well that I'm overreacting and stressing over stuff that is functionally very little, it's just reminding me of times that were horrible. If I hadn't had that in the past I wouldn't eb scared as I am now with the tiny things.

So please help me :) thanks. I can elaborate more in commetns etc. and I've been around the place for a bit sorry. A few times you know. Thanks in advance!


r/bipolar1 • • 16h ago

Looking for advice. drinking and bipolar

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disclaimer: I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 but have only ever had a couple true manic episodes so i’m not sure if that is enough to actually have bipolar 1 bc I do get hypomanic. Sorry, I’m still trying to figure this out.


r/bipolar1 • • 16h ago

Mj and bp2

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Hi guys! I really wanna keep smoking weed but I have bipolar2 and get mania occasionally. Does anyone have any experience with this? How did you keep smoking but also maintain good mental health? For more context I smoked for about 3 years before taking a year long break due to my anxiety getting really bad. I can start smoking for a little even up to a whole year but at that point I start feeling weird? Like a little off. Anyways thanks in advance.


r/bipolar1 • • 1d ago

Looking for positivity. antipsychotic induced type 2 diabetes

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my mom has always had bipolar disorder as far as i can remember, and i was diagnosed too about a year ago. after many episodes, finally getting a diagnosis and starting treatment felt hopeful. i am not naming any medication names due to the rules but after trying a few combinations i was put on a very high medication regimen with high doses of two different antipsychotics, one ir and the other both ir and xr, one atypical antipsychotic, and two different atypical antidepressants for sedation, alongside an snri i was already taking for my fibromyalgia.

i actually started becoming better. there were some side effects, notably weight gain, but that was expected and i didn't think much of it, because my life was finally getting better.

then i went into a coma.

i do have a history of diabetes in my family, but my blood levels had always been normal before. despite that, all those medications led to develop medication induced secondary type 2 diabetes and go into a diabetic coma. i was hospitalized in the icu for a while, where they cut me off basically every medication except the one mild antipsychotic i was on, and my snri, then they cut that antipsychotic off as well.

i was encouraged to track my mood, and my mom took care of me for a few months. i had to miss the final month of my university semester as my university was in a different city and they really didn't want me to be alone, which is fair.

my blood levels have since stabilized, and i have no suspicion of any diabetes or anything left anymore. i am trying to manage. i had gained 30 kilograms in half a year and i have managed to lose 5 in the past 3 months. i cannot be prescribed any antipsychotic anymore given my history, and i am suspecting im manic again. im considering checking myself into inpatient care.

what im heavily encouraging is for you all to track your weight gain and blood glucose levels. if i hadn't slacked off and got my levels checked, my coma might have been prevented.


r/bipolar1 • • 19h ago

Bipolar 1: anyone taking lamotrigine without an antipsychotic?

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r/bipolar1 • • 21h ago

Looking for advice. How do parents with bipolar disorder parent?

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r/bipolar1 • • 1d ago

Story I’m writing

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I’m writing a story based around a boy with bpd. My story aims to represent bpd and spread awareness. I personally do not have bpd, so I was hoping anyone to educate me or suggest aspects of bpd that you feel aren’t represented enough in media.


r/bipolar1 • • 1d ago

What’s your gender?

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r/bipolar1 • • 1d ago

I 🖤 HYPOMANIA: what’s worse, being hypomanic, or never being so again? Pro and cons of meds, please

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r/bipolar1 • • 1d ago

Only sleeping an hour a day

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r/bipolar1 • • 1d ago

I am thinking about cutting me hair. I think it’s about control.

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29f. I already got my haircut to a pixie a month and a half ago cuz I cut it myself during mania. It has grown some already but now I’m extremely depressed and feel targeted. I feel like I’m not in control with the fact that all the people in my life or being hateful and I’m dealing with a lot of health issues. I feel like people are trying to ruin my life. Though that feeling isn’t as strong today as it has been. I’m so tired all the time. I’m angry that I’m physically sick. I’m angry that I’m getting treated horribly and being threatened with guns and violence by people at work and my own family. My mother specifically. She threatened to shoot me in the head. I just know cutting more of my hair off would make her angry. I want to make her angry. Plus I want it all gone. I’m so angry and tired. I feel like a change in my appearance will help me gain control. Maybe. Just maybe. I’m thinking about getting a micro pixie or going even shorter. Maybe buzzing my head. Anything to see if it will somehow make this stop. I think my psychiatrist thinks I’m in psychosis but idk. Do you think this will make me stop feeling like I don’t exist?


r/bipolar1 • • 1d ago

Looking for advice. How do you know if things are going wrong?

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hx psychosis. Been very stable I don't know if you've seen my previoius posts. but the last few days things are shifting and I'm starting to think about those things again I don't know why I think I'm just freaking out for no good reason but also why are they coming back to me why am I thinking that sort of stuff again?? I'm not psychotic I can't be psychotic I absolutely refuse and also it literally doesn't fit because if anything it's just that my anxiety is acting up randomly. I don't know. I have zero triggers having happened or anything it's just that the stuff is coming back to me I don't know fi that makes sense sorry. I'm just scared. I cried earlier for no good reason. I occasionally have to look around to see if I'm watched. I can't settle to writing or anything which is frustrating. I see things that are clearly Signs but I don't know what thye're signs of I can't explain it either i just know like I found money on the ground the other day and I saw a post that was clearly targeted to me specifically and I don't know what else but I know things have been happening. Things are shifting. But I'm super stable I don't understand what or why this is happening.

I'm honeslty blowing this all out of proportion I KNOW i am. I wish I could talk to my dad he would know but I don't even know what I'd tell him about or talk to him about. I'm not psychotic, like definitionally I mean it's not just me being in denial, it's more pseudopsychotic anxiety but I don't kno w why it would be appearing now literally out of nowhere.

Sorry I don't know how to explain my question just. How do I know what I need to tell to people, you know? How do I communicate? I mean how do I know if things are going wrongcompared to just I'm a bit stressed even though i don't know WHY im stressed I don't understand and everyone is making no sesnse lately people are thinking things that are different to what I think and it doesn't make sense and thinking is maybe a touch harder than it was? I Mean it was really good for a while but it feels like the last week or something I don't know it's different. I'm not manic I know I'm not manic, I'm also not depressed for sure I'm just scared I don't know??? and I don't know why???? why the random Fears how do I stop this how do I be safe I absolutely REFUSE to be psychotic I refuse to do my placement if I'm anything at all I did my last placement while off my rocker a bit and that was kind of bad even though it went really well (nursing placement). Placememnt starts at start of next month so things have to be stable by then. I mean I think I'm stable but I don't understand why my brain is doing this do you know what I mean? I don't know how to know anything sorry I don't know how to explain myself either does this make sense?

I'm literally fine but the anxieties decided to visit me and I don't know why I don't get it I can't summarise I'm sorry. this post really sounds way more serious than it actually is but i dont know.

I want my dad but he's in a different country until late JANUARY :( I could message him but I don't know what I'd say or how. I was scared when they left because I kind of mentally depend on my parents being able to show up but obviously I can't ask him to come home because my siste rin another country needs mum and dad right now to help with her new baby. (I'm an aunty yayyyyy she is the cutest baby everrrrrr) I just want ot talk to dad but I don't knwo what about and I want one of dad's hugs I feel like that would set me up real good

everyone thinks the different things and I don't get it I'm fine but they say Im not and then all this I don't know I don't GET it like Iknow I'm not manic, I'm not depressed, and I'm not psychotic but my brain is fucking me over. how do I knwo what do i do sorry i dont know if this all makes sense please help me :( I'm not in crisis or anything just kind of I don't knwo.


r/bipolar1 • • 1d ago

I have to change my college..

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r/bipolar1 • • 1d ago

Looking for positivity. Hypomania

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I suffer from both bipolar one and Parkinson’s disease when I am in episodes like right now I’m hypomanic I suffer from hypersexuality I make unsafe choices and do things that I would normally not do and I need to get over the feeling that I’m dirty because of this and try and focus on not doing these things because I don’t feel like I can use my diseases as an excuse. What are your thoughts? Does anyone else suffer from hypersexuality when they’re in a manic episode?


r/bipolar1 • • 1d ago

Looking for advice. Stable on meds for 3+ years but still have abnormal amount of energy at night when I SHOULD be exhausted. Thoughts?

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First time posting here, looking for some insight from others who are diagnosed with bipolar 1.

Does anyone else periodically have an abnormal amount of energy remaining despite being awake for 20+ hours? I have been steady with my meditations, therapies etc and genuinely believe this is not a hypomanic state because I’ve had that before and this doesn’t feel like that…

I just feel odd when I compare myself to my partner who is more “neurotypical” or however people say.

Like I know my body is tired because I woke up at 2:30am, did a 12hr shift at the hospital then came home, did laundry and other chores (all on 4 hours of sleep).

But here I am now at 9:45pm still being wide awake. I know that once I get into bed with the lights off i’ll dose off within 30 minutes or so. Its just still so strange to me. In theory my brain should be so tired by now after being on my feet literally all day taking care of 10+ patients.

Its like when my brain gets past being awake a certain amount of hours its just able to keep going and going and going and my thoughts are still active and I feel productive (again, not in a hypomanic way)

Meanwhile, my partner who has also been awake a similar amount of time, but took a nap for a couple hours, feels EXHAUSTED (as I believe this is normal).

Any thoughts would be appreciated. Do you experience this? How does it make you feel?


r/bipolar1 • • 1d ago

Looking for advice. Can Mania come back after taking medications?

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Please dont screenshot this and be respectful.
My sister had his first Mania episode on 2023 where she attacked a classmate with a knife. She also wrote on the internet about how she had thoughts about killing me and my mom. It has been over three years since that has happened and she has been normal after that. I see her almost every day and our family spends as much time with her as me and she is very happy and has friends and goes to school. She is 18 next year and has spent the last 3 years in and idk what the word is in english but in an other building with other mentally ill kids. My parents have always been supportive with her and never used drugs or alchohol or anything else bad and I myself have been good in school and I have a lot of friends and all.
She hasnt had another episode after that and she takes medication.
I just want to know that can her Mania come again? And should I be worried about it coming back?
Yk with all that thoughts about murder cause we have alot of sleepovers.


r/bipolar1 • • 2d ago

Success story/positive experience For those of y'all that mastered art of sleeping (as type 1).

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Is it worth it? And how much have you improved mood and cognitively. Was it worth it giving up your "free time". How hard do you have to fight to establish that. My told me I'm someone who needs to sleep 8-10 hours a night to function at 100%. Like dawg I don't think I've ever done that for more than a few nights since 16 (Currently 26)


r/bipolar1 • • 1d ago

Looking for advice. how do i stop scaring my boyfriend???

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the things i say when i am manic, whether it is hypomania or a full blown episode, scare him. i always feel extreme guilt and remorse and yet it keeps happening.

i am 18 and graduated from hs this past spring. ive been with him a year. i have only been recently diagnosed but now that i am i can trace these behaviors back a few years. it has only become extreme in the past 6 or so months, and more so in the past 3.

as much as i hate to say this i need him. yes, i want him, i love him dearly. but i also need him. i feel as if i am going through withdrawal when i am away from him (which, i am, because i live at home and my family no longer trusts me to be left to my own devices.). i am terrified i will push him away. he is so insanely forgiving that i often wonder if i am abusing him somehow. he has never once gotten mad at me. he has never been cruel. he has always been gentle and so patient that i sometimes snap because i just want him to argue with me, to tell me that i am insane. but he doesnt. one thing i do know is that i worry him to death.

im so sick of this disorder, i am sick of feeling out of control, i am sick of everybody treating me as if i am completely insane. i regret most decisions i have made in the past few years.


r/bipolar1 • • 2d ago

Looking for advice. Educational resources on mania?

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So you may have seen my previous posts. Anyway, I was wondering if anyone had any links to things that actually explain the criteria for mania? My friends hear of me doing one (1) thing that might not be advised and instantly are like you're manic. Apart from the fact that that simply isn't true, it also makes me less likely to be willing to consider it even if it actually was the case.

I feel like everything I've found just says the same things and using the same examples, but really what I'm looking for is something that breaks down each criterion, provides examples of what are and aren't mania, and especially clarifies what the severity might look like to separate it from just someone who is doing very well and stably, and someone who is actually some flavour of manic.

Anything that also provides tips and information around identifying a manic episode in oneself would also be appreciated.

I'm just really new to all of this and I'm lost as to where to find that kind of resource.


r/bipolar1 • • 2d ago

Mania, Depression, and Marriage

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this is my first time posting in a group like this, and i don’t really know how to feel about it. i’m fighting tears as i type this, so i don’t know if it’s going to be a long post or a short one.

my wife and i are in a very bad place, and she’s been blaming my mental health. saying she’s not sure which version of me she’s going to get in the morning, and is calling my ups and downs “manipulation” and “emotional abuse”. i genuinely don’t know how to explain to her how scary it is not knowing how i’ll wake up in the morning, or being afraid of feeling to happy, or not catching the depressive moments until it’s too late.

i just don’t want to feel alone anymore. you can give advice if you have it…just please don’t be mean. my heart literally can’t take it rn fr.

please. if you identify with it, let me know. i’m scared that i’ll be misunderstood for the rest of my life.


r/bipolar1 • • 2d ago

shook

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r/bipolar1 • • 2d ago

Looking for advice. My Support Group Laughs at Me

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Context: I (31M) was diagnosed with bipolar 1 in March. I've been bipolar since childhood and my doctor and I are still working out meds. I have depression under control-ish, but mania is harder to manage. I'm taking an atypical antipsychotic now, which I tried when I was diagnosed but my doctor and I stopped when I left mania, however, it was so new that now I'm realizing I need to go back on it and we're figuring that out.

Main Idea:

I had support group this week and felt uncomfortable for the first time. I love this group, but I have a lot of thoughts on our last meeting.

I am the only bipolar 1 person in our group. The group is for people with mood disorders so we mostly get various versions of depression and anxiety or bipolar 2. I've been trying to talk about my mania symptoms and they are quite extreme for this audience so they find it a bit entertaining. I don't mind and agree with them (at least I can laugh at myself because oh boy...), but still, I'm trying to express things that not only do not get (the prolonged mania), but find entertaining.

My baseline personality is more like a very social outgoing type. I'm funny and talkative, especially when manic. I admit I also think I'm hilarious. They didn't mean any malice by it but it just makes me feel both misunderstood and invalidated what I was saying. I absolutely am in an elevated mood. Which presents as very talkative, energetic, friendly, able to make everyone laugh, etc. And I am interesting when I'm manic. When I was sharing some things people were finding it entertaining, which I didn't hold back from, but I was still uncomfortable.

After unpacking the experience a bit I realized it just didn't make me feel heard and is effecting my connection with the group. I truly take no offensive in a serious way to how they were responding because I am aware of how I was acting. My friend agreed based on what I told him. It was because I was expressing myself in the wrong way, probably because I'm sort of manic at the moment. Which I don't like.

Mania is not fun for me it's exhausting. I feel like I have a cold at the moment because I have been doing so much. The reason being that there was a lot going on at my house this week and at work and life and i just started to get more and more energized.

Aside from them not taking me seriously there are a few other things that add to this feeling. I think the majority of that idea is the fact they don't understand the mania and I'm not sure what to do about it. Ignore it? Change how I talk about it? Explain what it means for me? I'd talk about the negative sides are too because everyone thinks it's just fun all the time.

Another reason I am uncomfortable is because there was one member that was being very obnoxious and laughing and calling me manic because frankly, I feel energized not manic. I am struggling a bit though because it is bad but doesnt cross the line where I can't control myself.

She's a bit special and has no social awareness. Regardless, I didn't like it. I felt like a joke. Again, I don't actually believe that I'm a joke, but I think to an extent it is being taken that way. This one member always talks over others. It's hard to express myself and because people see me as "happy" they are a little too entertained, they don't get what it can feel like...

Because they thought I was happy they were just letting me ramble on because it was engaging and funny. I wanted to talk about real issues, but I guess I put a positive spin on it because that's just who I am baseline. But I'm also a great talker baseline so again, not too dramatic.

Another reason this upsets me is because I've been considering talking about something I have been holding back for a long time. It's something I have a hard time sharing and I like this group a lot and I really do want to talk about this one thing, but people usually shy away from the conversation. It's not anything gross or like inhumane or anything extreme like that, it's just something that happened that just kind of changes things. I also have to avoid certain topics that I can talk about with other friends and groups because I can tell the group is not as privileged as myself (I'm not a millionaire or anything, but still I am thankful for my life). With this group, I feel that I cannot share too much about the opportunities I have had until I feel them out a bit more. The majority are significantly underprivileged compared to the average person, but it's also a very diverse spectrum. I also don't want to be a dick and I don't want them to think less of my struggles because I also do pick up a vibe that that is possible. Especially with the recent experience.

The thing that I think might make it okay to share more about myself and especially the thing I never got to talk about in therapy is because A) I do like them and they like me and it is a community . B) most of the group that is less privileged is very less privileged, but we are all equals and really get along. And C) I really want to talk about it and it will help me.

I'm realizing this is somewhat reflective of the fact that I wasn't diagnosed after decades of being bipolar, I mask well I guess. I've been thinking of taking some time to cool off before I get a reputation I don't want.

There's a lot here, but I want to know what y'all think I should do. How do I express mania better? Should I get over the laughing? What about avoiding this the future? Should I share more? Should I take a break?

PS I am also having trouble with my 1-1 therapist, but that's a very different topic, but in short, he's a loser lol