I feel like sertraline isn’t entirely helping me. I still feel empty and shit (I’ve been for almost a year on this SSRI). This is so frustrating. And I’m before my period and if it’ll pass once it finishes, it’ll feel so invalidating. I hate having hashimotos, being a woman, and having chemical imbalance. I wish i felt okay and happy with everything. But ive gone down the rabbit hole and i don’t even see the point in waking up. But i still do. I do it for my parents. IF i had a choice i wouldn’t like to be here. It saddens me but also frustrates. I’m just tired. Yeah i sleep 8 hours everyday and i try to take care of myself and i meet up with friends and i try new things every time but it all feels pointless and depressing. This system and life isn’t for me, but I’m still pushing through and trying to make my mom happy. Wish i never had this brain wish i was neurotypical and healthy. Sertraline feels like a bitch. I’m always empty at the end of the day. And it’s not like everything around me is devastating or making me crash out (anymore, maybe that’s a good sign), but it just makes me feel truly nothing. I feel like complete shit. I don’t hate anything. But i also don’t love anything. I feel like a ghost or just— idk, a walking bag of meat. You know? It’s just sooo frustrating. Does anyone know why this happens actually? When you do everything right but at the end of the day you’re still your fucked up you.