My ex-girlfriend was always extremely worried that my drinking habits might eventually kill me.
Recently, she accidentally crossed paths with a psychic who suddenly started speaking to her without being told anything. The psychic said she sensed deep pain in her heart and advised her to stop contacting her ex-boyfriend (me).
She also said I might die years from now, but it wouldn’t be my ex’s problem because we wouldn’t be together anymore. She never mentioned suicide or a specific cause of death.

My question: Could the psychic have somehow picked up on my ex-girlfriend’s deep fear that I might die one day and reflected it as a prediction? Or can psychics genuinely predict someone’s death without meeting them?

Update ! 🚨🚨. My ex-girlfriend contacted the person again and admitted she might have misunderstood the original prediction.
This person, who doesn’t do psychic readings professionally, now says, “We can never know what can happen in the future” and “He will not die bc you making a choice to break free.”
She also calls me narcissistic and manipulative despite never meeting me.
I’ve never had suicidal thoughts and love life.
What do you think?

Right, the above! Basically, where are the ethical lines for uncovering the "past"?Do psychics go on archaeological digs and it's just not talked about? Or, is it just such an academic process that anyone who is organizing an archaeological dig wouldn't consider the merits of asking a psychic to be there? Just seems like if you had a bunch of people who wanted to dig up ancient statues, or go into an Egyptian pyramid, I'd want someone who could understand energy to say whether or not that's a good idea and how to proceed or go home and respect what's there.

I don't have a good sense of who and where psychic abilities are respected in "high" places. Like also, government. Do people in power seek out the advice of psychics regularly? (and do they listen..) Or do they not recognize that as valuable?

as the title states, i've never been more overcome with the desire to move abroad and chase a different dream than i had originally planned.

so, i'm beginning the second quarter of my first semester of college and live minutes away from campus, i don't mind that, but i have always wanted to live farther than my hometown, states away, maybe countries. my first pursuit is to become a journalist and help those who have gone unheard, raise awareness regarding issues of the world, and to redirect the closemindedness we live in towards objectivitiy.

but i feel that, on a deeper level, i truly wish for appreciation and connection, to be viewed and even adored. when i was a little girl, like most little girls honestly, i wanted to be a star, and i feel as if i still want to be a woman who is remembered for her ability to change and adapt. oddly enough, i want to pursue acting, despite having no former interest in being a member of my high school's theatre program (which was a very big program).

EDIT: i forgot, i mentioned beauty in the title so i'll talk about my current struggles with self-image. since losing a fair amount of weight, gaining it back, and now back to losing weight (about halfway to my goal), i've experienced the good and bad that comes with appearance. i don't want to get into it, i know the good and bad and i've known it for all my life. anyway, now that i'd say i'm conventionally attractive, i just want to be able to embrace myself. i look amazing, i've been working out for months, i've been called 'gorgeous,' 'beautiful,' 'pretty,' 'cute,' everything, and it's fine, i care more about what i think, mostly. my sister told me i should try modeling, to at least give it a shot since i'm good with makeup and it's made me think more about my potential image. i just deleted instagram because i fucking hate the algorithm and everything to do with it, but it was also a fair share of me just staring at my own page and thinking "damn, i look good!"

is modeling a worthwhile pursuit if i've never been scouted? that counts as a question and i've only tagged the post with insight, but maybe i just need an outlook on how i can become more of an image or so, or if it's worth the pursuit.

like most people my age, i'd love to move to NY or LA, any big city where the noise is louder than my own thoughts. the place i live currently is fine, really, i love my room, it's a reflection of myself, but it's the only comfortable space i have where i feel as though i belong. truly, i would love to live in an apartment and be my own person, i feel like i've been surrounded so closely by my family that i'll just disentigrate.

this sounds like a non-issue, it feels huge for me because i, most often, stick to my decisions. i feel like i'm more indepentent than i'm given the chance to be, and i want to be more than the person i feel the people i'm surrounded by are allowing me to become. if that makes sense. i'm eighteen, but i feel like there is a constant weight on my shoulders that has to do with a past life or something of the sort, i also feel as though i have been destined for more than the life i have now.

financially, i have little-to-no prospects. i'm currently saving up to be able to attend driving-school and i've never had a job, this makes it feel like the life i want to live is impossible sometimes, but i am so determined that i know i have to do something in order for there to be change.

(i feel like i should add that i've gone through a very rough patch with personal connections, i've dealt with a lover's death, recently grieved friendships broken due to animosity, and have almost no emotional conversations with my family)

i'm hoping this is something any psychic can help me understand. i can provide photos of myself if necessary, other subreddits have told me i appear two-faced and deceitful, also.

thank you.

Whenever I’ve experienced seeing auras around living beings, they are a blue-white glowing color.

I also see black specks, like buzzing flies, within the aura. I don’t get any negative feelings from the “flies”, they feel like neutral information about energy.

Both the “flies” and blue-white glow vary in intensity with each being. In their size, density, and movement.

I’ve not seen auras of different colors, but I’ve (rarely) had intuition of what color the aura should be.

What do you think this means?

May love and connection continue to rule the universe. May we continue to reject the energy of pain and suffering that other forces wish to utilize. May we continue to find the truth and power through the unbreakable force of love.

Hi!

Can someone please help me to interpret these tarot cards, along with the signs I have received from the universe lately?

I tried to do a reading on myself for the first time. I have gotten The Tower, High Priestess and Death. It is a bit concerning due to the previous signs that I have received as well. A month ago I used to see owl signs, everyday, for like two weeks. The Owl symbolizes death, changes and/or intuition. And right before that I had a dream that I was psychic medium and that I was giving myself a reading. In the dream I told myself that everything will be alright and that I will heal my traumas, but then I had a super strong feeling that I was going to get hit by a car. I didn't tell myself that though because I thought it was too scary.

It feels like a recurring pattern and I don't know how to interpret any of this. Like I am going to die or what lo

I have gone to a few psychics now and multiple times I’ve been told I have a bad relationship with my dad but that’s not true. We share a birthday and I call him all the time. We are actually very close, especially for a father and daughter. I’m just curious if anyone has any other interpretations of what these readings could mean? Or are they scams and just assume because I’m a girl I have a bad relationship with my dad? Thanks!

Just woke up with tears streaming down my face..

Last night, I had an incredibly intense and emotional dream about a guy I used to be friends with in middle school. We weren’t extremely close, but we spent quite a bit of time together. He passed away from an overdose in 2014 just 20 years old.

I was already in the middle of a completely different dream, talking to two other people, when he suddenly appeared out of nowhere.
He grabbed me and pulled me away from the conversation, as if he urgently needed to speak to me alone. At first, he seemed irritated that I was talking to those two people, almost as if I should have known how stupid they were.
He seemed desperate, frustrated, and in a hurry. He was trying so hard to make me understand something.
As we walked together, I kept looking at his face. He looked exactly how I remembered him from when we were younger, except he had strange brownish, dark discolorations on his skin.
He showed me an old button phone, explaining that he had borrowed it from someone. He was trying to show me something on it, but the battery was completely dead.
He kept talking incredibly fast, desperately trying to explain something, but I couldn’t understand what he was saying.
The strangest and most heartbreaking part was that I knew he was dead, but he didn’t seem to know it himself.
I was surprised to see him, and throughout the entire encounter, I was aware that he had passed away. I wanted to tell him, but I never got the chance.
I could feel that our time was running out. He was desperately trying to make me understand something, and I was desperately trying to understand him.
Then, before either of us could get through to the other, I woke up.
Tears were streaming down my face.
I felt overwhelming sadness for him, but also frustration and helplessness because I hadn’t been able to understand what he was trying to tell me or explain to him that he was dead.
It’s been 12 years since he passed away, and he wasn’t even someone I was extremely close to, which makes the dream feel even more unexpected.
I can’t stop thinking about it.
Part of me is afraid that he hasn’t found peace, and another part of me desperately wants to know what he was trying to tell me.
I want to find him again in my dreams. I want to be open to seeing him again, because it feels like our conversation was left unfinished.

Hi psychic community! I'm new to all this spiritual stuff here. I (22f) went to a psychic today. Paid for a one hour session in NYC. I had a bad breakup (that's still not completely a breakup) this past week with my bf (24m) of 1 year whom I really like. This past week has just been super confusing and overwhelming and I was looking for some spiritual clarity/guidance on my future. Lowkey my dream has always been to get married and have kids so I'm rlly looking for someone to do that with, and I want to know if my current bf (potentially ex bf) is that person.

Anyways, he spent about 10 min doing an overview with the deck of cards and then immediately suggested pretty soon into the session that I seriously need spiritual cleansing. He harped on it for a while and sort of strayed from the reading to sales-pitch it to me for the rest of the session. I told him I'd sleep on it overnight. He quoted me somewhere between $430-600.

I'm trying to be open-minded and have been religious in the past so I was pretty hooked during the session but of course I'm now wondering if he's scamming me and that maybe I don't need a spiritual cleanse, but that he's preying on the fact that I'm a young woman in an emotional state of mind with money I'm willing to spend.

I guess my question is whether I'm right to be wary and cautious and if he is trying to scam me, or if spiritual cleansing is actually something I may need. He said some dark energy was absorbed by me when my parents divorced and the reason why my third eye is closed and I'm attracting bad relationships is because of it. He thinks I will continue to have bad relationships romantically and friendship-wise for the rest of my life if I don't get cleansed now. Thoughts on the above?

I a very scientifically oriented person, I even went to a psychologist long ago for this and it didn't help at all. I also am usually blessed with the ability to easily move on from things. But this incident that happened is like an itch that won't go away.

Even after years I still get dreams about it, heck I've gone long spans of time without thinking about it. However whenever I feel like I am about to move on I get the same dream that always feels like it is saying dont you dare forget, you need to figure this out.

All I will say is it involved my then fiancee doing something that not even her parents who she was very close to could believe, and ghosting me after 7 years together with no signs of relationship troubles. I know I sound crazy but right up until the day of the incident everything was normal and I was very good at picking up when something was wrong with her. Like she would attempt surprise parties for my birthday and graduation and I would always be able to pick up on it. I equate this incident to a shark attack in the desert. I most certainly do not miss her infact I would say I loathe her for what she did and moved on with my life. But no matter how hard I try it is as if a part of me is saying there is something I am missing that is critical. Logically I know i feel like whatever it is won't bring me any piece, but the itch that it is and it's something I need to know is stronger than ever. My friend suggested someone who is a psychic and I fear I have exhausted all other options but this. Is this something a psychic could help with?

If anyone might have a sense where I lost my mom’s gold high school signet ring with a Pegasus engraved on it, I would so grateful for any leads. I’m heading to a wedding venue where I think it may have fallen off. Thanks in advance to this amazing community

I recently had been hearing some strange sound before fall asleep or before awake. One time I heard this random male voice saying in a very funny tone right next to my head, “ba ba ba, smogus pollu” (I’m like..????? Wth is this). Another time right before I wake up, I hear this extremely loud water splash / electronic or computer fan noise coming from a corner of the room. It was so alarmingly loud to the point I forced myself to wake up in case something really happened (and yes, nothing happened and the sound was just in my head).

So I guess my question is are there any consensus among psychic folks on these hypnogogic state? Could it be possible that I tuned in to some random things during that state, or are they just pure hallucinations?

How does one go about developing psychic abilities, does anyone recommend books to read up on which can help you to develop them?

I’ve never felt so connected with someone who is so spiritual… it felt like they were a soul mate. I never would say that about someone. I never have felt that. But they get so stuck in consciousness that they sabotage my life and hurt me. I am truly confused by them in these moments and get stuck in my head and hurt my life. They are very powerful in their own way and just so special to me… but they hurt me for sport. I am truly confused. I get this is my “ego” talking as he would say right now as he uses this word a lot after I said this to him recently… but I do feel things. I have a severe illness that people have a hard time noticing due to my ability to maintain high frequency most times… I hide in spirit like it hides with doctors or how I hide my symptom to others by not looking sick to most… but it’s so flipping hard. I feel because I’m not a superhero. I need to feel to keep trucking along to heal this. But I need hope that the world isn’t going to like… be terrible too? I need to know that my efforts are worth it. They make me feel like that isn’t true. This hurts me. They are very strong spiritually and know much but no one can ever quite know me deeply… no one. And that’s lonely to have… but what’s worse is that I’ve invested so much of myself into this person when energy is the thing in short supply… I don’t make cortisol. I have a lot of things that threaten that. He isn’t seeing the danger he causes… but he doesn’t want to either. I’m quite hurt and confused by spirit right now. I’m so confused by what to do to protect myself. Does anyone else feel scared if they share such a beautiful thing with someone? I feel so scared to ever share spirituality with someone but feel like I’d be missing something if I didn’t either… but if we do, I feel so much pain if they use that against me in a way that confuses me. If I say it’s unhealthy and wrong but try to fight for this, I’m seen as the only problem… it’s all absolute — no partiality.

Any ideas on how one gets through this? Sorry if this doesn’t make sense. Gosh. I’m hurt by this tbh. Spirit is all I was confident in. This takes the cake for me if what he says is real. I need to believe in spirit that it is good and that my intuition was right for him but now… it’s so confusing — I don’t understand what the heck is happening right now. I’m so confused. That is dangerous for me. How do others deal with things like this? Any advice?

I talked to my friend who are not a psychic, but deeply spiritual and she has a psychic friend with talents and this friend has helped many people and thought her a lot. She said that whenever a psychic is giving a specific age or time for when a event will occur the person is either a fraud or not in line with God/spirit etc. She said the reason being that knowing a timeline can change the event and make it not happen, and also that if it doesn’t happen at a certain time or age the querent will be deeply disappointed and lose hope which will also stop the event from happening.
Curious to know about your take on this?

Hello everyone, I just joined Reddit because I needed some ideas on how to help with what happened. I was at a party with some friends and I socialized a bit and circled around then came back, there was a bench with a mirror behind it not a large one but a body length rectangular one. When I sat down and I mean as soon as I sat down the mirror shattered. I’m not very superstitious but while going home my friend tripped and got a badly sprained ankle and now I’m nervous. I’m trying to look for logical explanations like pressure changes, temperature changes, or bass subwoofer speakers frequencies breaking it? It just doesn’t sit right with me that it shattered right as I sat down in front of it. Is there anything I can do to help combat this? I also can’t go back and get the mirror because it was at a random party.

I recently had two separate experiences with really well reviewed psychics, but did not love my experience. I felt that the things they both said to me weren’t very relevant (one really honed in on a father wound, and my relationship with my father is fine, the other I asked about guidance for mental health, but they only talked about my career). The other one spoke very condescendingly and seemed just very fake and over the top. She was shaking and rolling her body around and rolling her eyes back when receiving messages. Is this normal?

We lost my Dad to suicide almost four months ago.
It came completely out of the blue - no outward depression, just a happy and carefree man gone from the world… just like that.
Anyway, it’s been very traumatic and so much to process. My Mum and my sister have both been receiving signs from him. Both seeing the same species of birds who visit their homes everyday. And he visits them in their dreams.
I’ve only had one dream and don’t get any signs from him… I’m very open to receiving anything from him and welcome it. But I’m still not seeing him anywhere. I’m starting to feel like maybe I didn’t mean as much to him as he’s not visiting me… or maybe he’s cross with me… I don’t really know.
I guess I’m asking - is there anything I can do to be more open to seeing his signs? Or does anyone know why he’s not reaching out to me?
Thank you all, I appreciate any help/guidance you can provide x

Hey, so idk if i’m posting this in the right community but i’ve just noticed a very weird pattern in my dad’s part of the family and im sort of worried now. You guys can call me crazy, that’s okay! Basically, my dad has his dad (my grandpa), and his sister. My grandma (his mom) passed away when i was very young, a heart issue. My aunt’s ex-husband died from a stroke. My mom passed away recently from cancer. Isn’t this rlly damn weird? This is the first time i’ve thought of it rlly and im pissed off. Any opinions? Or maybe ways to get rid of it 🥹 anything would be helpful, even telling me I’m overreacting.

A friend of mine that I met a few years ago always told me I'm psychic whenever I would accurately guess something or know exactly what she was thinking. I always thought it was because we were similar people so we thought the same and it was easy to understand her. Recently after I ended things with my boyfriend, I felt like my "psychic abilities" had gotten stronger. I went apartment hunting, but had only heard from one place so I took a tour of a few places in that community and fell in love with the apartment I currently live in now. I remember telling my mom, "I'm not rushing into the place. It felt right. And if my gut ends up being wrong, then so be it. I won't know if something is a mistake until I make it."

I've now lived in my apartment for over a year and absolutely love it here, but I desperately wanted a cat. I had been looking to adopt, but the same day I told my family I was looking for a cat, my sister's coworker posted about a stray in her neighborhood that needed a home. We set up a meeting and I met the little guy. It was like fate had dropped him into my lap like it had for my apartment.

Wiley has been with me for six months now, and is the smartest and best cat I've ever had. We truly are a match made in heaven. Although, I believe I'd be able to match with just about any cat.

So, recently my friend and I went to a witchy shop in town about a few weekends ago. I had never been in one, but she had visited this place a few times and wanted me to see it. I've never been into crystals or tarot, but as we were perusing, I felt inclined to get a crystal. They also had mystery tarot card bookmarks that said on the envelope to pick one that speaks to you and use it or place it where you'd see it every day. One specific envelope "called" to me so I picked it up and carried it around with me.

I stood at the crystal area for like a half hour, overthinking everything. Reading every card and what they're good for and started to feel overwhelmed. So, I stopped and thought, "I should let one choose me instead." So, that's what I did. I found a skull made out of hematite that I really liked because I do love a skeleton. But I also found a crystal that I cannot remember the name of to save my life. Something agate, maybe? It was smoothe. The colors in it looked like a magenta and sort of grey purple swirled together. Not every crystal in the pile looked like that though. I picked it up and liked that it was sort of triangular shaped, but rounded. When I held it in my right hand, I rested it on my index finger and it had a divot on the top part perfect for my thumb to rest on. It seemed to fit me perfectly. So, I got it along with the hematite skull and mystery tarot card.

Inside was Justice and when I pulled it out of the envelope, it was facing me right side up. I don't know much about tarot, but I do know that its meanings change depending on the way the card faces. I left the card on my ottoman next to my couch, I placed the skull on top of my bookshelf next to a small wooden supportive quote my mom got for me when I moved in here, and I had my little agate friend on my windowsill next to my bed.

Unfortunately, my agate friend has gone missing. I looked everywhere for it and can't seem to remember if I misplaced it somewhere or fell asleep holding it. I know it's at home somewhere and I'll find it eventually, but ever since it went missing, I swear my "psychic abilities" have gotten stronger.

I've become really good friends with this guy at my second job. I just started there recently so I haven't known him very long, but I find him very easy to read. I can accurate guess a lot of things about him or can almost know what he's thinking. He likes to vocal stim and sing licks of random songs at random times. A song popped into my head and I thought, "That's an odd one. Why did I think of that?" and mere seconds after I had that thought, he started to sing that exact song and the exact part I had just thought.

His sister was due to have a baby and had gone into labor earlier this week. I don't know anything about her other than she was pregnant. Periodically throughout the day, I kept thinking about her. So, I'd text him and ask if she was okay. He was at work and was waiting to hear from his mom if the baby had been born yet.

A day later, I kept thinking about her, so I asked again saying, "I think your sister had her baby, but can you make sure she's okay?" followed by, "Was she having a girl?" He responded that yes she was having a girl and that she had her baby, but she had apparently almost bled to death. Next day, she still was in my head, but before I could ask him about her, I fell asleep. I woke up a few hours later with a text from him saying his sister was in the ICU with kidney failure. --She is okay now and so is her baby.

I had told my mom this week about everything and that I know I sound a little crazy to believe I have these abilities. I had a girl's day out with her and my sister yesterday and were looking at blind boxes to buy. As a test, I asked them which one they wanted. I held their boxes and images of the characters on the boxes flashed in my head. I told my sister which one she had and told my mom which one she had, and the one I held in my hands. My sister was content with the character I had said was inside for her while my mom was upset with hers. I asked which one she wanted so I picked up each box until I had a good feeling about one and handed it to her saying, "I guess we will see if my psychic abilities are true."

When we left the store, and had gotten outside, we all opened our boxes and surely enough, I had accurately guess each character we chose. My mom was completely baffled now more convinced about these abilities I'm claiming to have.

Which makes me wonder now, am I actually psychic or just good at guessing or good at reading people? Is everything just a coincidence? If I am psychic, how do I strengthen the abilities? Because I don't remember the name of the crystal I lost, I can't look it up and see if one of its properties was strengthening psychic abilities. I know some crystals do that. Is it normal for crystals to just go missing sometimes? I'm pretty convinced now there's something going on with me, but I don't want to sound crazy.

I know this post is so long winded, but any expert in this thread that can help a sister out, I'd be grateful. I was hoping the recent incidents could provide enough evidence to help assist in understanding my situation better. Thank you for taking the time to read this and potentially giving me more clarity from here.

Since i started doing future telling or connecting with people from the after life.
I am not connecting with them intently they are coming for me.
And seeing things from the big source i call it the laboratory of god where you can see lives of other people like you are reading it
Like first view of human life.
Like you are the experiencer but thats not you.

I hear now even when i don’t want a guiding spirit.
I don’t know if it is good or bad even tho i don’t have moral codes to beings but you know what i mean.
Those guidance are more like
You should do or you shouldn’t
Or show me piece of the upcoming future in more few minutes or hours and this is actually happens.
And I’m not used to it at all .
Suddenly everyday is a spiritual practice .
I need to keep my energy safe
My thoughts
My awareness only tied to my presence
Every prayer needs to go for a direct “being” i cant just say anything .

My reading help to over 30+ people
Im doing telepathic and tarot and palm reading .
And thats even scared me
Why i know so much about someone else that came from a different country
Never saw any faces but know a full lives of people.

My question is for psychic or medium here
Do you feel the same ?
Do you hear voices that guide you personally even when you don’t want to ask anything ?

I would like to listen to you
Stay safe beautiful souls (:

Hi! This might be a random question, but I’ve been getting images of a family member in my mind, and today a video about readings popped up.

It got me wondering about experiences with psychic readings or spiritual guides. I guess I’m just looking for some answers, or wondering if there’s a possibility that someone is trying to reach out to me.

I’m not really sure how any of it works or how to go about finding someone to do a reading, so I thought I’d ask you all about your experience. 🥹

Hello I’m a 20 year old girl who has known this one guy for almost 7 years now. We haven’t talked since May of 2026 but we always find our way back to each other. There’s a lot of history from us being arrested together to us being in love with each other, there’s a lot to unpack there. We used to go on a lot of drives and listen to music or have super deep conversations in different places around south Orange County. About 2 years ago this spot that we used to go to all the time caught on fire and it was a pretty bad fire. The exact spots that we went to were caught on video burning up in flames. Now yesterday one of the same spots that we used to go to also is currently on fire. Is this a sign? Also I’d like to note that both of the places actually still stand. The spot that just caught on fire, a flag pole and the bench we sat at are still standing and did not burn whatsoever. And the other spot that burned 2 years ago is still standing and the nature around it grew back. For more context, we had a complicated relationship from him being my first time, to our parents hating us, and our friends hating us for being associated with each other, etc. I’m just so curious like could this be a sign or does it have a deeper meaning? I still love and care about him I’m not sure if he feels the same but we had a great run and I’m not ready to let it go completely but if this is my sign to let it go then I will. Let me know what you guys think.

Looking for guidance from r/psychic here....as the title says, I'm living with a parent, who is very Catholic.

I run a business giving psychic readings. I have tarot & oracle cards that I use rarely because I mostly channel as a medium/empath.

But recently she told me that what I do is "sinful" because in her eyes tarot cards open portals (she fixates on cards & is terrified of them-- something she has never had an issue with prior. I haven't touched mine in months also????), and she claims that she was blind & ignorant to my practice, and now, she tells me that I need to let go of my business (which has been my sole income & a lucrative business for half a decade!!!!!), stop doing EVERYTHING spiritual I believe in, as long as I'm in her house, and I need to get a "real job" and move out.

Well, I did get a different job at her request which I'm starting next week.

The pay is not good, though. My business is lucrative when I'm not in a depressive episode (I have been for several months after losing my canine friend/service dog, another thing she's banned me from having ever again in her home), and she's basically telling me to cut away 75% of who I am in order to appease her fears.

Just yesterday I set a boundary with her about her mistreatment of her own dog (largely treating him as a lap pet & not actually caring for his wellness, fitness, or mental health, as now he's going after my cats out of boredom/frustration who don't defend themselves bc they're very gentle), and she went off at me telling me that if I keep bothering her and pointing out things she's allowing that are upsetting to me, she's gonna kick me out or why don't I just move out?!

I told her that I am basically broke because she will not even allow me to practice my own beliefs nor run my own business here which I've put enormous amounts of work into the last several years. Like after this depressive episode I have maybe $300 left and my credit cards are maxed out from life expenses. I feel powerless lately. And she's a huge bully who plays games with my mind.

I'm just looking for encouragement for what I do again because I can do readings on my days off from the new job, and my heart hurts because I just ghosted 100k~ social media followers and I can't tell the truth to them about what's going on and why I feel ashamed of showing up bc every time I acknowledge what she's going I feel angry, overwhelmed, upset, depressed, and I just want to scream and cry.

Basically, she's been eroding my confidence and her behavior is very narcissist. I want to get out of here ASAP but she does everything she can to convince me that I'm evil even though I talk about God with my clients a lot :/

Any support or advice? I feel horrible and like I put down my inner confidence & powerful self. I feel like shit, tbh.

I've even considered starting a gofundme to help me get out. Because when she comes back from work I quite literally feel blind rage and I start trembling and wanting to scream at her. I am not the type of person to behave this way. I need advice, or help, I don't know what to do yet :/

And every time I show up and make posts on social media, I've already blocked her (that's another problem that's been huge, hence why I disallowed her to view my content bc she fixates on it, takes it out of context, and then attacks me with what she sees), but she made new accounts, stalks me, reads one line and then uses it to attack me and tells me I'm doing devilish things even though the explanation for the content she's nitpicking is in the video 🤦‍♀️

Sorry, I wish this person didn't bother me at all. But I'm so frustrated & I feel like I'm eroding mentally recently.

edit: this is exactly the same person who has dug through garbage cans for "evidence" and also used to put dish soap in her ex husband's bottles of alcohol to force him to quit drinking when he didn't listen to her. she's sneaky, manipulative, and also has no problem crossing boundaries loud and clear to get HER way no matter what. the way my mental health has crumbled since she began gaslighting me essentially with a preschool-level education with me representing a college professor is wild to me. like, she does anything she can to exert authority and control over others, even going so far as the other day to apologize to me for NOT judging my work sooner 🙄 She's a fake fucking Christian and I say this knowing Jesus deeply. literally her apologies are always "I SO DEEPLY apologize, I didn't know I should have judged you WAY harder than I did! and now that I'm judging you way more, I feel better now:)"

Gah I fucking hate this woman's behavior honestly!!! she's fkn evil as fuck dude 😭