When I was a kid I was raped by my older step sister. I told my therapist and she told me that I was raped, tbh I never saw it that way. I always thought that we were just having sex, but how can a kid consent? I never wanted to have sex with her, I didn’t even know what sex was, my first orgasm I was confused. It felt good but it didn’t. She would continue to rape me and only one time did I want it. Long story short, it feels liberating to know what happened to me wasn’t sex, sex is supposed to be enjoyable and it never was, it was always awkward and scary. Idk where I’m going with this, I just wanted to get it off my chest, you know most boys going through puberty would think having sex with their older step sister is awesome, but it was anything but.

Since being sexually abused and being completely disrespected, I've been getting horny for worse and more degrading things.

I never used to want to be sexually abused but ever since, I'm open to the idea.

I think many people have the same thing happen to them, but I have always been prideful of myself until that kinda happened.