Are the ST lots near campus view usually available?

Hi, i am a freshman at IU rn and so far, ive been having a pretty lonely experience. For starters, I used to live in Eigenmann and my floor was very dead and i didn’t get along with my roommate at all so it was pretty hard to make friends on my floor. Then I was invited on the top floor at Eigenmann and I had fun hanging out here and there but I felt like nobody genuinely cared about me and just used me for laughs and jokes so I just stopped going there. Because of that, my self confidence has been shattered and the more I lived in Eigenmann, the more I hated it so I decided to move to a single in Briscoe. I like it a lot more than Eigenmann but it feels like everybody has formed their groups and my floor is pretty quiet too. I don’t know what to do man, I feel like no matter who I go to or what I do, I always feel like everybody is going to make fun of me or won’t care about me. Back then, I’d say I’m a pretty outgoing guy that wants to do things but now I just can’t because I have no friends. I’ve been rejected so much that I’m just scared to even try anymore. What do I even do cause I just feel scared trying to talk to other people