r/Fish • u/NightingaleEra • 11h ago
Fish Appreciation! Final survivor of the original group has passed
Red one pictured passed about an hour ago.
Back in the 2022, my GF at the time (now ex) brought home these 5 without telling me. Which is fine but she had no idea how to take care of them. So i stepped in and bought all the necessary care.
after the split 2 years later, i agreed to take them.
My love for them was like a rose that i shouldn’t have picked. i gave them a new tank, a new filter, new plants, more friends. i know now that the harder i tried, the more it would downfall. i do tend to be hard on myself because i believe they should’ve lived longer than that. nitrates were always high. and what i learned was the more energy i spent trying to get parameters adjusted, the more i was stripping the good biology out of the tank. anytime one would pass, i’d try to get them new friends to replace but they were always so aggressive and mean. even chasing the blue one out of the tank overnight and killing him.
It’s true, i do feel relief that it’s finally over. sounds very silly but i think now i can finally move on. they were also constant reminders of my past and my losses. very heavy stuff on my mind.
the only thing that is giving me comfort right now is wondering if they knew i was their fishy dad.
sure, they are instinctive. they know i will feed them and give them a routine. but i hope somewhere deep in their lil fishy brains they knew i was there to take care of them. to try and give them their best life. a life that i really had no choice in the beginning but i took care of it anyway. anytime i would feed them or they would get sick, i’d always talk to them. I’m sorry i couldn’t give you a longer life fishy. but i tried. i love you very much.