r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 13h ago

relapsed after 252 days binge free ✌️

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I had 8 months. maybe the longest I ever had. I mean I did have a few near relapses during those 8 months but never gave in. until today.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 4h ago

How to be okay again with hunger, and not binge.

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Any advice on how to be okay with hunger and it not lead to a massive binge.

I pack my lunch the night before. I make some sort of salad with kumara, buckwheat, chickpeas, whatever greens we have and a protein source (meat based). I take two pieces of fruit, a protein or muesli bar and maybe some almonds and dates too. To me, this seems like a good amount of food and usually it is. I get a bit hungry, I try to be present with my body and what I’m feeling. If it doesn’t pass after sitting with it and having some water than I let myself eat. By late afternoon I am usually quite hungry especially on the way home. And this is when the binge thoughts start and I think about all the food I will eat when I get home. Like I’m hungry but it’s fine, I know in my head that dinner isn’t far away. So I wait it out, I have dinner. I do my bed time routine but that thought it still in my head. Binge binge binge. It just doesn’t leave. As soon as it starts the only thing to make it stop is to binge.

And I do binge. Then I restart the next day, I don’t compensate. I eat the same things (and a nutritious breakfast) and go to the gym most mornings.

I just don’t understand. I have relapsed several times and each time is different. But I am really really struggling to see the bigger picture and understand a root cause.

It feels like it’s the opposite of the advice you hear to listen to your body, be present, listen to the cues and feelings and not restricting. But I just can’t stop.

Do I need to really accept that I can’t be slim? I just won’t accept a life in a body I have never been happy in. I deserve that.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 6h ago

Keeps happening again and again and again i think its over for

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Yea im done with this shit im just ranting but im fucking i dont even know anymore like its just over sorry im ts just so done i dont even know how to recover any more no kore workouts or marathons will cover this or myself


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 8h ago

Discussion AOE

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Anyone else like getting all their snacks and food and laying in bed nd just how it looks layed out is it’s weird but it feels comforting plus having a show like it’s peak


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 11m ago

Advice Needed Seasonal relapse lol?

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Im laughing it off because i can’t understand how for 3 years in a row (how long ive been struggling with this ED) my summer goes perfect, like for the three months i rarely binge and if I do it just doesn’t bother me at all. Im thinking maybe the meds im prescribed are working etc and once studies start again im having the most horrible time of my life. Just this summer i binged once in each 2-3 weeks and now at least 2-3 times a week that school just started. Im mostly bored when on holiday cuz there is nothing to do, and that would explain if the case was the OPPOSITE, not when i barely have time to think.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 1d ago

Binge/Relapse 18 months binge free, lost 200 pounds, relapsed badly

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I’m 30F and went from 340 lbs to around 140 lbs. For about 18 months, I had incredible control over my eating. I tracked my calories, exercised consistently, and didn’t have a single unplanned eating episode.
Then, at the end of August, something changed. I had hormone testing done due to amenorrhea, and after doing a progesterone challenge; I started binge eating again and it feels like a switch flipped in my brain. I’ve gained nearly 30 lbs in about six weeks, and despite desperately wanting to stop, I keep doing it.
I binged again on Friday, and I’m feeling completely defeated. I’ve been having, on average, 2 binge days a week for the past 6 weeks. My binges are extreme. 15-20k calories.

I still lift weights and stay extremely active, sometimes 25-30k steps a day.
The scariest part is knowing exactly how hard I worked to lose almost 200 lbs and feeling like I’m watching all that progress slip away.
I’m terrified of returning to my old weight, but I’m equally exhausted by feeling like food controls my life.
Has anyone experienced binge eating after major weight loss? What actually helped you break the cycle? I could really use some support from people who understand.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 37m ago

Alright y'all, day 4 check in!!

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This is where i messed up last week!! I can't do that again we are getting to day 7!!

Its a boring day and sometimes those are harder.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 23h ago

Binge/Relapse lost 2 kgs , which means I'm gonna binge tomorrow and gain it all back in one day

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yayyyy


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 15h ago

I like bingeing

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I'm tired and grouchy and fed up and all i want to do is stick my face in a chocolate cake. So many articles say bingeing is distressing and laden with guilt, but I really enjoy it. But I need to not binge because it ruins my life in other ways.

I've mostly not binged since about April. I fell off the wagon a couple of times, but mostly I'm eating sensibly and have lost about 20lb. But I miss it so much.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 9h ago

Advice Needed How do i stop

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I was malnutritioned for about a year before I got help now I find myself binging everyday I've tried ever thing in the book, going on walks chewing gum, drinking drinks, going to sleep eat but I still find myself binging until I physically can't help. Please.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 2h ago

Strategies to Try Evening binges

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I (21M), have been in binge eating recovery for the past year now, I've done relatively well but it has been a story of constant ups and downs rather than steady progress.

For context, I got diagnosed late as an adult with combined type ADHD and had initially been prescribed methylphenidate then transferred over to elvanse/vyvanse, these are the only two main medications prescribed in the UK for ADHD, I'm currently on 60mg elvanse (1x a day), but I am still in titration.

Throughout the day I am completely fine and my mind is at rest, I do not struggle with food noise or binge eating, but when it comes to the evenings around 8pm, the elvanse wears off and I really struggle at times and relapse frequently.

I am wondering if anyone else has similar experience and their strategies to help?

(I am talking to my prescribed and GP about booster dexampethmine in the evenings)


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 9h ago

Discussion Did anyone else have a parent who was a feeder?

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I’m dealing with BED after having this for I’d say most of my 20s and I’m trying to stop now at 30. I don’t want to continue with this disorder but I’ve noticed now staying with my mom for a while she’s got a problem with understanding cues. She doesn’t understand when to stop shoveling food onto someone plate. She grocery shops for junk food a lot and she won’t eat it but she’ll offer it to me and keep it around the house.

There’s a feeding frenzy type thing where she’ll ask if that’s enough food when I’m taking food? You’ll be so hungry later she says and I’ve taken veggies, meat, and rice on the plate. You’ll be hungry take more. She is the root cause of me having BED. That and her being emotionally unavailable at all other times.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 9h ago

Discussion Did anyone else have a parent who was a feeder?

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I’m dealing with BED after having this for I’d say most of my 20s and I’m trying to stop now at 30. I don’t want to continue with this disorder but I’ve noticed now staying with my mom for a while she’s got a problem with understanding cues. She doesn’t understand when to stop shoveling food onto someone plate. She grocery shops for junk food a lot and she won’t eat it but she’ll offer it to me and keep it around the house.

There’s a feeding frenzy type thing where she’ll ask if that’s enough food when I’m taking food? You’ll be so hungry later she says and I’ve taken veggies, meat, and rice on the plate. You’ll be hungry take more. She is the root cause of me having BED. That and her being emotionally unavailable at all other times.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 16h ago

TW: Weight loss mentioned Weight loss journey fucked up my eating disorder even more, I am going to re-gain at this rate

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Throughout my life I had always suffered from frequent overeating and binge eating episodes. But since last year, I lost about 35 kg (now 71. kg) and most of it was from consuming too little amount of calories for several weeks, and then for about a month I started eating a normal amount of calories again (around 1500-1600) and it was perfect. But since July, for some reason I started experiencing binge episodes again, this time much more severe. They are becoming more and more frequent now and on top of that, I also started vomitting. I have read the horrible things that self induced p**ging does to your body but I can't stop. I don't want to be fatter and be looked down upon at again.

I am a med student I should be focused on my studies instead of this bullshittery, and I can't seek therapy currently. Please give me any advice or help

Edit: and mind you, its not like I'm restricting myself. I used to, but not anymore. Nowadays I can eat a very filling lunch/breakfast and still have an overwhelming urge to binge at night. Especially during the week before my period. It sucks so much.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 7h ago

I quit sugar

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r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 7h ago

Discussion Glp-1 vs Vyvanse

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I’ve been on a glp-1 for three years now and it genuinely nearly cured binge eating for me. I went off it for a month recently and the binging came right back.

Recently I’ve been thinking of trying vyvanse instead, and I’m curious if anyone has tried both? With my glp-1 I’m on the lowest dose I can be and I am losing hair/get side effects. I’m just super sensitive to the shot and my doctors don’t know why. I dread having to take it each week, but it’s beyond worth a sick day every week for freedom.

I was curious if vyvanse provides that same relief and could be an alternative?

Edit: I’ve tried every shot version of the glp-1s, wegovy made me feel depressed and zepbound is great but I get super ill each time and my doctors don’t know why. I’ve been on it for years and it never gets better. I’m also sick of having very little hair, I don’t know why I experience hair loss from this medication. But it’s more dreading the headache and nausea and body aches everyone I take my shot.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 15h ago

Day 3 checking in

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Im doing tight-rope walking again with binging. I am confident i will be Making it though today without a binge, but its been close all day.

The phrase that's been helping me today is "nothing chages if nothing changes". Thanks, Marjorie from the "mom" tv show.

update: i made it. instead of idly snacking on handles of cheese, raw cookie dough, sweet potato, then more popcorn until i hate myself, i ate a light bowl of soup and a glass of water and didn't feel hunger or the urge to binge! instead of eating an unfullfilling 500 calorie i ate a very satisfying 200 calories.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 17h ago

Trigger foods in house?

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Question for those who have made some success in their recovery:

In early recovery (or even later in recovery!) did you keep trigger foods out of the house?

Im at a point where I feel i need stricter boundaries for myself in this regard. Im considering being firm about not bringing certain things into the house, but enjoying them on the go or in reasonable portions outside of my home. (example: I will drink cream or half n half with cereal so I don’t want it here anymore, but would welcome a nice coffee with cream at a cafe…)

Hoping to bravely step forward with this boundary but also with a “non restrictive” mindset, if that makes sense… that balance is a spot I struggle with. (example: If I don’t have half n half or cream in house hopefully I will not place it on a super high pedestal and crave it all the time)


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 21h ago

Binge/Relapse binged today

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binged just now, but it wasn't that bad tbh. only about 1k calories worth of stuff, its just the out of control rush and high feeling it gives me that i love but hate at the same time.

id say its progress that i stopped now rather than continuing because i was able to reason with myself that if i continue binging, i won't get any work done today, i won't be able to enjoy playing tennis today, i won't be able to enjoy dying my hair today, and i want to keep a streak until at least halloween (4/18 days so far) so that i can enjoy dressing up without feeling guilty about a recent binge. also if i don't actually fully binge today, i can tell my therapist about this progress.

honestly i won't even reset my streak today (day 4) since it was rather small for a binge, i don't feel sick, and i don't feel crazy guilty, and if i just wait until dinner and eat dinner normally, i'll still be basically at maintenance.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 18h ago

What to do after a binge full of sugar?

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Hey guys! I’m a college freshman, and I just went to the all-you-can-eat dining hall and probably ate 150+ grams of sugar in one sitting. I feel like crap right now. It’s 1 p.m., and I have to study, but my stomach hurts so badly.

Since starting college, I’ve found myself binge eating every four days to once a week. It’s almost always on foods like brownies, ice cream, bagels, and cookies. I feel incredibly bloated, especially in my face and stomach, and I’m really struggling with how to stop this cycle.

Sometimes, after a meal, I don’t feel the need for a sweet treat, or I can stick to a small one. Other times, I'll eat a meal, grab dessert, still feel like I want more, eat an entire additional meal, and then go back for more dessert. It feels like I lose control once I start, and I end up feeling trapped.

It’s especially difficult on the weekends when I have less to do, and the food noise seems to take over. I really want to figure out how to break this cycle, quiet the constant thoughts about food, and stop feeling like I need so much sugar.

Does anyone have advice for dealing with binge eating, managing food noise, or feeling physically better after an episode? I feel like it’s inevitable that this will happen again, and I really want to find a way out of this cycle. I'd appreciate any advice or personal experiences. Thank you!


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 1d ago

Advice Needed I’m 16 and I feel like my relationship with food is taking over my life. I’m exhausted by the constant cycle of overeating, guilt, restriction and hating myself afterwards.

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I’m 16F, and I honestly don’t even know where to begin because my relationship with food has become so complicated that sometimes I struggle to understand my own behaviour.
I’ve been struggling with overeating, what I think might sometimes be binge eating, emotional eating, guilt around food, body image issues and an extremely all-or-nothing mindset.
I think one of the hardest parts is that I’m very self-aware of my behaviour. I can recognise the patterns, understand that they’re unhealthy and know what I should probably be doing differently, but actually changing them feels like a completely different story.
Sometimes I find myself eating when I’m not physically hungry. It might be because I’m bored, stressed, overwhelmed or simply because food is available.Other times, I genuinely don’t know why I’m eating.I can finish a meal, feel physically satisfied and still find myself going back for more food.Sometimes I’ll keep snacking even though I know I’m not hungry anymore.
It’s almost like there’s a disconnect between knowing I’m satisfied and actually being able to stop eating.Sometimes I feel like I’m eating automatically, without properly thinking about it. Other times I’m completely aware of what I’m doing, but I still struggle to stop.And that’s something I find incredibly frustrating.I don’t even know whether I can call it binge eating because I’m not always sure whether what I’m experiencing is a genuine loss of control or simply overeating.
I question myself constantly. Am I actually struggling with something, or am I just making excuses for my behaviour? Am I exaggerating how bad it is? Is this something other people experience too?
The all-or-nothing mentality
This is probably one of the biggest things I struggle with.
I have a tendency to see everything as either a success or a failure. There doesn’t seem to be much room for anything in between.
If I feel like I’ve eaten well throughout the day, I feel more in control and positive about myself.
But if I eat something I wasn’t planning to, or eat more than I intended, my mindset can completely change.
I start thinking that I’ve already ruined the day, so what’s the point in trying anymore?
Sometimes that leads to me eating even more because I’ve convinced myself that tomorrow will be a fresh start.
I constantly tell myself that tomorrow I’ll be different. Tomorrow I’ll have more discipline. Tomorrow I’ll finally get everything under control.
But then tomorrow comes, and eventually I find myself repeating the same patterns.
It’s exhausting constantly feeling like I’m starting over.
The guilt and negative self-talk
I think the emotional aftermath of overeating is sometimes worse than the overeating itself.
I feel disappointed, frustrated and angry with myself.
I start replaying what I’ve eaten throughout the day and questioning why I couldn’t have just stopped when I was satisfied.
Sometimes I feel like I’ve completely let myself down.
I know logically that eating more than intended doesn’t make me a failure, but emotionally it can feel that way.
It’s like my self-worth becomes connected to how well I’ve managed my eating that day.
And I hate that.
I hate how something as normal as eating can have such a significant impact on my mood and how I feel about myself.
Restriction and wanting to regain control
I’ve also struggled with restricting my food in the past.
When I feel particularly unhappy with my body or frustrated with my eating, I sometimes get the urge to become extremely strict with myself.
It’s almost like I believe that if I can just control my eating perfectly, everything else will somehow fall into place.
I start making plans, setting rules and convincing myself that this time things will be different.
But I think this constant desire to regain control is actually part of what’s keeping me stuck.
I go from feeling motivated and determined to feeling overwhelmed, disappointed and completely fed up.
I know restriction can contribute to overeating, but knowing that doesn’t automatically make the urge to restrict disappear.
My body image and self-esteem
My relationship with food is also closely connected to how I feel about my body.
I’ve struggled with low self-esteem and comparing myself to other people.
Sometimes I feel like I’m constantly focusing on what I want to change about myself rather than appreciating who I actually am.
I put so much pressure on myself to improve, whether that’s my appearance, habits, routine or general lifestyle.
I have this idea in my head of the person I want to become, and sometimes I feel like I’m failing because I’m not there yet.
I know my worth shouldn’t depend on my appearance or eating habits, but it’s difficult to separate those things emotionally.
Sometimes I wonder whether I’m actually trying to become healthier or whether I’m just desperately trying to feel better about myself.
Stress at home and emotional eating
There’s also been a lot happening in my family, particularly surrounding my younger sister’s eating disorder.
She’s been struggling for a long time, and the atmosphere at home can be incredibly stressful.
There’s tension, arguments, frustration and a lot of emotions.
I often feel like I’m constantly absorbing everything happening around me without having enough time or space to process my own feelings.
I don’t always express how overwhelmed I am. I tend to keep things inside and carry on as though everything is fine.
I wonder whether food has sometimes become a way of coping with emotions I don’t really know how to express.
Not necessarily because I’m consciously thinking that food will make me feel better, but because eating can become something automatic when I’m emotionally exhausted.
And then the guilt afterwards just adds another layer of stress.
It’s difficult because I’m struggling with my own relationship with food while also witnessing someone I love struggle with an eating disorder.
I’m only 16 going 17, and sometimes it makes me sad thinking about how much mental energy I’ve already spent worrying about food and my body.
Has anyone else experienced this constant cycle of overeating, guilt, restriction and starting over? How did you begin to break out of it? And how did you learn to separate your self-worth from your eating habits and body image?
I’d really appreciate hearing from people who understand what this feels like.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 16h ago

Can you immediately tell when somebody is Bulimic?

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r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 20h ago

Binge/Relapse crazy three days

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so i’ve been on my health journey for 5-6 months now and ive binged a few times over the course of these months. the binges were quite mild for my standards and ive always overcame them the next day and continued with my usual routine.

my last binge prior to this one was in september when one night i just lost control and binged on the cereal i had at home and two other upf’s i had in the cupboard. fast forward to october and i was craving chocolate more and more. (chocolate is my number one trigger food) and i actually started planning a “halloween binge” that i would do on the last day of october. i was too excited at the thought so three days ago i just got up and went to the store and bought a shit ton of chocolate along with chips and whatever else. i binged that night but it wasn’t as disastrous because i ate very well the whole day and got full quite fast.

the day after that i unexpectedly went on another binge bender and stuffed myself so hard guys i hadn’t binged like that in years. the day after that i was getting really anxious that i wont be able to stop. i said to myself ill binge for a final day and actually stop. so i binged again and even downloaded doordash when i promised myself i would never do that again (takeout is very triggering for me). i ordered three times over the course of the day - bubble tea, mexican, ice cream. i also gave up on my steps that day. i feel so disgusted with myself and just dont understand why i did that.

so today im going back to my usual routine and am making sure i don’t do that again. i just don’t understand why this suddenly happened. despite changing my lifestyle and finally getting to a place i always dreamed of, somehow the binging made its way in again. i’m not going on the scale because i already know im up like 10lb probably and 3lb+ of it is probably fat.

so yea i don’t really know what the point of this post is but im gonna leave it here for my records. i’m gonna reflect on this today but yea guys im feeling very weird it’s like something possessed me..

its probably gonna take the rest of this year to lose the fat from this and i feel very defeated but as long as it stops here, i think ill be okay.

recovering is truly a lifelong journey..


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 20h ago

Advice Needed Candy

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Does anybody binge on things like TicTac's?
I do that and I chew gum. The gum is sugarless, but TicTac's are not. How do I stop buying them?

We used to call this an oral fixation. I guess it's better than binging on cookies and muffins.


r/BingeEatingDisorder • • 19h ago

i need help

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Ive been binging for so long now and its all the same at first im ok and even dieting and cutting weight then one day im eating way too much for days on end i had my summer break and i binged so much i gained so much weight and i dont know what to do im so stressed and i cant stop can anyone genuinely help me stop binging please i really need a recovery plan. none of my clothes fit cause all i did over the summer holiday was eat and eat and eat im so mad whats my problem? i dont want to continue like this