Hi all! I wanted to put this out there for anyone experiencing anxiety, and has trouble finding relief.

Anxiety has had such a hold on my life in the past, and I know what it's like to not want to leave your house or see anyone- even in times of searching for relief. The racing heart, the tightness in your chest, the thoughts that just won't quiet down.

I am holding weekly group distance Reiki sessions as a way to make Reiki more accessible to everyone. While multiple people may participate in the same session, you’ll receive Reiki from the comfort of your own home, wherever you feel most comfortable.

My sessions are heart-centered and empathic, coming from a non-judgemental place. My goal is to hold space for you with accessible Reiki, to help you feel more connected in your body and mind. You do not need to be spiritual to receive Reiki, I just ask that you be open-minded and have trust- and that you want to do the healing work on yourself.

When you sign up for a group distance Reiki session with me, you will not be on a group video or phone call. You can simply relax in your own home, exactly how you want to with no pressure. I will send you a confirmation e-mail with details beforehand, an intuitive write-up for the group after, and Reiki aftercare.

You are invited to take 30 minutes for yourself to just be. My process is simple but wholeheartedly supportive: as a Reiki Master, I connect with Reiki so that it can be sent to you wherever you are. You can be sitting on your couch cuddled up with a blanket, you can be putting your kids to bed, you can be laying in bed preparing for sleep- the great thing about Reiki is that you will receive it regardless of what you are doing in the moment.

However, I do invite you to take some quiet time for yourself, if you can, to enjoy the experience of receiving Reiki. Feel what comes up for you emotionally. See what physical experiences are occurring for you (warmth, tingling, yawning, or nothing!)- every experience is natural and normal.

The purpose of these group Reiki sessions is geared towards calming anxiety. To help quiet your racing thoughts and to come back to yourself. To be in your body and sit with mind without wanting to escape them.

I am so grateful to be offering this type of Reiki session for those who need it, and I'm looking forward to connecting with you.

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I feel really out of the loop in this situation— I’m not sure what I should do. If I’m just completely not getting, please give it to me straight.

About two-threeish weeks ago, my friends staged an intervention. Not about substance use or SH or anything like that—they said it was because of how often I apologize. I often over-apologize, it’s a habit that stems from some pretty deep-rooted things from my childhood to my later years. I’ve got this idea that I’m inherently bad, and that I have to apologize/volunteer myself to be blamed to make up for it. They said they cared about me, and they wanted to see changes (as in, changes in my amount of apologizing and treating myself more kindly).

So I’ve been trying. Though it’s not easy, I think I made progress—I still often say “Tell me if this makes you uncomfortable“ or the like very often, but I do my best to not apologize, or to self-soothe. And I really think I made progress—one of my friends said I’m doing much better!

In the past week especially, the friends who staged the intervention felt like they’ve been ignoring/avoiding me. And today, out of the blue, they sent me a text. They said that it seems like I’ve made no progress, that I’ve exhausted them, and that (because I often get worried I’ve made someone angry) I’m making them feel like shitty friends. They said that they constantly need to regulate me and my sensitivity to changes in mood is making them walk on eggshells. Due to a previously very abusive situation not involving them, I ended up crying over the text, and just texting that I saw it and needed time to think of a response.

Maybe I’m just ignorant, but I can’t figure out what I’ve done. The only time I can remember looking for comfort from them recently is when I spoke to them about worry from my religion, and I made a point to tell them that I’m okay and it’s not keeping me up at night.

This is the response I was planning to send:

“Thank you for bringing this to my attention. I want to start by saying that I also very much value you both as my friends. 

I also want to say that I truly thought I was doing better since we last talked. I thought I was apologizing less, and communicating more clearly so I didn’t just collapse in on myself. I’ve been feeling happier for the most part, and I think I’ve been taking care of myself. I didn’t realize that I was draining you.  I don’t know if this is an okay thing to ask, but could you tell me what I was doing to make you regulate me? 

Lastly, I don’t want you to feel like you have to walk on eggshells around me. Please know that I’m just unregulated and trying to get better—so, like, If I cry, you don’t have to comfort me or try to make me feel better. If theres anything I can do to make you feel less pressure to do so, please tell me what it is.”

I asked a friend to review it, and they said I was being too nice, and should try to stand up for myself. They said our friends were really harsh and went too far. Any advice is greatly appreciated, feel free to comment if you need more information to decide on what’s right.

Which shapes, you more 🤔? A MAJOR FAILURE, OR A MAJOR SUSSCESS ?.

So I have experienced lots and lots of trauma, the same hands ✋️, that dealt the blows, created a strength 💪 they could never comprehend and will never be able to bend.

I'm working on some trauma art 🎨 and rely enjoying working on it. It's very healing and it's just a different way to explain what I've survived. It's not easy to talk about what happened. So I will let my art 🎨 do the talking. Just joined today. Love ❤️

Alright guys my dad often taunts me, everyday I get three-four taunts for sure, could be way more than that on days, even after studying all day....I am treated like crap, he says I waste food, I waste money, I waste his resources, and that I am a waste.... today things had been piling up for a week...I often do SH, but I had been clean for like a week, today I got the urge, instead of doing that I took some objects that would not break if thrown and threw them across the room, dad came, said lots of stuff, swore at me a lot, then said meri koi aukaat nai hai etc etc, said he would throw me out of the house and well lots more, my brain froze when he was saying all this, I badly SHed after that...I jjst wanted to ask, is this normal behaviour and did overreact (I am 18 years old in class 12 btw)

Never had ONE event that tested ALL my conditions and ALL my trauma triggers at once.

I’m COMPLETELY BLIND, have autism and a heart lung condition and the other day, I went to a doctor’s appointment that put ALL those conditions plus ALL my trauma triggers and fears to the test https://youtu.be/C7h9zHfK6f8?is=A_umrfucvtbukW4x

Hey, I have a huge problem.
I’m insanely insecure, I get jealous when I see other girls pretty (don’t judge me pls) and I hate when I see my man staring at women this made me sooooo devastated like I cry all the time about that thing, the problem is that I’m not ugly, everybody compliments me, but I don’t have the confidence to stop being jealous of other girls or about my bf pls help.

I ended up having a heated discussion with a relative (she's my step-grandmother), whom was dismissive of me, hung up the phone on me and in retaliation, I told her via text message that her Son was a p* and a r*ist. Said person did unalive themselves years ago, and everyone has pussy-footed around his mother and the topic, but I let her have it. I actually don't care if she believes me or not. I know it is true.

I had been toying with telling her for some time, and I certainly didn't expect it to come out the way it did. I had discussed what had happened in the past with my mother - and she did say that I wouldn't be believed. But I snapped - and I said it. And I was hoping to feel better for finally letting her know, but I feel absolutely terrible. The intrusive memories, and the trauma are peaking all over again.

I have no intentions of apologizing for it either. I'm so over the dismissive behaviour and her feeling like everyone is a threat. I won't be the least bit suprized if she tries to remove me from my grandfathers Estate - and I welcome for her lawyers to contact me and I get to explain what happened.

Any advice on how to feel better about this?

Please feel free to provide what might have worked for you personally, or ideas you have for others to move forward, heal, and reclaim power. Anything goes, whether it’s vulnerable, honest, unhinged, or just real… thank you for answering 💗

I mean I already am healing I know. But when will I just not automatically go to worst case scenario that- I am alone eternally. It’s so deeply programmed I guess. I’m now 47 yrs and I put so much energy into healing since I was a teen. I thought it’d get easier by now.

Before bed, I do physical therapy exercises, then spend 15-30 minutes on mental health therapy worksheets (currently doing Cognitive Processing Therapy), do somw deep breathing, then shower and brush my teeth, do my hair, etc. I'm usually pretty consistent with everything daily but I do procrastinate and some days I'll skip showering. I want to be sure I'm not hindering any progress by missing a day here or there with therapy worksheets if I'm exhausted, and not necessarily just avoiding due to anxiety. I already feel like I'm not doing enough (my trauma tells me I'm not good enough). Any advice?

Need experts advice

Hi,
I don't really know how to write this. You would never tell my story if you look at me at the office or if you talk to me, but I'm really heartbroken. I moved out of my home country 2 months ago to rebuilt a life, I'm alone and I always have so much time to think (don't know if it is positive or not), but I don't know if these things will ever go away to be honest. Some nights I'm just heartbroken and I think about how humanity is fucked up.
I discovered that my father was a ped0 6 years ago, when I was already in my 20s. It's crazy because he is also a buddhist, loves to do charity. I don't know if he ever slept with a child, but I have found 2/3 different diaries in which he was talking about having sex with 12 years old Tunisian children for money and guess who always used to go on vacation in Tunisia? my family, with my father. He also had a diary in which he stalked a 14 years old boy, he was a neighbor. He used to write hours and dates of their "casual" meetings and also looked at his home window. Keep in mind that my father is very old, so he cannot do anything physical. He was also in many different relationships with 20/30 years old guys that he would meet online. He had a specific type: poor, desperate immigrants who would do everything for him. He also had many many many hard disks full of young people images. A nightmare. My father also destroyed my family's financial stability and now my house is my bank's house, because of debts he created. I know, it's crazy. Seems like a movie. I wish it was but it's not.
He also did horrible things to my mom, he used to take pics of her intimate parts when she was sleeping and he would send them to people he met online.
I told everything to my siblings and to my mom. What's crazy? My mom forgave him. She never sued him. I prepared houndreds of prints of screenshots that I have found, but she burned them. At one point, only to have those screenshots of the horrible things that he was doing, I became obsessed with controlling him. I copied his whatsapp on my phone (I'm kinda good with technology), but I became addicted, I have so many traumas about what he was writing.
He had multiple telegram / Facebook / instagram accounts.
I tried to talk to him and forgive because I thought he would change, then I beat him, and now he is blocked everywhere. My mom still lives with him, I think at the end she is a victim but she's also protecting him as a pervert, something that I will never forgive her for.
My relatives are fucked up too. Other "interesting" stories.
Now that you know the ""whole"" story, or the main parts, please tell me how can I go on with my life. I tried with therapy, but I just cannot afford it anymore and to be honest, it's always so hard to start telling this story to somebody new. It's just something that I don't want to do now.
The point is that I have so much rage inside of me. Nobody would never say so, I'm always smiling, I'm always so kind, people say that I'm vert sweet, but I feel dead inside, I feel empty. I don't want to forgive. I want that my father suffers as I'm suffering for something that I didn't do. I was the victim and I'm suffering. He is the p3rvert and has a prepared meal everyday by my mum. instead, I had to leave home and build my life because I was scared that he would do weird stuff to me and I used to sleep with the door locked when I was living with them.
I'm not suicidal, I don't do drugs, but i'm just devastated and I don't think it will ever go away, after 6 years and moving out of my home country. It's the same.

Hello everyone,

I wanted to share my experience and documentation regarding photobiomodulation (PBM) red-light therapy devices from Australian vendor Well Red Pty Ltd (specifically the Duo Coronet helmet, CoroNase nasal unit, and TheraPad T110).

The vendor heavily promotes these devices online for trauma, PTSD, brain inflammation, and neurodegenerative conditions, positioning them as daily home tools for brain health. Given the high cost (over AUD $2,000) and the claims made around mental health and neurological recovery, I want to share the real-world durability and customer support issues before anyone invests.

Summary of Issue & Hardware Failures: I purchased a full set in March 2025 for AUD $2,045.00 (Invoice #2534). Within 8 months, the equipment suffered repeated failures:

1. TheraPad T110: Failed twice (July 2025, September 2025), requiring two complete replacements. Each replacement took 6–7 weeks despite promises of 1–2 week delivery.
2. CoroNase: Complete breakdown in November 2025. The cable connection point broke beyond repair. Photographic evidence shows the cord is only 2mm in diameter and broke further while simply attempting to photograph the defect.
3. Pattern of Systemic Failures: Three component failures within 8 months demonstrate the products are not of acceptable quality under Australian Consumer Law (ACL) statutory guarantees.

Refusal to Honor Warranty & ACL Consumer Rights: When I formally requested a refund under Section 260 of the Australian Consumer Law for major failure, the vendor refused twice, stating they "do not offer returns or refunds" and blaming "lack of care in use," despite my documented evidence of extremely careful handling (devices kept on a dedicated bed, laid flat, and operated via power strip).

Export vs. Medical Marketing Discrepancy: The vendor markets these helmets on her website and blog as treatments for PTSD, stroke, autism, dementia, and brain inflammation. However, she exports them declared as general "wellness devices." This allowed her to avoid strict medical device accountability while passing an unexpected $160 CAD customs duty onto me in Canada.

I have logged a review on ProductReview.com.au and submitted formal reports to CBOS (Tasmania) and the ACCC (accc-report:0180320).

Despite advertising a 1-year warranty, the vendor refused to honor even a full year of coverage or offer any repair options—even though I got roughly only 4 months of actual total use out of the equipment. When relying on a device twice a day for health support, dealing with hardware breakdown, broken warranty promises, and no path for repair carries a high price tag—not just in terms of money, but also in precious time and health. If you are researching high-cost red light therapy or PBM tools for trauma recovery, please be aware of these hardware risks and customer support failures before purchasing.

The impact of trauma in my life is very big, I still don't have enough financial resources to visit a psychologist, so I have to try to learn how to solve my problems on my own.

I can't protect myself when needed. Just during those stressful moments by body starts shaking and my hands sweating, I cant think clear and around people I am completely different person than I actually am irl. Its all trauma and I feel hopeless because its been years I am trying to beat it.

I want to finally defend myself and stand up for myself without shaking. Life is getting harder day by day and I feel like I am just created wrong.

TW: häusliche Gewalt, sexuelle Gewalt

Ich bin seit knapp 5 Monaten aus einer toxischen Beziehung raus. Manchmal ist es besser manchmal ist es schlimmer. Ich lerne gerade wieder das ich mir gehöre, das Grenzen okay sind und das meine Gedanken mir gehören und nicht falsch sind. In meiner Ex Beziehung wurden Gedanken verteufelt und als falsch betitelt, in Streits wurde mir ins Gesicht gebrüllt, es wurden Sachen geworfen, geschlagen und er hat uns mehrfach durch road raging in Gefahr gebracht. Er hat mich sexuell genötigt mein Nein nicht akzeptiert oft gesagt, "darf ich noch fertigmachen?" Wenn ich gesagt habe es tut weh. Ständig Sex inetiert es gab kein Kuscheln bei ihm, ich habe mich öfter wie ein Stück Fleisch gefühlt er hat mich immer lüsternd angegafft. Einmal hat er mich zu Sex überredet während ich mit Migränemittel nur halb anwesend war.

Generell hat er auch alles runtergespielt und mich oft zum Problem gemacht, ich habe an mir gezweifelt, ich habe stellenweise nichts mehr verstanden. Er jat mich manipuliert, gelovebombt und terrorisiert.

Generell hat er oft egoistisch und kindisch gehandelt. Sein toxisches Verhalten hat mich stark mürbe gemacht, meine Haare sind ausgefallen, meine Nägel waren brüchig, ich habe eine chronische Gastritis entwickelt etc. Ich habe gemerkt wie ich wahnsinnig geworden bin ich habe mich permanent wiederholt, ich habe vergessen was vor kurzem passiert ist. Auch wurde mein Verhalten ein Stück weit toxisch ich habe Freundschaften verloren, einerseits durch ihn weil er mich reinmanipuliert hat andererseits durch mein komisches Verhaltensmuster das ich entwickelt habe.

Es ist so viel passiert und ich bin einfach wütend, wütend das ich ihn verteidigt habe wütend das ich ihn nicht verletzt habe, wütend das ich ihm nicht gezeigt habe das man mich so nicht behandeln kann. Ich würde ihm gerne den Mund zukleben und ihm all das in seine erbärmliche Visage brüllen, ich will ihm zeigen wie sehr er mich zerstört hat. Aber all das wird mich nicht weiterbringen. Ich muss mir selbst vergeben und ich muss ihm vergeben, mir zu Liebe.

Ich bin inzwischen in einer neuen Beziehung mein Partner ist toll und supportive, er hilft mir sehr beim heilen, ohne mich zu therapieren, einfach indem er mich richtig behandelt und mir zuhört und Verständnis für Traumaaspekte hat wenn sie in unserer Dynamik hochkommen. Ich werde mir Therapie suchen, es ist manchmal hart aber es wird besser. Ich überspiele nach außen hin oft das Trauma bzw habe ich unterschätzt wie tief es geht...

Vielleicht hat hier jemand ein paar Tipps, ansonsten ich hoffe ihr findet den Mut ggf eure Erfahrungen zu teilen falls ihr das wollt.

I have physically and virtually removed my abusers from my life, they keep reaching to people I might know to find me back. However I have recently cut off 2 meaningful connnections/ friends because I’m afraid they might be connected back to them. I feel safe and unsafe whenever I am outside. Being outside helps me realize the world isn’t trying to attack me and that actually most or no one has ever brought as much trauma as they did. I’m just worried I’ll keep cutting off meaningful connections, and that I’ll always keep scanning for threats once I’m attached to someone. Being all on myself made me realize that the world isn’t trying to come after my back all the time but I crave connection as well.. I’m just scared I’m running out of people when I make a meaningful connection to someone and have to cut them off

It's been going on for months now. No matter how early i get to bed, i can't leave until the morning's almost over. Even if i have morning classes. When i wake up, it feels like there's this weight in my chest and i just want to keep sleeping forever. I'm in my last semester of college and i haven't studied or done any assignments in ages. I'm panicking at the amount of stuff i have to do but i can never actually do anything.

I have anxiety & ptsd. I spent a brief (6 months?) time semi homeless while I hid from someone abusive and violent. I had some money but not much, and a car. At times I got condiments from fast food places and that was part of my food. At times I ate plants in a forest. I did also have some regular food, but it was sporadic how much. I don't consider this a very long time to be semi-homeless (half living in car, motels or camping), but it was a very intense time.

I think this has played a role in my overspending on food, especially convenience or processed food, when anxiety and stress hits in my current life. Even though those situations are in the past. I feel extra insecure at times of higher stress and want more comfort food & feel like I don't care how much it costs. It feels like an emergency.

When I have no outside stressors, I do well with eating healthy food. I also do quite well sticking to a budget.

I think when stress hits I get a fear about will there be enough food and what if I run out, even if the stressor is nothing to do with that. Paradoxically, this causes me to overspend because I comfort purchase.

What I've tried: Budgeting apps - do help unless I am hit from all side with stress. I used to use Chronometer which tracks food & nutrition and it actually did help me. But have not used it for quite a while. (So many things like this that have helped and then I get off track & just forget them) I half tried meditation, walking, affirmations which surprisingly did help a bit & journaling but am not consistent. I do see a therapist but so far this has not been a focus.

What I'm wondering about: Exercise, trying to join more social things to have some constant source of more reliable calm experiences, trying a different way of budgeting. I have no idea. I've watched people online food prep but I don't know if i could stick with it.

In short:
* We can not leave for various reasons
* One of those being we rely on her and are not in a position to just "figure it out"
* She is gaslihgting my brother the way she used to me and since she started doing that, she has treated me VERY odd (ie overtly ignoring me but also buying me random treats??)
* She is telling him things like "we're the only ones that love you" and calling him crazy and telling him that I don't want to be around him. She also stopped us from talking privately freshly after she gaslit him for like an hour
* I want to at least support him since I know how rough it is, plus when she treated me that way he was always there for me, but do not know what to do

How can I help?? If I confront her or she finds out I'm trying to help, she can and WILL use that as justification to hurt ALL of us, from emotionally to medically. It will NOT go well. It has to be covert enough to have a chance of avoiding her attention.

Anyone know how I can help him without hurting everyone???

Hey everyone!

I’ve been trying to find a good YouTube lecture or educational video that goes in depth about complex PTSD (C-PTSD), particularly how prolonged childhood trauma affects brain development, the nervous system, and a person’s ability to regulate emotions and change certain behavioral patterns. I’m hoping to find something that could help both me and my partner better understand these effects.

My partner and I have been together for over five years and have known each other for more than a decade. He’s been a close part of my life throughout much of my trauma history and has witnessed firsthand many of the ways it’s affected me. I have an extensive history of abuse and have struggled with a number of mental health issues as a result. I also have a really difficult time expressing my experiences and explaining why I struggle with certain things, largely because of fear. Sometimes I forget that what feels normal to me isn’t necessarily something other people can relate to.

A few months ago, my partner told me about a conversation he’d had with an AI model while trying to understand some of my behaviors and why, despite years of effort and promises to change, certain patterns have continued. He mentioned that something the AI explained about the effects of early childhood trauma on the brain finally made things click for him. I can’t remember his exact wording, but the general idea was that my brain developed differently as a result of what I experienced, and that some of the things I struggle with aren’t simply a matter of not trying hard enough or choosing not to change. There are things I haven’t yet learned how to manage, even when I genuinely want to.

That comment really floored me. I think I’d always assumed that, given how long we’ve known each other and how much of my history he’s witnessed, he understood the extent to which my experiences have shaped me. I knew that understanding it intellectually and truly grasping what it means in practice aren’t necessarily the same thing, but I hadn’t realized how much of that gap might still exist. I’ve tried to explain my experiences in my own words and have even shared *The Body Keeps the Score* with him, but I struggle to articulate a lot of this myself.

I’m not saying that trauma means I’m incapable of change or that I’m not responsible for working on myself. It’s more that I wish I could better explain why some things that seem straightforward to other people can feel so difficult for me, even when I’m trying. I’d love to find something that explains the neuroscience and psychology behind C-PTSD in a way that’s thorough, accessible, and helpful for someone who hasn’t experienced it firsthand.
Does anyone have recommendations for YouTube lectures, documentaries, or other educational resources that explain how complex trauma affects brain development, emotional regulation, behavior, and relationships? I’d especially appreciate something in-depth and evidence-based, rather than a short introductory video.

Thank you for taking the time to read this and for any of your advice.

Hello everyone,

For those who experienced traumas, severe break-ups , underlying medical conditions (chronic), weakness, insecurities, social pressures , secrets only you know how to bear them and how to live with them happily?

I have recently encountered a chronic health condition and unsure how long I need to depend on medication. How to live with it without informing parents and frnds and iam broken too..

You cannot just forgive immediately, just like that. What would you be forgiving? First, you must feel the full extent of the pain caused, then become angry, hate, and only afterwards, if the choice commands it—forgive. Only then will it be true forgiveness.

The flexible mechanism of the psyche is structured in such a way that it creates a cohesive, positive image of what is happening, pleasant accompanying feelings, and a visual chronology of events, while hiding all the pain and horror in the subconscious and the body, freezing the trauma. When certain memories are replayed, it is important not just to admire the picture: one can delve into the experienced states, into the tangible feelings of that episode, and the answer will be hidden within them. There will be a reaction to the feelings brought up from the depths: for example, indignation or gratitude.

Hey. I'm 17. Since 1 & 1/2 months I'm in a mental hospital and a month ago I got diagnosed with a bipolar disorder. I got admitted because I told my therapist that I got myself two sugar daddys. Swarmed about them, about how great it was and how I finally got money for my drivers license. He admitted me to the clinic, against my will. I made that choice when I was manic, so I wasn't in the right state of mind. And since that talk with the SVU detective (they told me that man wanted to lure me in and use me for sex trafficking) the nightmares are getting worse. And I keep having those flashbacks where I hear their voice, feel their touch or even see them.

So... am I traumatized?

Or whats wrong with me? ...At the end I gave them permission.