Hi everyone,
I'm reaching out because I'm going through a really difficult time right now, and I would truly appreciate some advice or perspectives from anyone who has been in a similar situation.
I'm an international student studying in France. My financial resources are very limited, and I am supported solely by my single mother. I gave up a lot to move here for my university education, but for the past two months, I've been paying nearly €700 a month in rent essentially to do nothing, due to ongoing strikes and protests impacting classes and university activities.
While I understand and respect the reasons behind the social movement, this constant state of standstill is taking a severe toll on me. Because I am prone to depression, the lack of routine and the surrounding inertia have caused my mental health to decline significantly. I feel exhausted, weak, and unable to engage socially anymore, even though I made an effort when I first arrived.
Academics are the most important thing in my life, and feeling completely stuck for so long makes me extremely anxious. On top of that, I feel a deep sense of guilt—I feel "selfish" for focusing on my own well-being and academic future when my background and values have always been tied to social commitment. But right now, everything overwhelms me: the political atmosphere, the news, global conflicts... it all triggers intense anxiety.
Over the past week, I've started withdrawing and cutting people off. I exercise regularly, but it hasn't done much to lift my mood. Moving to a new country without fully mastering the language, without a local support system, and getting swept up in this unexpected situation without preparation has been overwhelming. Integrating under these conditions feels nearly impossible.
Given all of this, I'm seriously wondering if it would make more sense to return home and rebuild my path there.
Have any of you experienced a similar sense of burnout or culture shock while studying abroad? How did you deal with the isolation, and how did you decide whether to stick it out or return home?
Thank you so much for your kindness and advice