Recently, my psychiatrist had implied I may have schizophrenia. I’m very worried about this to be completely honest. I’m worried the stigma around the condition would ruin my life.

I've been feeling pretty good lately, but I'm basically constantly afraid of going completely crazy and losing control. I just want to know if you can still have a worthwhile life with this disease.

Does anyone else get judged, like a lot? I notice anytime I bring up my Schizophrenia, Anxiety, and Bipolar, people act like I should still be normal and fine and just be able to work and function because everyone else can..the only subreddits I enjoy going on are the mentally ill subreddits most of the time..

Im tired of fucking everything man. Im homeless, my life is shit, and all I get is more people telling me how I should work and somehow function when I have 200 panic attacks an hour.

Part of me wonders if it is better if I just throw myself into traffic (kidding), but im tired of people. I also get people surprised my disability got denied and that I should fix my meds even though all my meds work, my illnesses are just severe.

It started on the left half of my brain now it's spread to the right. It ate away at the left side of my brain and it is now smaller on the sides. If the same happens to my right I will be ending my life because I wanted to do intellectual work with my life and without that I'm like a horse with a broken leg. It's not worth it. I tried antipsychotics, they made my symptoms worse and are basically chemical lobotomy anyway. My symptoms are better off them but as long as the voices continue my brain is continuing to go into cascades of neuroinflammation that are causing progressive tissue loss. There must be some way to stop this, if I do not, I will be killing myself if the damage becomes permanent. I'm sorry that this isn't something people want to hear but frankly, I'm not suffering through life, suffering through having to work a job, if my entire reason for living is gone. Your advice might save my life, and please, don't be a stereotypical shitty redditor. The voices literally hurt to hear, I can feel their effects on the nerves in my brain. Your advice might save my life. Weed makes it worse. Is there any, and I mean any, anti-inflammatory medicine or supplement that could help me?

How did you guys get use to the feeling of someone listenning to your thoughts constantly, or monitoring you? Im not sure how to get use to it without feeling creeped out by it daily, I would say thats the worst part of it for me.

F(21) I feel like schizophrenia has made me really insecure about myself mostly my looks/ appearance to the point where I overthink messaging people or approaching them because I’m scared of being judged or rejected embarrassed etc and it’s making me feel pretty alone. My cousin also has schizophrenia, but he’s very outgoing and doesn’t seem to struggle with this at all, which makes me wonder if it’s just me. I’m also curious about telling people you have schizophrenia. Do you guys tell people early on, wait until you know them better, or not tell them at all? Do you worry that people will look at you differently or be scared away if they find out? I feel like it scares people away in my case. I’m having trouble making friends

Does anyone else experience extreme episodes of mental torment that last 3–4 hours, where everything starts feeling negative or evil?

I'm trying to find people who can relate to what I'm experiencing because these episodes are terrifying, exhausting, and difficult to explain to someone who hasn't experienced them.

Sometimes, completely out of nowhere, especially when I'm in public or in the middle of a workout, I get hit with an overwhelming wave of mental torment. It feels like every time I breathe, there's another negative feeling, disturbing thought, embarrassing memory, or frightening image attached to it. I can look at almost anything around me, and my mind will immediately associate it with something negative.

The intensity is extreme. It feels like my mind is being bombarded nonstop for hours, almost like mental torment arrows are being shot at me one after another without giving me a moment to breathe. I feel overwhelmed by negativity, shame, fear, and disturbing thoughts that I don't want. Sometimes, an inner voice that sounds like my own voice says disturbing things in my head, and I struggle to separate myself from the constant stream of thoughts.

One of the scariest parts is that even things that normally bring me comfort can suddenly feel evil. Worship music that usually makes me feel close to God can start sounding evil or frightening. Sometimes, other people's words start sounding evil to me, too, even when I don't want to interpret them that way. It makes me feel terrified and confused because I just want to feel peaceful again.

During these episodes, I put my head down in public because I feel exposed, embarrassed, and overwhelmed. All I want to do is hide under a blanket, go home, and get away from everything. I struggle to concentrate, remember things, think clearly, or function normally. It feels like I'm in shock, and the negativity consumes my entire mind and body.

These episodes can last three or four hours, and the worst part is feeling like they will never end. I'm exhausted from fighting through them, especially when they happen while I'm trying to exercise, go outside, work, or do normal everyday activities.

I've tried medication to help with my anxiety, including Ativan and propranolol, but I don't feel like they stop these episodes or provide enough relief when the mental torment starts. It's discouraging to feel this overwhelmed for hours despite trying to get help.

I don't understand why this happens. Is it severe anxiety, intrusive thoughts, a trauma response, or something else? Has anyone experienced a sudden feeling that everything sounds negative or evil, even things they normally love? Has anyone experienced hours of relentless, frightening thoughts that make it almost impossible to function?

I'm not looking for judgment or people telling me to just relax. I'm looking for people who understand how frightening this can feel and who can share what has genuinely helped them.

If you experience this kind of extreme mental torment, what does it feel like for you, and what has helped you get through it?

My hands shake so much because of the antipsychotics

'Palle alene I verden"

And I'm fucking sick of it.

I've been in the psych ward over a week. Just got home. Diagnosed schizoaffective, mood disorder unspecified glad to be home to see family and cat.

The other day my child had a nightmare or something and when i went to go check on her she said there is a monster in her room which triggered my schizophrenia and i started feeling one in the corner and then seeing one. Does this happen to other parents i wonder? ( i reasured her that of course there isn't but got startled my self bcs it came out of nowhere )

Iv had a diagnosis of schizophrenia for a very long time now and Iv recently been diagnosed with Whats in the title, dissociative seizures. How common or uncommon is this co-occurrence. Iv spent a year being assessed with MRI Scan and EEGs and no brain abnormalities or anything unusual except the symptoms of dissociation and seizures that occur. I’m just curious but will get further information soon from a doctor in my care because this just feels weird to receive another diagnosis and what it means. The assessment lasted what seems like a year and Iv been in hospital for the duration of it.

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I just started streaming clay working on twitch if anyone is like me and doesn’t have a job and wants to hang out.

I have other delusions like thougt broadcasting etc

But then when I am moving around and not just sitting, my mind has lost it's rigidity. Its like it leaves its base and just floats around. Or maybe someone else has snatched my control over my mind and is now running it ( that' s a delusinoal fear I hold )

Any one with any helpful thoughts on this ?

For those of you that can hold a job, how many of you go into work?
I have the option to work from home 3 days a week and only go in half days for the other 2. I haven’t been going in at all and I am worried I will get in trouble.

Is it possible for my doctor to write me an accommodation to stay home full time? I just can’t leave the house.

What really happened is the truth...

You do not need to believe in anything your mind tells you, even if it feels like your accessing some higher power (like God) who should know everything.

What's around you is real.

Do u use your schizophrenia as a reason for lack of life success to others? I know that there are successful schizophrenics at life, but I don't think they are the majority. After going undiagnosed for years and suffering unknowingly I found out what was wrong. I began telling people I am schizophrenic before the meds fully started to work or I had time to process it and what being schizophrenic truly means. I was very good in school till the middle of high school, but then my symptoms slowly started appearing. My ability to learn easily started to vanish. I dropped out of high school. People in my life expected big things from me career wise. I no longer could live up to them. My dreams and goals had to be readjusted to my current abilities.

I couldn't do basic jobs and I didn't know why. With the schizophrenia diagnosis I could finally explain to the people around me why I failed career wise and didn't have a romantic life. I happily told everyone, expecting them to understand. They didn't, they had no idea what schizophrenia was and the limitations it puts on a person. They began to be afraid of me as I tried to explain more. Some thought I was dangerous. They did not want to understand or do any research.

The hard lesson I learned was it was best to keep I am schizophrenic a secret. In the future only someone I trust with my life, I will reveal my schizophrenia diagnosis. I will let people judge me how they want about my failures in life. I will no longer look for sympathy or understanding. I will try to live my life to the best of my abilities with the cards dealt to me in this life

I can't work because of the illness so making music is one of the things I get up in the morning for.

Has anyone been on disability (ssdi) social security disability for a long time?

If so, how many years?

What are the reviews like?

Are they simple?

I just got approved for it and I want to be on it for the rest of my life but I’m worried about the reviews

hello i return with another ramble, which will be likely until i return to therapy. i have a boyfriend who is the greatest human to ever exist, and he’s been so lovely in researching things about my condition(s) and trying to help me the best he can. we are long distance, so that puts up an added barrier.

over the past year, i’ve had what i can best describe as a tidal wave feeling when it comes to speaking to people and continuing to foster relationships. i will either need much support, reaching out and making conversation when i feel like i need to “be a person”, then it’s just completely shut off for however long. i have no desire to speak to others or want to engage with anybody, him included. this isn’t because i love him any less, if anything it’s because i love him so much that i would rather just keep to myself until im back in working order. but i worry that as time is passing, my desire to engage is diminishing and i want to figure out how to actually want to reach out. how do i fight my brain in believing that this is a chore or something i don’t want to do, because i do want to.

interacting with people is exhausting, in every capacity, but i cant shut myself in without impacting those i care about. this is a good thing, because it forces me to reach out, but im never fully present when i do. that’s impacting those relationships. im standoffish and not really tapped in because i feel no desire to engage with anybody, no matter how much i need to or do actually want to. sigh help