The agony

It's at 100%, but getting out of this blanket feels like too much work. Guess I'll just lie here and stare at the ceiling.

I plugged my phone in at the other end of the room, got comfortable in bed and now my screen lights up with a notification.

I have two choices: get up and check it or live with the mystery.

Honestly, both options are exhausting. 💀

We’re just about at the top of a waiting list for an apartment at an expensive senior facility, and after having a couple of major expenses to fix things this year we’re trying to avoid fixing anything else before we move, but there’s no telling how long it’s going to take until one of the apartments we want becomes available.

(And I’m not just going to get a watch because I hate wearing watches due to sensory issues.)

Executive members are allowed in an hour early, at 9:00 am before the store opens at 10:00. This has always been a peaceful, enjoyable time to shop. The store was never crowded and I was always happy to get out the door by 10 when the doors opened for the general masses.

But now there are so many Executive members that the early shopping hour has become crowded. Today when I walked in at 9:10 am there was a group of people just inside completely blocking the way. They were just talking and completely oblivious to the fact that people were trying to get around them.

In several aisles children were running amok and getting in the way.

Yes, she means email addresses, not passwords

I really like YTMusic but I HATE how it stops the song randomly after x amount of inactivity time just to ask me "Are you still listening?" tf?? yes?? fck you want me to do? look at the album cover the entire time? of course im doing something else in the meantime, let the god damn playlist or looped song play.

This pop up makes sense on normal Youtube (at least for me), but on YTMusic??? a website i always have on background? seriously?

Not even a luxury car, but damn I didn't realize how much I missed it. I am one of those lucky idiots who purchased an extendend warranty through the dealership and it's about to pay itself off. Already had the AWD module fail.

It's been a week and a rough one, esp now that temperatures are dipping into the high 30's (F) where I live.

It would be 95⁰ and I'd still have it on because that heat felt soooo good on my back for my hour commute home with the AC blasting.

First of all, my employer is as amazing as this makes them sound. We had our biggest annual fundraiser last year, and for the first time, this was added to it. They raised enough for all of my coworkers to have $850 each to spend on “wellness.” It’s a grant that we have to apply to draw from a fund, but what I’ve heard from my coworkers, it’s pretty quick and easy to get approval. Some examples of things the grant will cover are therapy, gym/rec center memberships, home exercise/wellness equipment, and even “restorative travel.” Personal items have to have a “direct” not incidental, purpose towards your wellness, and “general electronics” like mobile devices and headphones are not covered.

I already used about $380 on a round trip for a consultation I have in December for gender-affirming care, so I have about $470 left to spend. I’m in an awkward place to get any subscriptions—my job is an hour away from where I live, and coupled with gas prices, I’m reluctant to pay a subscription to anywhere I have to burn even more gas to go to. I have all the exercise equipment I need for my personal fitness goals, I’m not concerned about getting myself therapy, and I can’t think of any self-care items that I’d be interested in (but idk). One thing I think could be a good idea is using some of the money to purchase what I still need to recover from my surgery, but there is a required, anonymous “impact survey” we have to submit after purchases are complete, and idk if I can do that effectively for those purchases. We have until mid-December to go through the funds, and my surgery isn’t until January (maybe I could talk about the peace of mind if there’s a written part? But I’d still probably have money to spend after buying what I still need, idk). WWYD with that kind of money in two months?

Had to catch a 25-minute taxi to a 30-minute ferry, then another 30 minutes to get to the venue, so I could hang out awkwardly with people I'd drifted away from for a few hours, then do all the traveling back home. I missed the ferry by 5 minutes coming back and had to wait 45 minutes for the next one. All this on an upset stomach, so I had to use the bathroom a few times and I'm shy with that stuff, and to make it worse I gained weight so my suite is really tight and it made bending down very inconvenient. I spent €70 on traveling alone, then had to fork out €100 on the wedding present. Almost didn't go but thought I'd regret it if I didn't since I used to be good friends with both the bride and the groom.

It's finally over. Been dreading this for months and it's over.

Edit: Just remembered that my posts usually get hate until I clarify that I was clinically diagnosed with Aspergers. Social events scare me a bit.

I was sitting on the couch last night when my phone dropped to 1%.

My charger was plugged in beside my bed, maybe twelve feet away.

Instead of just getting up and grabbing it, I convinced myself the phone would survive long enough for me to find another solution. I turned the brightness all the way down, closed every app, switched on low power mode, turned off Bluetooth, and started watching the battery percentage like I was monitoring a medical emergency.

It went from 1% to 0%.

The phone stayed on for another few seconds, which gave me false hope.

Then it died.

At that point I finally got off the couch, walked to my bedroom, grabbed the charger, and came back.

I plugged it in and sat down.

Then I realized the cable was too short to reach the couch comfortably.

So I had to get up again and move the entire couch closer to the outlet.

I spent more energy avoiding a twelve foot walk than the twelve foot walk would have taken.

The new machine isn't working, so we to use the shit tier machine, which means we have to take laptops and shit out of the bag. Put them into their own special snowflake bin. Great.