Okay, this might sound weird, but does anyone else experience this?
I don't normally consume caffeine at all. No tea, no coffee, mostly because I don't wanna get addicted to it. But I do occasionally drink a White Monster or take pre-workout before working out, and holy shit, the difference in how I feel is insane sometimes.
It's not just energy or feeling awake. It's like someone injected hope straight into my veins. All the depressing thoughts, lack of motivation, not wanting to talk to anyone or do anything, all of that just disappears for a while. Everything feels fine, everything feels cool, life feels colourful, music hits differently, and sometimes I can genuinely happy-cry just from my own thoughts. I suddenly feel like calling random people, asking how they've been, starting conversations with strangers, doing things I've been putting off, going for a run, etc.
And the weird thing is, it doesn't even seem to depend on whether I'm working out. I can take caffeine and just sit around doomscrolling, and I'll still feel that initial rush. But if I actually start doing things, like working out, running, calling someone, or getting stuff done, it feels like the feeling keeps building and building. It's almost like a loop where the adrenaline and dopamine keep feeding into each other, and suddenly I have all this motivation and hope that I didn't have before.
I've had this feeling last for hours, with the longest being around 12 hours after one White Monster, although that was while I kept myself busy and active. Eventually, when I stop doing things, the feeling wears off, and I get this heavy, drained feeling, sometimes almost like I'm a little feverish.
I have ADHD, so I wonder if that has something to do with it, or if this is just how caffeine affects some people. I only consume it occasionally, and I don't exceed 350 mg in a day.
But seriously, is this what caffeine feels like for everyon Does everyone get this sudden feeling of hope, happiness
emotional intensity, and wanting to actually LIVE their life? Or am I experiencing something different?
And this is probably a stupid comparison, haha, but is this remotely what opioids or other drugs feel like for people? Not the same effects necessarily, but that feeling of suddenly being okay with everything and feeling like life is beautiful?
I'm genuinely curious about what's happening in my brain when this happens.