Anyone else have similar feelings?

Hello everyone,

I am writing to this community from Turkey, searching for any genealogical, historical, or institutional archive information regarding a woman named Ellen Everritt, who served in the Auxiliary Fire Service (AFS) / London Fire Brigade during World War II (records point to around 1942).

The reason behind my search is a highly specific historical coincidence that I am trying to research objectively.

About 4 to 5 years ago, when I was 23 or 24 years old, I had an incredibly vivid and detailed dream set during a wartime bombardment. In this dream, I found myself navigating chaotic streets, noticing very specific architectural layouts, and entering a library/archive building through a particular side entrance on the left. In the dream, I was acting as a protector, trying to shield a woman and a young girl (around 4–9 years old) in the midst of the chaos, and I later experienced a profound sense of guilt in an alleyway.

I have no British heritage, my English is basic, and I have never studied British wartime history—in fact, throughout my life, I have only ever read and researched Islamic history, and Mongol/Turkic history. However, during a personal research session, the phonetic sounds of the names "Lillian" and "Ellen" intensely came to my mind. Shortly after, I accidentally discovered the archive photograph of Ellen Everritt and experienced an overwhelming sense of visual recognition regarding her uniform and appearance.

Furthermore, upon checking the real-world historical locations, the structures from my dream perfectly match the layout of the York Minster Library (The Old Palace) and the adjacent Purey-Cust Lodge during the Baedeker Blitz on April 29, 1942—down to the specific side alleys and the rooflines.

I am approaching this with a purely objective and historical curiosity to see if any real-world connections or explanations exist. I would be profoundly grateful if anyone here could help with the following:

• Any genealogical leads on Ellen Everritt: Any information about her family branch, where she was stationed, if she survived the war, or her post-war life.
• Knowledge of AFS/Home Guard history in York: Is there any documented record of London AFS personnel or volunteers being present near the York Minster sector during the April 1942 raids? (As a side note, I did not experience a moment of physical death in my dream; instead, I suddenly found myself at a strange exit where a portal opened. I stepped through it alone because I didn't want the woman and the girl behind me to face the danger of crossing it. I have come to interpret this moment as the transition of death. Another detail is that there was no spoken dialogue in the dream; we seemed to move via telepathy, acting purely on deep instinct and feeling. The woman by my side in the dream was "Ellen," and together we were heading into the heart of the chaos to rescue that little girl.)
• Information on civilian rescue operations that night: Are there any records of civilians, specifically a woman and a young girl, being rushed into the archive stacks or vaults of the York Minster Library for protection during the bombing?

Thank you so much for your time and historical expertise.

Best regards from Turkey.

-        Supposedly, we humans have been around for about 200 thousand years, with about 100 billion examples

-      Supposedly, we humans have been around for about 200,000 years and have produced about 100 billion examples

- If each human “self” can exist for only one finite time, the POTENTIAL number of human selves must be infinite…

-        The number of CURRENT human selves is said to be about 8 billion

-        If all of this is true, what is the probability that YOU would currently exist?

-        So far, my math yields 8 billion over infinity – or, a VERY little more than Zero

- In other words, nobody should be reading this, let alone writing it

- Oh well -- guess I shouldn't bother posting it either...

-        In other words, NOBODY should be reading this, let alone writing it

Oh well -- guess I shouldn’t bother posting it either…

I heard if reincarnation exist then we will eventually reach a final one. However what does it look like is there a way to tell if you or someone is on your last one.

I reach a point in my life where I have no hate towards anyone. And I see everyone as equal. I am also transgender and was told that might also be proof I already lived many lives before. I also heard that if the soulmate thing exists eventually a soul will reach a life where it will not want a partner. I gave up on dating and decided to never again purse romantic love.

Apologies for the long text. I truly have no one else to ask or talk to about these matters.

I am a 38-year-old woman and I have been an atheist for as long as I can remember. Due to my profession (I am a doctor) and my medical specialty, I encounter the death of 2 to 3 adult patients a week. Until the passing of my grandfather—one of my favorite people—12 years ago, I never had any doubts regarding either the afterlife or the belief in God. He reached out to me through a dream, which enabled me to fix an issue regarding a mix-up with his grave (it's a long story). I brushed it off at the time thinking "we are made of energy, and energy cannot be destroyed," but spiritually, this was the first thing that opened a door for me.

Over the last 3-4 months, I started getting interested in spiritual topics. Most recently, a few days ago, I stumbled upon a regression video on YouTube (around 40 minutes long). Deep down, I didn't really believe in it, but I was curious and decided to try it.

First of all, I should mention that the dominant religion of the country where I was born and raised is not Judaism. But weirdly I called my grandma ‘bubby’ since I was a baby. Although I have a few Jewish friends, I have no personal connection or background knowledge, yet I've always felt drawn to it. I tried to understand their language, liked their culture, and could never quite explain this curiosity.

When I tried following this video, after a while, I went to a place I had never seen or known in my life. I saw a manhole cover beneath my feet and the asymmetrical iron frame on it. I saw the unevenness of the cobblestones/pavement stones, and I looked at the buildings. Technical details like the number of floors, the ratio of wooden materials, etc., stayed in my mind. In front of me was a girl around 10 years old; she wasn't my child, but I felt that bored, obligated sense of responsibility as I waited for someone with her. I remember the heavy brown boots on my feet and my long ruffled skirt. The girl was also wearing a dress with a long ruffled skirt. Then suddenly I snapped out of it and returned to my own life. I couldn't go any further and somehow woke up (though I wasn't actually asleep).

When I put all the details together, I researched online and found that it corresponded to a era after 1910. With the help of AI, I saw that it could be a Jewish neighborhood. While examining Prague and Vienna one by one, I was shocked by one of the old postcard photos I found. I am almost 99% sure it was Judenplatz, where the Jewish Museum currently stands.

My question to you is: why couldn't I proceed further, given that I want to see more? Is there a YouTube account or content you could recommend to me? I ask myself if I was just imagining it, but every detail and the feelings I experienced during that moment are so vivid in my mind that I am now certain it was a real memory.

Hello,

I am conducting an archive-based historical research from Turkey regarding the Auxiliary Fire Service (AFS) during World War II.

I am looking for any official war diaries, deployment logs, or station records regarding Ellen Everritt (London AFS personnel, c. 1942 - Mary Evans ID: 46868133).

Specifically, I am trying to verify if any London AFS units or emergency volunteers were temporarily deployed to Yorkshire during the York Baedeker Blitz on April 29, 1942. Additionally, I am looking for civil defense logs regarding emergency civilian evacuations into the vaults of the York Minster Library (The Old Palace) during that specific raid.

If you have any academic sources, declassified service rolls, or local history records regarding these points, please share.

Thank you for your archival assistance.

Basically this post will just be me keeping almost a journal of sorts. I think this seemed like a nice place for it. Writing on paper takes more time and texting myself makes things a bit unorganized lol. Ill probably either edit post or comment if I have any updates. This post will probably be a bit long and boring, maybe cringe too, sorry 😅 just wanted somewhere to record everything in one place. Thanks :)

Oct 17, 2026:

I have always been told im an old soul. I dont remember a specific past life. But i do think I might have sime potential clues.

In dreams: I remember when I was younger I had a dream where I was in an old school. There were wooden sort of lockers, the classroom had a blackboard, and the school had a fireplace. I also remember once how in a different dream I was a young man working in a store, an old lady sort of ran things, and across the street a building vividly had the number "1922".

I havent had too much from being asleep, unfortunately. But a couple things about my interests make me wonder.

I am quite drawn to the USSR and Russia. I think I can recall since Elementary school imagining Russia as a little bit cozy/homey when hearing about it. Perhaps because of climate similarities to Canada? Unsure. But sometimes I will wish for the nation to get to a better place. Sometimes I daydream about living a peaceful life in the countryside there when im old, having a simple house in the vast landscape.

I started listening to old soviet music a few years ago at about 14. I listen to vintage songs from many countries, but I notice that the stuff from the USSR feels a little more familiar. I like to put on that playlist when Im sick. I find it comforting in a way that I dont quite feel with music from Italy, Spain, Brazil, etc. Even though I really like french music and consider moving to France, it still doesnt feel quite the same as the songs in russian.

One other thing Ive started to wonder about is my interest in dance. My interests tend to run in the family. Both my parents are very musical, and many of my relatives are also musical. I share my interest in philosophy with my mother aswell. One thing I havent noticed in other family is interest in dance. I think I may have had one great-aunt that did some ballet, but im pretty sure thats because her mother kind of forced her into being a paegant girl. So not sure how much she actually liked that.

I dont really dance that often. And currently nothing serious either, only the charleston in my room lol. But im very drawn to ballet. I love to watch videos of the iconic variations. I find it all so lovely. I want to be around it all some way. Im not a ballet dancer, sometimes i tried to learn a bit at home from youtube. I tend to spin around the house when i do chores and imagine im in a production lol. Ive highly considered playing piano for ballet classes as a future job. I want to pursue music as a pianist, and i was so delighted when i found my top choice for conservatory was for dance aswell. I hope i could watch them rehearse. I think classical music is general is wonderful of course, but i feel i particularly like the songs from ballet. These pieces are the majority of my favourites (aside from Chopin compositions).

Theres something that happened some time ago, i wonder if its significant. I remember one evening I had casually sort of dancing about in my room (really mostly just charleston style). I thought, what of there was a dance with many kicks, and each kick youd hit something that rings? I dont know if i had anything specific in my mind, something like jangly like bells. Then id learn a couple months later of the Esmeralda variation 😂 and i was like "that's the dance!". Perhaps i had seen it earlier in my life, but i really didnt remember seeing it myself before. I wasnt exposed to much ballet as a kid. Part of me is wondering if I maybe knew about it in a past life. Unsure.

None of this is for sure, but I have a theory that I may have lived in either Russia or USSR sometime in about the last century. And I had some connection to ballet. This may prove to be false. For now, it seems the most likely theory ive come up with for now.

I think im going to try meditation tonight. Ive heard it can help you remember past lives. Ill see if its works for me. If not, ill do some research on other methods.

Goodbye :)

Tenho várias vidas passadas que já comentei e quis falar aqui nesta sub e tive uma vida passada na Índia como uma jovem exploradora Índiana.

Sempre me interessei ver as montanhas no Nepal e do monte everest .

Tenho sonhos vividos já dizem tudo

Me via em preto e branco e via um grupo de mulheres eu era a líder neste grupo

E tinha duas mulheres que devem ter morri*

Sei que estamos explorando uma das montanhas do Nepal.

E hoje a minha prima colocou uma música Índiana no carro e tive um flash de memória

Me via dançado música Índiana e me apresentando para o meu noivo e seus parentes.

Theory and what’s others thoughts on it?

Not sure if this has been talked about before even thought it probably was.

given that memories are neural pathways------

https://www.nih.gov/news-events/nih-research-matters/memories-involve-replay-neural-firing-patterns

scientists are able to remove/reenact a memory in mouse:

https://scitechdaily.com/2026-nobel-prize-in-medicine-honors-breakthrough-that-lets-scientists-control-the-brain-with-light/