r/ReadingSuggestions • u/Optimal-Leg-4658 • 8h ago
My mom forced me to copy chapter books word-for-word in kindergarten and I don't know if this ruin my reading.
Hey all! I'm a current college freshman, and throughout my life, I have hated reading, but that is what I want to change.
Yesterday, when I was reading a research paper, my head started hurting after seeing blocks of text. These headaches apply to almost any source of text I have to read. It's not necessarily that I don't understand the words, but looking at a page literally causes strain in my head.
I'm not sure if it's related to my history of copying books, but from kindergarten until sixth grade, I had a rigid routine. Usually in the summer, my strict mother would make a schedule for me where I had to copy chapter books word-by-word in my notebook for a certain number of pages (like 10 - 25 pages) every day. I would copy from books I didn't even understand at all.
If my handwriting wasn't neat enough or if I missed a single word (yes, she checked), I had to restart the entire thing. I would actually spend from morning to afternoon copying books, until my fingers started falling apart. It doesn't even help me at all.
I don't know. I don't know if this affects how I, from then on, associate with blocks of text. Usually people tell me to read more; it causes pain for me. I tried breaking the texts apart or finding some books to read. Is there a way to retrain my brain to look at text without getting a physical stress response? Thank you :)