I broke up with my ex seven months ago, but as of recently, I've been finding myself thinking and dreaming about her. I think it's been especially exacerbated by our old mutual friend telling me about her new boyfriend. It's exhausting as I broke up with her for good reason. It's odd for me as I can remember parts of our relationship and feel gross, but then still want to go back and contact her. .

I had a brief fling two months after we broke up, but nothing since then.

I don't think I'm mentally ready for another relationship as I crave closeness but also can't stand when people take up my time. I told myself that September was the month I was going to get back into the dating scene, but the thought of being around someone for prolonged periods of time makes me feel physically ill. I feel like I'd just end up getting fed up and repeat the cycle.