I completed the first phase of 68W AIT .. but as of now I have been a medical holdover for around a month due to coccyx, sacrum, and metatarsal stress fractures from BCT.

I can’t do it anymore .. everyone in the army is a reincarnate of satan, EVERYONE and I mean EVERYONE here is so FUCKING EVIL.

I joined the Army with severe ADHD, during BCT (of course) my disorder led me to show symptoms of extreme forgetfulness and an overall inability to cooperate with my “””””battle buddies””””” no matter HOW much effort I put into being a friendly and team-oriented individual.

At Fort Lenord Wood … I had my head shoved into a porta-potty, I had my face bashed in by a girl who knew I wouldn’t do anything back due to SHARP, I was held down and beat up multiple times by multiple people, I had my bunk tossed daily by my “””””battle buddies”””””, I had false SHARP and EO reports against me in hopes I’d be dishonorably discharged from the Army, I had my clothing/hygiene items constantly stolen/taken from me, and I’d be made fun of by 30-60 sometimes even 100+ people daily … I’d be called a retard, a f@g, a low-test sissy, autistic, ugly, malnourished, loser, and etc. I had a 404 on my AFT and I was fucked with for all of BCT for being “unathletic” btw.

My overall qaulity of life became a tad bit better at Fort Sam BUT fuck I still am cussed out and tormented by my peers daily and people are starting to trip me/take my crutches and throw them on the floor, mainly females … All my “””””battle buddies””””” from my original AIT company are laughing at me and spitting in front of me calling me a weak loser and stating that they where “right all along” about me becoming a holdover.

I dream about my ending my life everyday, my whole life will continue to be an extension of high-school thanks to my severe ADHD, kindness gets you nowhere in life, at least … not in this timeline. I’m very quiet nowadays, but all it took was a few fuckups in AIT to re-earn my bad reputation.

I can’t come home to my parents a quitter, what on gods earth do I do. Can I reclass to 42A or some shit ??? like.