I am 27 and currently am a "managing" paralegal and have been in the legal field for 6 years. I do paralegal work in addition to training, hiring, firing, etc. for other support staff. I make a decent salary and have a generous benefits package (in comparison to some of what I see here). I switched to 100% remote after moving to a new state one year ago. I was hybrid and mostly in-person for the first 5 years of my career. I am generally a high performer and want to do well.
I really miss in-person interaction with my team and clients. I feel so stuck and very unmotivated to do literally anything at all ever. I hate remote work. My performance is suffering.
I moved to a state with a significantly lower cost of living. I absolutely CANNOT find a position that offers more than $52-$60k a year. Most positions have "two weeks" (i.e. 10 days) of PTO and no health insurance or 401k options. Taking one of these jobs would be a significant cut to my total compensation.
Another problem is that I get absolutely no feedback from the attorneys I work for or upper management. It has always been this way. I have asked for feedback in the past, but gave up when none was offered. This does nothing but feed my anxiety.
I don't know what to do. I am going insane. My mood, dedication, motivation, etc. is at an all time low. I am so anxious and ashamed of my poor performance at my firm. Taking a cut in pay and benefits does not feel good, but neither does the status quo.