We met in uni as roomates and have been pretty close for the last 6 years. The first year she forgot my birthday we had a big discussion about how much it hurt me and why i felt particularly betrayed (ive explained that being remembered when im not there is a real worry of mine). She remembered last year but forgot again this year.

I dont know what to do. I mostly feel numb.

I don’t know what to do. I let myself fall for him. I told him everything about myself, about my life. We were intimate on the phone. I convinced myself that sending one photo wouldn’t be bad. I regret everything. And it’s all my fault everything is fault.

Why didn’t he tell me. Why wasn’t it enough for me to know that he might have been dating? Why didn’t I give up the first time. But marriage is so different. So fucking different. I wouldn’t have loved him if I know he was married. I know I’m not innocent in this but oh my god I just want to die. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to do. He’s my best friend. I tell him everything. He said he just didn’t know how to bring it up. Why did I have to find out through frikken Facebook? I look like an IDIOT. In really fucking time I pull up his account thinking it’d be funny to follow him, I’d never had Facebook before. And there his status was.

I hate myself. I hate everything about myself. I think I loved him. I really did. I do. I don’t know. Everything is ruined. What is wrong with me? He made me think it could have been different. He said he wanted to be a part of my life too. Why? What on earth why why why why?????

I don’t know what to do. I’m going to burn in hell. I’m disgusting and vile and disappointed in myself. I can’t believe it all. I defended him to so many people and they were all right. They were right. I’m an idiot.

What do I do? I call him every single day for hours. I tell him everything. We spend movie nights together. He’s long distance, if I don’t call or text I’ll never hear from him again. What is wrong with me. I’m so stupid for thinking anything else at all. God I don’t know what to do. I’ve lost my best friend. I don’t know what to do.

I am being considered for my dream job as a college professor. I'm not even 30. Wow. I just got the email and I'm still freaking out.

I told my online friends (acquaintances really), who were not excited for/with me. Instead, they essentially reflected on their own shattered dreams and returned to the previous topic of conversation. I understand their reaction, but I wish someone would celebrate with me.

(I don't have offline friends because...of reasons I do not fully understand.)

Even if I don't get this particular job, there are job recruiters in this world who think I can genuinely be considered for college professor roles, which is making me freak out (in a good way).

As a plus, the amount of money I would make from this job is mind blowing compared to jobs I previously had. I want it so badly but of course, I must keep in mind that it's just a possibility as of now.

I feel so validated in all the life choices I have made thus far. It's amazing, but I don't know who can be happy with me.

I'm in my mid 20s, enby, and a bit of a failure. I have a host of mental problems that, among other things convinced me to stay in a psych ward for a bit and forced me to drop out of university. So, you know, I generally perform worse than your average Joe.

I'm jobless since last month, my last and pretty much only job was... very weird and emotionally draining. Now I'm back to square one, effectively without relevant experience or education to put on a CV, regardless of wherever I'm sending it.

I'm probably going to land a bottom of the barrel minimum wage job, but so far I have been having awful anxiety around the whole process of job searching and haven't gotten anywhere.

I dunno what the goal of this post is, I just feel like I'm in a pretty wonky place in my life and needed to get it out somewhere.

​

Im SOOOOO excited!!!! Its been my literal dream FOREVER to be in a teenage band, and its finally happening!! (In my final year of being a teen, BUT STILL!!!) One of my friends just randomly said to me the other day "have you ever thought of being in a band" AND NOW WE'RE ACTUALLY GONNA DO IT!!!!!!!! I always thought it was a dumb dream, and never thought id even get the chance, since I live in a really small town and ive been "homeschooled" for several years, so i legit cant believe it.

Its going to be a emo pop/punk band (since thats both of our music styles lol, im big on 70s punk, and they love anything 2000s). And we've each got lists of all the songs we'd want to cover/sing. We're gonna just go around a put up posters, and talk to random bars and pubs, to see if we can set up gigs. We just have to get speakers and stuff like that, and we're all set!!

Anyways, im just so incredibly excited!!!!!!!! I dont have anyone else i can really share it with lol

:(

Feeling BAD not back omg.

I’ve been sick with the flu for a week and had to take the whole week off to basically lie in bed and recover. My friend knows my situation. We had originally planned to go on a guided a hiking tour for today (Saturday), bought the tickets a month ago, and I was supposed to drive her there as well, so she can’t go without me. Yesterday (Friday) I had thought that maybe I’d have recovered enough that I would be able to go on the hike, so I told my friend I could go. However last night I barely slept because the fever came back and my whole body hurts 😭 so I texted her at like 1am that I think it’s better if we reschedule. She was understanding, at least not angry over text, but I feel so bad for essentially cancelling last minute, going back on my own words… I know she has been looking forward to going on this tour, as do I, and it’s possible the mountain won’t even let us reschedule. I am planning on reimbursing my friend if that’s not an option, but I feel so bad. I just feel really bad about the whole situation.

Ive lost a 10 year relationship recently after she had an abortion a few years back and we jsut kept fighting. Im still so hurt by everything i have noone to talk to and i just dont know how to move on. I just wanted a family, i really wish my mom was here and i could just go get a hug but shes not and i cant find anyone to hug me anymore as a 28m. I just cry and cry and cry over my baby. Everyone calls me insane or a monster for not supporting my ex. I just wish someone could tell me itll be okay and guve me a hug. Idk if this is the right place for this post. Probably not but i tried.

Yes im trying to get mental help. Yes im okay. Just wish i could have my mom hold me while i cried for a bit. Yeah stupid for a 28 yo man idc anymore.