This year, after 30+ years of collecting fountain pens, my collecting and use dramatically changed. I have a nice collections of pens from vintage Waterman, Parker 51s to M800s, Pilots, Sailors, Lamys. I think over the years I chased the dream of a perfect pen without ever being sure what that was. The criteria has evolved over time which has made the pursuit more elusive. I have genuinely loved many of these pens but there has always been something missing about each. I went down the rabbit hole of flex, titanium nibs, titanium pens for durability, vintage, modern, etc never quite capturing that indefinable "perfection" factor. Often I would have 20+ (at least) pens in rotation, switching between them.
Early this year, encouraged by a nibmeister I met, I took the plunge to start grinding nibs myself. The experience has been a revelation. I watched a few YouTube videos to get started. I use fine DMT plates to grind and Belgium coticules for polishing. It turned out to be much much easier than I feared.
What I have found is that the custom nibs are a completely different writing experience in contrast with standard manufactured ones. They are personalised because, as you grind and polish, you can complete this from your own writing position which means that the tip develops perfect contact and smoothness on the page, tailored your own writing. I can precisely tune how I want a pen to write. I have baked and cut my own quills in the past and the bespoke writing experience is almost identical.
Suddenly I found what the intangible missing factor was. Now I have a subset of my pens that absolutely blow me away because they fit my writing exactly.
As a result I have now settled on a single pen that I am using for everything, something that has never happened before for me. In addition, it has improved my writing and work. I am writing more, both professionally and personally, which has transformed my daily life. I write faster and more fluently, work through problems more thoroughly and completely, I think because the pen nows feels like an extension of my arm and frees me to think without distraction. It just fits. The experience lifts the day, and puts a smile on my face.
For the first time I can remember I am not in search for a new pen. It dawned on me today, is this the end of my pen collecting?
Whatever the consequences I now believe there was a perfect pen out there and it was worth the search. I hope you find yours.