Hi everyone I'm a 20 years old white boy who has been been addicted so sissy captions, sissy hentai, sissy porn, B*mbi Hypnosis and Poppers since I was 12-13 years old (Been doing poppers only since 17 but quickly got addicted to it too).

I always have been a little effeminate and got the "feminine femboy build" which didnt helped with this either...
I never really got any girls attention. So It is part of why the hypnos worked for me (I guess), It quite resonated with part of what I was going through with my life.
Unfortunately, I got really addicted, started crossdressing and all those kind of stuff linked to sissy hypnosis. I obviously wanna "get cured" from that because it is destroying my relations with woman. I am a virgin, and anytime I have a chance of loosing my virginity I kinda stress a lot about what hypnos "taught" me and I end up by ruining my relationship with the girl (not that it happened a lot, but still too many times for me to accept it...)

Luckily for me, I recently met a girl that seems really into me, and I can feel that I might finally have a relationship with a girl. But, still, all of these is making me uncomfortable, I want to get better before it ruins this relationship too.
So I've basically been fully clean on Porn and other sissy things for like, the past 3-4 weeks (4 weeks mark will be Tuesday) but ever since I stopped I am having hard times not thinking about it or keeping those "urges" in control.
Obviously, I know that they arent real urges or anything and that it is just what sissy porn induction has done to my brain, but deep down I know that I am straight.

On top of that, I happen to have a lot of free time for myself, which doesnt help as I often got horny thoughts when I'm bored...
So I'm basically looking for any kind of advice you guys could give, my dms are open if necessary. Sorry for my bad english and grammar mistakes, English isnt my first language.

I haven't acted on the sissy urge in a long time. For recent years, I've taken to complaining about the urgers to strangers on the Internet (that's you dear reader). This has helped me manage my intense feelings without needing to act on them.

While I have been reading and seldom commenting the past few months, is just realized it's been 5 months since I last vented about these feelings.

Not that I haven't had a urge or temptation in that long, but the fact that I haven't posted about it means it has not risen to that level of distress. It means my other coping methods of journaling, distraction, and prayer, have worked!

All that to say, healing and recovery is apparently possible! Who knew? At one point, I could not have believed it if you told me. But here I am, in progress.

Keep it up gang! You got this. Thanks for being there for me.

Hi everyone, I’d like to get your opinion or advice on what I’m going through—sorry in advance for the long post.

I’m 30 years old, married, and my first child is due in January 2027. I love my life and my wife.

I’ve been masturbating to sissy porn since I was about 17, and around age 24, after thinking it over a lot, I decided to give it a try. At the time, I really enjoyed humiliation and wanted an older man to make me feel controlled. I used Grindr and found a 48-year-old man, and we went out for coffee. We talked about what I wanted, and he seemed understanding and willing to do things my way. I asked for the following:

Dim lighting—I wasn’t into male bodies; what I really wanted was a penis to try out.

To be treated like a prostitute—that was my thing at the time.

No kissing or sex without a condom.

He agreed, and we went to his place. As requested, he went into the bedroom and turned off all the lights. When I walked in, he took charge and told me to get undressed.

I gave him a blowjob, and then he said he wanted to fuck me. I agreed and was really enjoying it, but after a few minutes, everything changed. He became more aggressive during sex, told me to shut up and take it like a good prostitute, turned me on top of him, and took off the condom. He told me to bounce on top of him until he came inside me. I don’t know why I agreed. When he came, he grabbed me and kissed me, then told me to masturbate until I came. I did what he said out of pure lust, then we stopped, and I left.

The problem is, it’s been six years now, and I’ve never been with him or any other man since. Even though I’m happy, I still masturbate to sissy porn and, above all, keep thinking about that night—and I’ve even begged him to be with me again multiple times.

Any advice on how to get past this?

Thanks, and sorry for the long post.

I’m 22. I’ve jerked off to sissy/trans porn pretty much since I knew what jerking off was. It’s an incredibly long story about why I got into this shit which can be saved for another time. Ignore my username as this was my old porn account which I’ve since purged.

I’ve found, especially in the last couple of years, that I just can’t seem to get fully hard anymore, and to be honest I don’t really have much of a sex drive at all.

I actually lost my virginity a few months ago to a great girl, but I found that I was always losing my erections and it was slipping out during sex. I never even came inside her as I couldn’t really keep it in for more than a few minutes at a time. I think that’s part of why it didn’t work out between us. I spent more time eating her out than I did fucking her.

I’ve never used death grip on my dick, and I’ve always jerked off quite gently, but my penis just doesn’t have sensation in it anymore, and when she gave me a blowjob or a handjob, nothing was really happening down there. It felt nice but not as nice as my own hand.

I REALLY want to fix this. I want to feel straight and I want to be able to enjoy sex the next time I have it with a girl and actually be able to fuck her. I also don’t have much confidence at all with women, despite many people saying they think I’m quite handsome. I’ve never approached a girl in real life and only met them via social media/dating apps. I’ve never even really been hit on by a girl I’ve met. I think it’s part of the way I carry myself and my presence, which I’m hoping will be helped by fixing the sissy porn shit.

Any success stories/words of advice are greatly welcomed. DMs are open too but I may be a slow replier as I don’t want to be opening this account while I’m out with my friends. Thanks.

Week 2 porn free. Jerked off on tuesday but just to straight thoughts.

I´ve noticed my attraction to women, my sex drive, has really gone up. I finally ´´feel´´ straight. When I get an urge I don´t doubt my sexuality or think some doomer thoughts like that. I understand it´s some wiring in my brain I have to undo.

Because of increased sex drive I allow myself to edge/ jerk off to straight thoughts. Just stricly no porn, I used to think I could watch straight porn but it funnels you to sissy stuff eventually anyways so no porn is superior for sure.

I think a big reason I haven´t relapsed is just because of the desire to keep the streak alive now and the guys that dm´d talking about their fight with the addiction. shout out to everyone that dm´d me, we need eachother guys. This is a community, I used to just roam the sub when I relapsed and that´s it. But now, posting every week, talking to guys here, it helped a lot.

I think as I stay sober the posts will get shorter, but I don´t plan on quitting posting here weekly ever actually, I love hearing everyone´s stories after years of thinking I was alone in the fight.

Feel free to dm me if you want to talk

I have never been with a man, but I'm a closet sissy and I love using toys. Recently I have started being able to have sissygasm after sissygasm and I can't seem to stop. I have constant urges to watch sissy hypno porn and sissygasm over and over. The sissygasm is the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. I love the way it feels, but it completely controls my life. The amount of time I spend catering to my hole and thinking about the sissygasms. From money on toys, enemas, porn subscriptions, I have a fucking machine and paint my toys. I don't know if I even want to stop, it can't be that bad if it makes me feel so good.

I’m struggling really bad I started to wear panties again and told my crush about it now she thinks I’m gay and I’ve fallen in so deep I started taking pictures of myself and dming men on here. I don’t even like men but I love the attention except I know it’s wrong I know I shouldn’t be doing this but I keep forcing myself to keep wearing panties to the point where I’m even sleeping in them so that I start the day wearing them. I started to be able to just say ok I’ll wear them but no porn or messaging but I keep falling in. Maybe I just need to cut it all out? No more Reddit and no more panties?

Dm me with any advice on how you’ve overcome this addiction I’m open to any tips!

I want my life back and iv been constantly addicted to this type of degrading corn, and the genre’s that surround it. Iv been addicted since i was 11 to corn and found this at 13, it started with cartoon style and it’s escalated to real life things which i would find even the idea as disgusting before.

Does anyone have any advice or any help they could give me? I’m going cold turkey off of corn too, and i’m finding that as helping me too

Not sure if that’s the right approach to have but I’m absolutely disgusted in myself and what I’ve done. I’ve purged it all before and I’m about to purge it all again. I’m tired of coming back to this. I have a beautiful girlfriend who’s going to be my wife one day, I want to buy a house have kids the whole thing. I would be ashamed if any one of them found out. I hate myself and what I’ve become. I need to do better, I will do better

Boom we´re back, sunday progress post on a monday.

7 days PMO free, maybe edged for a minute in total but who cares about that, I fought a battle this week and won.

I got some more amateur fights coming up so I got extra motivation to, I guess, be masculine and just in general refrain from pmo.

Everything´s a feedback loop. You dress up and tomorrow the urge to dress is stronger. You text someone and the urge to respond is there tomorrow. You relapse on the porn and the urge gets stronger to relapse tomorrow.

Why? You just did it so the dopamine is fresh. Euphoric recall tells you about how much dopamine you got out of it while leaving the bad feelings out of it, and the memory is fresh.

When you´re reading this stuck in a dressing up bender so to speak, just know, if you manage to get to day 1 pmo free, day 2 is easier, and then day 3 is easier, so on and so on.

I don´t have math but my urges since consistently watching sissy stuff one week ago compared to now aren´t just down 50%, they´re down 80%.

The trick here is remembering this so that if I relapse in the future, I don´t fall into a bender again but remember that if I stay strong, the urges will get weaker over time. A relapse after 1 day pmo free, you have to claw your way over it. A relapse after day 40 pmo free? You can ignore it, urges will get temporarily stronger and that´s it.

You don´t need to teleport to day 100. You need to complete a complete 24 hours pmo free, and then a full week, and then a full month, then reflect back, and continue on. My letter that I have written to me also helps a lot, I just tell myself in it to keep going and envision where I could be in life in 6 months without this addiction.

Big shoutout to the guys that dm´d me last post when I said I was lonely to share their journeys in beating this addiciton. It inspired me and keeps me going. To anyone reading this you are not alone, theire are thousands and thousands of us, look at the views of the videos, hundreds of thousands, how many of them are there willingly and how many are fighting every second to NOT relapse....

Keep going, till next week, sincerely

~Hawk

PREFACE for this repost.

I know this post might be against the general theme and mission of this subreddit (recovery). I harbor no ill intent and this is just story of my life and relationship with this fetish. I hope some will find it relatable and looking forward to any feedback. Thank you. The post is the following:

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I know my story is not unique.

Mother's lingerie and lipstick at puberty, masterbaition with the mirror. Sometime later first trans porn, anal play. Something awakens. What's funny — discovered the term autogynephilia some time back then, and was satisfied with relatable explanation and that it's just a fetish and it's OK.

At 16 discovered sissy hypnosis, mind blown. Like, full on critical system override level. I've been an addict since. All I jerk off or anal play to is either sissy or trans stuff.

Some time then, back at uni started crossdressing, too. It was always, undeniably so, driven sexually. Dress up pretty, do makeup, take pretty and kinky pics, jack off to sissy hypnosis videos. Cum, take it all off in disgust and shame, put everything in closet and forget about it until next time. I'm at my early 30s now and at somewhat of a crossroads. I've been thinking a lot about my life. I know this AGP thing is an inseperable part of me. I honestly enjoy it. I like to look pretty, do makeup, dress up in nice lingerie and outfits that flatter my physique. I don't want to live in secrecy and guilt anymore. I've learned not to hate myself for having this kink, and I no longer remove and hide everything feminine after cumming.

I guess ultimately, I have 3 options going further with my life.

1. Supression. It doesn't work. After some purges, trying to "be normal", hypermasculine compensation (gym, "macho" persona) - it just returns every time, and a little stronger each. I don't want to do it anymore.

2. Compartmentalization - my way so far. Problem is, the mental and life toll is significant and heavy. I don't want to be a dirty secret fetish person anymore. I've learned not to shame. But I also don't want to hide. I want to live a normal life and have a family someday. I love women. Let's be honest and real here, vast majority of women don't like feminine boys. Some might be open and accepting at first, but very quickly it turns to disgust, dissapointment and disrespect. Women are attracted to masculinity and that's that. I also MIGHT like men, but I've been smart enough so far not to hookup with men in the heat of sissy arousal. If I ever try men, this will be from a place of genuine attraction and love. Another critical reason not to do that — I do NOT want to become "that old ugly transvestite". This just might be the worst outcome. I just KNOW, that some day, when I have a family, loving wife and kids, when I supress this kink or practice in secret for that long — there might be a boiling point when Ill just say fuck it and go hookup with random men as a sissy.

3. Soft feminine integration and ultimately, maybe transition. This is what I've been thinking about lately. If I can't escape the circle of guilt and doubt, maybe it is time to reframe it, become the circle. I'm generally a soft, subtle person. Feminine appearance suits me, and I might switch my wardrobe towards gentle androgynous styles at first. I might try and make some female friends without any sexual undertones. Maybe makeup courses and such. And if it fits me as a lifestyle, even with underlying sexual drive beneath it all as a core, so what? Maybe I deserve to be happy and live the rest of my life as a woman, not as a man with dirty secret noone apart from AGP folks will truly understand, and hate myself for it.

I guess this is just my train of thought so far. I'm not really asking for anything in particular, neither encouragement nor critique. Just throwing it out there, maybe someone will find it relatable. Please, your thoughts are welcome and appreciated, kindly.

About 200 days ago, I posted here about wanting to quit this "lifestyle." I'm not completely past it yet, but things are getting better, and I wanted to share what's changed and what has helped.

Where I was
In 2025 and the start of 2026, I went through an intense phase:
- Masturbating daily, sometimes multiple times a day
- Generating a huge number of AI images of myself in all sorts of outfits and situations, which took up a lot of my time and attention
- Crossdressing, posting pictures of myself online, and chatting with people
- Meeting up with men twice for sexual encounters
- Spending a LOT of time thinking about who I am and whether I should transition

What changed and what helped
Eventually, the whole thing started to feel boring. A couple of things still get me going, but overall it's fading, almost as if I've done and seen everything.

Over time, the conversations with strangers online started to feel repetitive. They followed the same patterns, and I couldn't keep convincing myself they were real connections. At the end of the day, it was just kink play.

I also untangled some of my thinking. I believe trans women exist and are valid, but for a long time I had this odd internal logic: if I wasn't trans, then it somehow didn't make sense for anyone else to be either. I know that sounds strange. I also eventually noticed was that those thoughts only showed up when I was aroused, and that I had a pretty distorted idea of what being a woman actually is. I've come to see that some men, like me, are a bit more feminine and submissive than others, and that's okay too.

Recognizing that porn addiction was a big part of what fueled all of this was a turning point. I uninstalled the apps, and even though I still reinstall them now and then, it's far less than before.

Identifying my triggers helped a lot too: weed, boredom, stress, and bad days at work. Just this week, I was feeling down. Before, I probably would have stayed home and gotten lost in the kink. This time, I went out for drinks with friends instead.

More than anything, I focused on understanding the origins and mechanisms behind all of this rather than trying to purge everything overnight.

To give a sense of the change, I'm now down to masturbating once or twice a week. At my peak, I was dressing up three or four times a week. In the last four months, it's been about four times total.

I'm now considering donating my (very large) clothing collection. I held on to it because many people here said purging never actually helped them, and that matched my own experience. Now it feels like letting go might come from a calmer place.

My main takeaway is that I was never able to get my AGP under control as long as I was fighting it without understanding it.

What I've been focusing on instead
I've been putting my energy into sports and hiking, cooking, and being a better, more thoughtful friend. I've started dressing better and practicing talking to women. Recently, a woman actually approached me, which felt surreal, and I think the energy I give off has changed too. Overall, I'm enjoying and rediscovering everything else life has to offer.

The next challenge
This is where a new battle starts. Almost a decade of this, especially the last three years of being deep in it and avoiding relationships, has left me genuinely scared of women. It feels like I'm carrying a big secret that I don't want to disclose to, or impose on, a partner. But now that I'm getting it under control and that it's fading away, I'll allow myself to get back into dating.

Has anyone else been through something similar?

I finally learned that for me most of this addiction is stress relief. But I've been praying over and over for God to take this desire away and he hasn't done it. Right now I'm severely frustrated and I can feel the thoughts in my mind telling me that engaging in this sin will make me feel better. I know the thoughts are lying and engaging in this will just make me feel worse and more likely to do it again. Am I supposed to just suffer through this constantly?

So there's an extreme amount of backstory to my situation, as I've been diligently researching it not only for myself, but to help save my 2 year relationship with my GF.

I had a really bad masturbation addiction that I've seemingly been able to kick, but porn still has a hold on me especially after recent events.

My GF was originally very open to actually letting me dress up and potentially explore femdom stuff, but realized she was disgusted by it and sort of withdrew that space I was able to experiment with,band doesn't give any quarter to anything of the nature. The bitch of it is that there wasn't any thoughts of going and getting fucked by guys or anything. It was genuinely just to dress and to offload my stress for awhile.

Never has the sissy stuff really been attached to men themselves, I couldn't ever find men attractive and I still really can't, the way I worked around this most the time was futanari, which is fortunately impossible. UNfortunately, the and sissy stuff is. And without a non-sexual outlet or masturbating to impossible things, it seems to have taken the form of doubling down on the very real ideas of going and getting feminized by someone, actually connecting and seeking out those things.

We have things left over from when we were experimenting (and actually having a sort of wholesome fun) and recently, for some reason I had been possessed to go and put on/in certain toys, a pair of thigh highs, and this chain necklace that you can pull that gets tighter like it's a collar (my girlfriend bought it "for the free shipping" on Amazon, it's 'ours' in a way)

And I actually POSED and TOOK PHOTOS.

I have NEVER done that, and have had an absolute rule that NOTHING like that ever happen. It happened once when I was really young, an ex during sophomore year dressed me up and took a photo, showing her sister. It felt like I had literally been shot it hurt that bad. So the fact I just DID THAT and didn't even flinch is terrifying to me. It felt like a dream, it was surreal and yet if you didn't know better you'd think it was business as usual.

I can post more talking about how we got here and what the journey has been since starting truly working on this, but I think that's all I care to share right now. I can't sleep as I had a dream about being a sissy. I work tomorrow man ;_;

Triggerwarning, since this is my experience of hitting my personal rock bottom just a couple of hours ago, but I wont be too graphically. Sorry if my thoughts are quiet messy by now.

It sounds made up for sure, but It was real and so are my struggles and emptines after this...

First of all I'm not a native english speaker, so sorry for some grammar mistake or a minimalistic vocabulary.

Over the last 8 Years I struggled with the sissy fetish, grew out of insecurity, curiosity and a sort of wrong safetines but never really "commited" too much.

But I never popped the bubble and actually sexually interfered with another person (in this sissy persona).

Sadly I was incredibly horny for the last couple of days and decided to chat with other people on Grindr were I stumbled on a couple (Transwoman and her bf). I decided to text them playfully which led to discussing a threesome.

Without being too detailed, we transformed the plans to reality, both were honestly very kind towards me, but the longer it went, the more disgusted I felt towards me.

Now I'm just feeling empty, yet my head is full of chaos and thoughts and I have this indiscribable disgusting taste in my mouth even after brushing my teeth like a maniac.

Idk what to do and how to continue tomorrow like a normal functional adult as the "me" I was confortable in.

I'll throw away all the items and clothes and what so ever, but I would like to know what you could advice me after falling in such a pit, full of shame and disgust towards me.

Please help me I fell lost ...

For the longest time I knew those fantasies arose (in my case anyway) from the way I tend to see myself around others, especially other males. It's like I'm stuck in that "shy lonely kid" stage. Any attempt at connecting with other guys ends in shame and the urge to cut ties because of my inferiority complex. These days I want to really try new things, even if that sounds ridiculous. I've started practicing imagined interactions with guys (e.g. at the gym) alone in my room, with a camera, in the hope that I can work with the discomfort and shame in a very dialed down version.

I've also made a selfie and I asked ChatGPT to add a friend to the picture. It's quite brutal. I could never imagine having a "best buddy". The gap between the picture and the actual "me" seems infinite.

I painfully understand how girls/women, and femininity in general, quickly became a safe haven to me when 99% of the boys I interacted with at school felt like brutes, and even when they weren't, after a certain age they just grew into young men while I still felt like a kiddo. And that's how you develop AGP and sissy fantasies, while being a fundamentally cis/straight male.

Does anyone relate? Do you have other ideas of exercises I could try? I sometimes try to do visualization as well, and I don't think I've managed to see myself once (even for a short time) as a normal dude interacting with other dudes. It's crazy.

Hello everyone, I know this could be a strong question but i was wondering if there was someone with experience on this before.

I’m one of those who can’t pretty much control this having tried many many things for 33 years now, at this point i tried accepting it and making it part of me slowly but i feel like this is slipping through my fingers.

Yo guys I´m back, this week we got 4 relapses, ouch.

This addiction is starting to feel like a dragon to slay. I knew it was gonna be dificult, but I didn´t know how dependent I got on porn as stress relief. Although in the couple days were I have been sober, I started to get my attraction to females back very quickly and starting seeing thoughts of sissy stuff as silly.

The porn plays on you trying to get you to think it´s more than just a fetish, but if you manage to stay sober for a little whilte, get hard watching woman and maybe even just jack off to regular porn, you´ll realise that it´s just a fetish and you´re just a straight guy with a porn addiction.

We musn´t fall into despair, addiction might be a dragon but one you are capable of slaying. My addiction bleeds into every part of my life. Making me lose motivation in the gym, keeping me up at night with urges. After a relapse searching for fast food to fill the hole inside. All of my bad habits stem from this addiction.

That´s why to turn my life around, I need to face these demons, there is no future for me with this addiction. When I hang out with friends in real life I feel dirty, tainted, as if I am not allowed to even laugh till I have this beaten and over with.

Quote of the week: ''when you´re waking up the world is a blur. What was clear in a dream suddenly makes no sense. No surreal rescues, no magic way out. But you are awake.''

I have written a letter to myself I´ll try to read when I have an urge. Hope it works, stay strong guys, see you next week. I´m so depressed and lonely. Fuck.

So it's been over a month since I started the no PMO. The first week was difficult and the next week was nearly impossible. I had to delete nearly every app including reddit to fight the temptation. Around day 3, I noticed my morning erections were getting stronger. Then around day 14, I noticed they were always either very weak or I didn't have one at all which was disheartening. Around day 25 things started to get a little better. The urges were still there but not too hard to brush away. The one thing that has been difficult is to not touch just to make sure my equipment is still functioning. Around day 30 I started getting some source of confidence back. I actually met a girl at a bar where I play pool, and we talked for a while. There are some days that I am down and feel worthless because I let myself get this far out of control, and the thought that a minimum of 3 months without any sort of arousal is saddening. But I keep pushing through. It is only by the grace of God that I've made it this far and I turn to Him when I feel weak.

If you made it this far, thank you for taking the time to hear me out. You're a legend.

Hello, let me first start by saying this is not coming from a judgmental place nor am I trying to make you guys feel bad or criticize/ go down the I hate men all male spaces are misogynistic etc etc point we all know too well, I understand as someone who has not had nor gone thru this certain addiction obviously I’m not going to fully understand it but that’s what discussion is for, but I personally think an initial introduction to sissy fetishization content comes from an initial misogynistic view of the female body and role in society, autogynophilia and addictions like this will always be present in heavily patriarchal environments and headspace’s, again I wasn’t raised or around male only intimate spaces but from what I’ve heard from peers and seen from research misogyny as well as the viewing of the female body as inferior almost starts immediately as the brain learns to gather information, I am not saying you are all inherently misogynistic it’s rather a socialization thing from birth normalized language peers, older men/ women, the media, etc specifically tells boys there is a certain way you should view the female body i think that sissy hypno as well as other forms of feminized fetishization is in the degradation category of porn rather then the gay category, I don’t think really any of you are homosexual men or have homosexual tendencies because the initial introduction to this content centers around the objectification of the female role and body in society and if you are what were your first signs? this particularly fetish has to come from the initial view that women are objectively inferior to men in almost every way physically and mentally, I am aware that many female hobbies and forms of expression are inherently viewed as sexual due to patriarchal domination, my question to you gentleman what about being a woman is degrading/exciting, why are female/feminine traits, dress, language and expression viewed as so degrading and erotic? I feel like you men are victims, but not victims necessarily the sissy porn itself, I feel a great first step to break away from this habit you do have to unpack misogyny as well as your view of the female body, like I don’t think it is the literal porn itself because acts and practices of degrading men by placing them in female roles for the purpose of sexual gratification has existed way before the creation of sissy porn vids or that category, I’ve seen similar inverses where women will go through gender transition but not because they feel an incongruous with biological sex and expression but because of an internal hatred of the female body due to sexualization, internalized misogyny and fetishization, i think if you just cold turkey stop jerking off to sissy porn it won’t really do anything until you combat why do you view the female body as inferior I read a lot of “I’m not gay” or “why can’t I get hard and fuck real women” or the whole dirty secret clean conscious thing but I don’t hear a lot of men talking about misogyny aspect to this fetish and again I’m not very informed of the history of this type of content nor am I’m addiction counseling for it so I don’t know what its like first hand but would love to have discussions with you guys

Relatively new to this sub but I need to find out how to stop. I’m sure quitting Reddit is probably good for me in a lot of ways for this but I need to get this out first. Tonight I did my usual of posting around and asking for it, post nut clarity hit and then I regret everything (as usual) I don’t know why I keep going back to it but I need help to stop and get back to “normal” guess I just need to vent and some advice, sorry for the tangent.

Got the problem and now every time I see some of... That mens thing it just triggers myself, I just delete my other acount cuz of all the shit I got there, photos of myself wearing clothes o doing things with ma body. Just i hope I can get some help, this community feels strong so maybe someone can help me with this

DO NOT FALL INTO DESPAIR!

This week we made some progress, instead of 3 relapses, 2 relapses.

I had some personal/work issues and if porn is how you calm down, yeah relapse sometimes follows. But we remain optimistic and we made progress, that is what is truly important.

Sometimes with this addiction you want to isolate yourself from others, DON´T DO THIS. Talking to friends, maybe even female friends (If you don´t have feelings for them), helps keep your mind sharp. Even if it´s through a phone call. You are human, you need social connection to thrive.

In life we are given roles, interacting with people in real life and people you know help you realise your roll is that of a man. You are a man, not a woman. Say it out loud.

I´m reading the handsmaid tail currently Good book, gonna talk more about what I read here. Beating this addiction and the urges here and there is a part of my life, it is not my entire life. You don´t have to dedicate your day to overcoming this addiction to win in doing so.

If you just distract yourself with work, training, meditation, journaling and whatever you can think up and you remain consistent and DO NOT FALL INTO DESPAIR, you will succeed, the question becomes when.