It’s been 5 months of looking for a job. HR calls, interviews, shortlisting, portfolio reviews, tests — I’ve been through all of it. But somehow, nothing works out. Sometimes they don’t even bother giving a response.
I do get some freelance work, but it’s not enough anymore. Earlier, I had a job and freelancing on the side, so things were manageable. Now, everything feels uncertain.
There’s pressure from family, people keep asking whether I’ve found a job yet, and then there are loans and financial responsibilities.
I’ve spent years learning 3D visualization and building my skills. But lately, I’ve started questioning everything. Sometimes I feel like leaving 3D completely and doing something else just to survive.
But the thought of taking another job and never returning to 3D scares me. This is something I genuinely love, and I don’t want to lose it.
Sometimes I even think about selling my PC to pay off my loans. But for me, selling that PC feels like accepting that my journey in 3D is over.
I’m tired of explaining myself to people. I’m tired of waiting for results after putting in so much effort. And I’m tired of pretending that everything is fine when it isn’t.
I don’t know what happens next. I just know that I’m exhausted, and I needed somewhere to let this out.