r/Rants • u/Genetic_Anomalie • 23h ago
Full Meltdown I can't wait until my sisters dogs die.
I'm so tired. My mom got my sister a dog when she was 12, and then another. We've never known peace since then.
They bark, they steal, they suck. I fucking hate dogs because of these dogs. I genuinely.. And I say this with so much Shame in my heart... I genuinely hope they die soon. We WILL be so much happier when they do.
Even though my sister is the owner she moved out to be with her boyfriend after getting into a huge fight with my ma, so the dogs were left here.
You might be confused on how just some barking can drive a family crazy.. Well my mom has SEVERE SEVERE SEVERE ocd from her childhood drama.. Growing up in dirt, now everything must be clean, dogs and clean don't mix. She's beaten these dogs for simply peeing. Then when she screams at them they pee more,
I remember once she grabbed our older dog penny by her face skin/furr and pulled it violently, or another time she grabbed the smaller dog by her coat and picked her up by her skin, then slammed her on concrete.
I feel like I am losing empathy. Dogs never DESERVE to be hurt under any circumstances...but If the dogs would just STOP barking my mom wouldn't hurt them?! (I never hit them to be clear,i try not associate with them) Now I will get hate for all of this.. 'Why won't you report her? Why won't you stop her? ' that woman is the fucking devil. I'm terrified. I hate those dogs. I've literally had fantasies about the day when they finally die. I'm such a horrible person. But ever since I was 12 and we first got the dogs my life has been so much fucking harder. Hearing everyday my mom screaming 'I fucking hate you, you ruined my life by getting animals, I want to burn the house up' she's always screaming at my sister since they're her animals. Doesn't help that my sister also feeds the stray cats so they always hang around here..
This morning was particularly bad. My mom. Got up and immediately started screaming, the dogs had pissed, she started going ballistic, telling my sister she's 'not even that sick' and that my mom is sickee (my sister has EDS and is in hospital A LOT,
My sister snuck into my room, but I hates that. She was just dragging her trouble into my safe space. I'm so selfish. She felt safer here, while maker me feel less safe.
I'm be leaving for rehab in a week. It'll be nice not to get women up by a deranged woman. I hope when I come back, both of the dogs are dead. There's nothing I can do. This woman is a psycho, she won't give the dogs away because 'its inhumane' but she won't stop going badshit crazy whenever the dogs bark or make a mess. I hate the loudness..
There's nothing I can do... I want to like dogs. But I'll never be able to like them the same way ever again.. This is why cats are better.. They're quiet and they don't shit everywhere...