M24 i have been with gf F20 for about 10months the relationship from day 1 has been a roller-coaster she always insults me belittles me i ask her to stop set boundaries and she acts like the best gf in the world for 2 days then goes back to the same rude behavior she even smirks when i break down or have a panic attack. The first time we did something sexual i lasted for a long period of time like.maybe 20mins. Then her abuse got worse i had headaches everyday from trying to guess what version of her i was getting to her just giving me silent treatment, random calls about how other men are better than me one day she loves.me other day am disrespected am losing sleep at night cause one day am the best and she cant get enough of me the other day am a rapxxxxst or pervert cause i tocuhed her and she wasnt in the mood. This also messed me up cause i would just hug her she would just scream randomly and call me bad names or just say stopp nooo and she would be smirking so it made me scared to even touch her. Other days am a disappointment because i couldn't leave work to come get her like i have literally sacrificed my job to be there for her and the one time i couldn't i kissed her she wiped her lips and passed it on my pants and said eww your a disappointment. This led to me being anxious everyday headaches to the point the first time we had sex i couldnt last not once like 5 pumps top i went to the doctor he said it was stress and maybe the person my last ex she would be the one to tap out cause she has problems where she bled everytime we had sex. Just asking is this affecting my mental and physical health i also try to make it up to her by eating her out fi gering her and just ensuring shes satisfied.

My issue has always been that I get to the PONR after the first few strokes during sex so I have been accustomed to flexing my kegels to push the semen back and I could continue penetration for the next 5 to 10 mins before I get a stronger ejaculation urge that I cannot hold back.

However, recently, i am losing erection after I hold back the semen. I guess my body thinks I am not interested in sex any longer.

Could anyone please let me know if you have had similar experiences and what can help me?