I feel like there is literally nowhere to turn. Just had a post removed for being suicidal, too heavy, "asking to be saved". If I'm not supposed to ask for help, what am I supposed to do? Please help.

i wrote this on my FB for context im a disability advocate in my community and am in a wheelchair.

my birthdays are almost always a sore spot due to a LONG history of trauma

I even took my birthday money and bought something for my wife instead. I tried to find something for me but everytime I went into a store, i left and actually went to the local mall foodcourt and quietly cried.

I’ve spent hours crying in the middle of the night for the last few days.

I am desperately trying to be functional but even simple tasks are hard. i’m a front and public facing job and its getting increasingly harder to hold myself together.

i’m also bipolar so there’s that but anyway….

I think I’ve figured out, at least partially, why I’m so sad today.

I don’t see possibility much anymore.

It’s hard to accept that I don’t see wonder in my future the way I once did.

I endure. I adapt. I fight. And too often, survival itself is the reward.

I’ve spoken with my therapist, and something that came out of that conversation has stayed with me:

“You deserve more than a life you can withstand. You deserve a life you sometimes cannot wait to experience.”

That hit harder than I expected.

Will expressing any of this change things?

Likely not.

Tomorrow, I’ll get up and go back to doing what I do. I’ll adapt, endure, and keep fighting for the things I believe matter.

But today, (yesterday)on my 45th birthday, I find myself mourning the sense of wonder and possibility I once had.

I fight for a better tomorrow for everyone. I believe in that fight, and I always will.

I just wish I could still see that better tomorrow for myself.

Maybe someday I will.

For now, I keep going.

Not because the fight is easy, or because the sacrifices don’t hurt, but because I still believe the world can be better than it is.

I just wish, every once in a while, I could feel like I belonged in that better world, too.

I (f24) feel so stupid for posting but honestly I just feel like giving up lately and I have nobody to talk to. My girlfriend of 4 years left me and is already moved on (with a man after she pleaded she’s a lesbian). My 2 “best friends” of 10 years have completely cut me off and I have no idea why.

I feel like a literal piece of garbage. I hate being home but I hate being out. Im overthinking everything over the past few years and trying to figure out what I did that was so wrong for everyone to leave. The moment I wake up I panic, I cry all day and therapy doesn’t help.

We got a dog together that I kept and she hasn’t even asked about her. The guilt that comes with this part specifically is insane.

I must be the worst person in the world because nobody deserves this type of pain. I’m struggling so much I’m exhausted, every night I beg that I don’t wake up the next day.

I don’t even know what the point of doing this is but here I am I guess.

Found out by talking to one of my friends that I was being abused in my relationship and ever since I’ve been so upset and not being able to sleep and binge eating

Hey I need someone to talk to anyone available?

i really just need to get everything off my chest and i wanna talk with someone who’s pretty understanding and not judgmental. also maybe hoping to get diff perspectives and stuff

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It doesn't matter if it is something trivial or heavy, whether you wanna share your favorite song or tell about what's been bothering you, I'm here. You can reach out!

Helllo everyone, hit me up if anyone wants to chat about literally anything, rant or vent about anything, feel free to do so, no judgement.

I like being around someone who is fun to talk to and someone who is lil clingy, and likes to disturb

I don’t mind talking about anything, yapping, venting, confession or whatever.

I’m a techie guy working in IT, I’m 27 if that matters

No restriction on age

I’m tired, exhausted and bored, could use some company, talk and feel better.

I’m feeling a little alone in my addiction and don’t have many people to talk to who I feel understand. Is anyone around who is just interested in some casual chat right now?

I like being around someone who is fun to talk to and someone who is lil clingy, and likes to disturb

I don’t mind talking about anything, yapping, venting, confession or whatever.

I’m a techie guy working in IT, I’m 27 if that matters

I don't know what's happening in my life anymore. I feel lost and confused. I don't know what to do or whom to talk to. I just wanted to share how I'm feeling and know if anyone else has ever felt this way.

I'm offering to write a thoughtful, personal letter to anyone who's feeling stuck, comparing themselves to others, or quietly exhausted from trying to keep up. Comment or send me a chat with what's been weighing on you (as much or as little as you want, a throwaway is fine). I'll read it carefully and write back a letter that's just for you, usually within a day. No advice-dumping, no labels, no judgment, and it's free. I'm not a therapist and this isn't therapy, just one person really listening. If you're in danger right now, please reach out to someone near you or a local crisis line first. (English or Chinese both welcome.)

I’m getting worked up. If this isn’t allowed here, please let me know and redirect me, if possible.

I’m back and forth between stress about an essay rough draft that’s due tonight for my college composition class, and nerve-wracked by midterm politics in my state, which is actually what I’m writing about for my essay.

I wanted to get this done tonight, but not only was I anxious of my time limit, but also emotionally worked up with my chosen topic. My professor has been really understanding with me, thankfully, so I’m not worried about their reaction to a missing rough draft. But I’m frustrated with myself. My schedule, my energy levels, I’m losing confidence in this week. And I’m scared of midterm results that are largely out of my own individual control.

I need to calm down. I’d appreciate someone lending me a shoulder for that.

[26M]