Hi everyone! I posted something very similar to my OF but wanted to add a few pieces of information for Reddit specifically to address some questions and concerns I saw in the subreddit today.

I'm so sorry I haven't posted recently or gotten around to answering comments or messages. The guilt has been eating me alive so while I'm feeling well enough to write a little something, I wanted to take a second to check in and update you 💙

First of all, I wanted to reiterate that you're all so special to me and I'm very grateful and appreciative that you've been sticking with me through these sporadic disappearances. I sincerely apologize for how unpredictable my online activity has been! It may not look like it from the outside, but I truly am trying my best to juggle my health issues, full time work, and remain as active as possible online. I recognize that you deserve much more consistency from me and I'm doing my very best to make the necessary changes in my life to help that become feasible.

Although I've posted new solo content and blog posts since then, there's been some speculation that my recent disappearance has been due to the blowback from the release of my first recent b/g video. Please rest assured the gaps in online activity have nothing to do with the negative reception to the b/g video and everything to do with my health.

On that note, I also saw a comment stating that I'd been hospitalized in April. I've not been in the hospital, thankfully!! I am SO sorry that anyone was under the impression I was hospitalized and I can see how that would cause a lot of panic and concern! That rumor may be coming from the fact that I mentioned seeing a slew of specialists and completing a lot of testing to get to the bottom of my lifelong and unfortunately worsening health issues.

As mentioned in my Q&A video, I was recently diagnosed with hypermobile ehler's danlos syndrome (hEDS). Shortly after that my rheumatologist noted some pretty significant immune dysfunction reflected on my immune panel, which apparently commonly occurs in those with hEDS. I won't bore you with the long list of other conditions caused by my hEDS, but I will say that they are all taking turns kicking my cute little bubble butt lately. It's been a lot of joint pain, nausea, dizziness, fainting, extreme fatigue, neuropathy, and a slew of other lovely symptoms.

The flare ups are unfortunately incredibly unpredictable and usually leave me quite bedridden. I'm struggling to identify what kicks them off or even what helps them subside. It's been so difficult to carve out time to do anything besides work, sleep, and only the absolutely necessary chores. It can take weeks to finally catch up on everything that got neglected and snowballed when I was in the midst of the flare up.

When I'm caught up enough to get a chance to film, a week or two later I'm typically in a flare up yet again, and voilà, I am bedridden and sleeping round the clock. From your end I'm sure that creates frustration. I announce a return after weeks of being away only to disappear once more the following week. I know it certainly frustrates me to be stuck in this pattern, so I can only imagine how it looks and feels from your side of things.

The good news is that in a few weeks I'll be taking PTO from my day job and I intend to use some of the time to reply to your OF messages and Reddit comments and really focus on getting my health in order enough to get some new content out. Thank you so much again for your continued patience and the lovely, supportive attitude you have 🙏

I'm crossing my fingers that I find some good solutions and treatments that reduce these flares ups very soon.

With Much Love and Gratitude,

A Very Tired Dolly 💙