hi, im jae. and im transfem. lately, i confessed to my parents that i was gay/transfem, and their face was disgusted. they told me i cant change my gender, and hit me 2 times with a sharp hanger. i was then forced to pack up my stuff and leave for 2 months, im currently presiding in a hotel i have booked since i saved money for therapy and for my budget. i currently work in a convience store down the road of my house, but i was fired today for not attending. can anyone give me tips on how to get another start? i keep getting mental breakdowns. ty

I’ve needed money for a few years now for disability aids and gender affirming things like binders and packers but I don’t have any income from a job as I’m unable to for multiple reasons and I can’t ask family or friends due to lack of support from family and I don’t think my friends have much to spare nor would I feel comfortable asking them either even though they support me but I’m unable to set up a GoFundMe due to being under 18 so I have no way to get money and my mental and physical health is just going more and more downhill as I have nothing to help :(

Yeah hormones did some shit but if i had the choice id choose to get euthanised. Everyday i yearn to be put down like a fucking dog because my life is a worthless piece of shit. I never get any fucking break. All of my dysphoria has been and is genital based. Prosthetics don't help and bottom surgery isn't covered where I live, there also are no private insurances that would. I cant fucking afford stupid phalloplasty why the fuck is my normal life locked behind such a ridiculous fucking pay wall. I wish I was fucking dead this is not worth it I dont wanna fight for a life I dont even want. I cant fucking live im genuinely going fucking insane this is not a life im being fucking tortured everyday and theres no ease to this pain. I don't deserve to be alive i wanna be put fucking down please get me euthanised i fucking hate this useless "life". It never gets better It never gets better

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This probably wont do numbers but I just need some kind words so I dont go absolutely insane and fcking tear my fcking eyes out. Just to know that there's people out there like me. That this js abnormal, this is crazy. I just needbto knownthat theres a rainbow after this horrible horrible rain. AND YES MY TYPING IS TERRIBLE I HAVE GIGANTIC FCKING OHRE FINGERS & IM A PLANCK LENGTH AWAY FROM MENYALLY FCKING BREAKING DOWN

TL;DR: girl mode public first time, fantastic day, ears pierced, mother discovers, father makes me question validity of my identity and goals, mother makes me hate her more, dissociate in my room with a fidget without phone or internet.

I hyped myself up to get my ears pierced for close to a month (see some previous posts.) I went out today in... mostly girl mode for the first time ever!! Felt good amd happy and fem all day. Got a collectively huge arm full of girl clothes from 3 different thrifts! Including a nightgown that ive been looking for.

Last thing I did was the piercer at the tattoo shop, bcus i was expecting to leave in tears and not feel like doing anything else! >.< Had a personal emotional high today here. I just kept hyping myself up and getting so excited. "I DONT CARE WHAT ANYONE THINKS!" And jumping around. The piercer was incredibly nice and informative. Her room was full of ɓ¡ɓ/€ quotes, but I tried my best toignore them... Totally painless, btw! Great experience except for what comes next.

I was petsitting fornmy auntie this weekend so I was expecting to be able to ride out the first night & like wash all my girl clothes booty treasure stress free. Came back to her house tona text were coming back, bcuz everything suxks. Hurried to pack everything and feverishly wash off my meagre makeup bcuz my aunt doesn't know. Get done fast so im out an hour before they arrive.

Came home & stayed happy/normal for about 6 hours. I did my clay. And I even made an actual (wobbly) vase! I do my pottery at the dining table whice is right next to the sitting are and tv. They were encouraging me the whole time I was making something. Put on somwthing educational about pottery, telling me how great I am for doing it. FUXK JUST PIXK A SIDE ALREADY.

put my pot away and started putting my toys/pottery molds away. mother noticed my retainers & demanded i take out my retainers. "You can either take those out or get out. You'renot staying here!" I instantly complied and I hate that I did. My dad said "You're not pitiful. You're a nice MAN. I dont know why you have to do this to yourself." I couldnt answer him. Because I dont KNOW why I have to do this. I just know innmy heart of hearts that I HAVE TO!!! I couldnt say that without crying ao I just said idk. I went to go ask for my retainers back so maybe I could wear them when she wasn't around and maybe they would still take. Put my hand in her poopy bathroom trashcan looking for them. All she WOULD FUCKING SAY IS "THEYRE GONE"!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! I proceeded to sit in my room for 3 hours, before I came to get my phone and my 3ds.

Safe to say, it's not about my earrings or my piercing or my 70$ effectively wasted. ... well it is a little bit lol. I was really looking forward to wearing femme dangly earrings. I think i fcking hate my parents. I sure dont like then anymore. Their love is conditional to the fact that I stay a christian, straight male. Aint none of those things true anymore. Im a atheist, bi, trans girl. THEY BOTH HATE ME FOR IT!!!

My parents that are supposed to love me and support me no matter what. And I have to do the absolutely ONE thing that will make them hate me. My mother is the best... father has his moments too. I'm thebproblem here, I should just give up and just survive trying to live as a... *gagg, retch* male. The male they want me to be. I DONT WANT TO!!!

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Does anyone feel like they're just fading into the dark because they aren't able to express their true self.

I've gone through so many friends who I thought were good because one of the members of a group is transphobic and the other group never acknowledges my coming out and I feel like I have to live up to such a high standard of being feminine and also ignoring my own mental health issues because a lot of my stress atm is purely my dysphoria and transphobic family etc.

I'm trying to avoid a severe depressive episode by going to counseling but also I know I have surrounded myself with the wrong group of people but I also don't want to come out in my final year of uni because I know that there's a chance I'll become even more isolated from my classmates.

I dunno I guess I'm ranting about this and hoping I'm not the only one in this situation and hopefully get some advice?

I am seeking guidance regarding healthcare pathways for my teenage transgender daughter, who has been living presenting as female for four years. She is eager to begin medical transition and wants to be taken seriously by specialists

We are currently facing long waiting lists through public healthcare, and we have been advised to consider private care or UK-based options. I want to ensure she receives the support she needs while carefully navigating her safety and well-being. Any recommendations or insights from those with similar experiences would be greatly appreciated

My name is Saida Mahoney and I am 30 years old and this is my story.

MY STORY. MY BODY. MY JOURNEY. MY NEXT CHAPTER. THIS IS MY LIFE, AND I’M LIVING IT AUTHENTICALLY!!!!

Tonight, I’m sharing some BIG and deeply personal news about my gender-affirming journey!

After working hard to coordinate my care, advocate for my needs, and make thoughtful decisions with my medical team, I’m excited to share that I’m moving forward with my upcoming laparoscopic unilateral oophorectomy.

This is another significant milestone in my journey. It’s a decision I’ve made in collaboration with my care team, with my health, my goals, and my future in mind.

And tonight, I’m celebrating this next big chapter

I’ve put so much work into my gender-affirming care, and I’m proud of myself for continuing to advocate for my needs and work with my medical team toward my goals.

I know that every person’s journey is different. There is no single way to be transgender, no single way to experience gender, and no single path that defines everyone’s life.

For me, this journey is personal. It’s about making informed decisions about my own body, honoring my goals, and continuing to live as authentically as possible.

I WAS BORN TO DREAM. I WAS BUILT TO BE FEARLESS. AND I AM STRONG ENOUGH TO WRITE MY OWN STORY!

I’m excited. I’m hopeful. I’m proud. And I’m ready to embrace this next chapter with an open heart and a fearless spirit.

To everyone who has supported me, encouraged me, and respected my journey, thank you for being part of my story.

And to anyone out there learning to trust themselves and find their own path: keep dreaming, keep believing, and remember that your story deserves to be told in your own words.

THIS IS MY LIFE. THIS IS MY JOURNEY. THIS IS MY NEXT CHAPTER. AND I’M JUST GETTING STARTED!

#MyStoryMyJourney #GenderAffirmingCare #TransJoy

Pretty much what the title says. Last night he told me that I can’t really, truly love my Girlfriend romantically because I’m Trans (and he’s saying that in a homophobic way because he doesn’t accept me as trans) I feel like hearing that from him genuinely fucked me up a little. I called him cuz I missed my mom who passed away (which is also a rare occurrence I was a little drunk but she really didn’t care for me at all) but somehow every call always turns into a religious argument. I just feel defeated.

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I’m tired of fighting for the right to exist, I’m done trying to be happy, and literally no one would miss me. I don’t want to suffer anymore. I’m tired of being trans in a conservative space I can’t escape, I can’t find work I’m tired of living I have no more dreams left

I promise that I am not a conservative trying to win an argument. I am a transsexual male seeking some sort of masculinizing bottom surgery, I believe either would provide me with relief. My top dysphoria is well managed with the tools at my disposal and I am fortunate enough to not have any issues passing. I have been on hormones since I was younger. I have tried virtually every type of therapy and do not know how much longer I can make it with my genitals as they are. I exercise, yes. I have also been using prosthetics but everything feels fake no matter how “realistic” it is. I just want to feel comfortable in my body not in my clothes. I feel so weak in comparison with how well others are able to handle it if they even deal with it. Again, I don’t know how much longer I can make it in my body as it is.

I’m asking for any resources for a sex change at 17. I turn 17 at the end of October.

Hi dolls who are Reading this post i don't really know where to start but I'm 18 years old and I'm a mtf I was thinking about starting diy hrt for over a few months because in My country the legal age to start hrt is 21 and a few days ago I open This to My father and he get very angry and he used mouthful of swear and slurs...to be honest i really get sad and worried but nothing bad happened at least for now yesterday i went to my therapist and I mentioned about this and she said i didn't know that was possible and after our talk with her she talked with my father (i go to therapist with My father) and after our therapy session my father said that if i start diy hrt i will lose all of This love and sport i try to explain why I'm wanting to start diy hrt but he said that I'm not a doctor and it's for My own good now my only option is Left to go abortion or just waist until my 21 and wish for a miracle that i can start hrt or i will start diy hrt and try to hide My change's...i don't know what to do I'm feeling strapped and hopeless

If no one answers this at least I can use this burner account to get this off my chest.

I’m attracted to men too. I am a bottom now.

I don’t know, I think I’ve always been this way, maybe hrt just brought it to the surface.

I just don’t wanna lose my girlfriend. She’s cis and she doesn’t understand a lot of things about how it feels to be trans. Whether it’s t4t or a man or whatever I wanted to consider going poly. We almost broke up right then, she was so upset.

I love her.
I don’t wanna lose her.

Am I being selfish for wanting the chance to explore my sexuality now that I’m finally in a body that I feel comfortable and free in?

We’re both early 30s, both have a lot in common, and we’ve been together over a year. Idk where to go from here.

EDIT: I am not asking for electrolysis nor surgery advice. I am asking how to tell my partner that I did not unalive myself because of her, but rather because SURGERY IS NO LONGER AN OPTION. PERIOD. Thank you!

ORIGINAL POST: I think I'm really out of options for getting electrolysis, thereby bottom surgery. The only thing keeping me alive for the past few years has been the prospect of bottom surgery. I have absolutely no will left to continue on.

Idk how to tell my partner that I'm finished living, without her blaming herself.

I’m a transwoman, and been on hrt for years and i have potential to be a baddie, but losers cockblocked bottom surgery the moment i started hrt, and it doesn’t make sense because being a girl made me confident, happier, and stay alive- yet they cockblock surgery to make me fully transition?!?! How tf does that make sense?!?

Plus they even had the audacity to fake concern for my mental health which is textbook manipulation just so they can justify cockblocking surgery to try to really make me question my sanity and second guess myself!! And people think I was just attention seeking and manipulative when I tried to get help and talked about my suicidal thoughts. If that’s the case, maybe killing myself is best after all by jumping in front of a diesel on the highway!! Because i know if i don’t fully transitioned to female, I’ll be disrespected and treated like a subhuman that isnt worth shit!! And worst of all, I don’t want to be seen as a gay crossdresser or a femboy because I’M A WOMAN!!

maybe kms will make them realize what a amazing girl I am once im gone and regret treating me like shit when they cockblocked surgery and tried to misrepresent me as mentally ill just so they can go and try to control my life and make me not have any say in my own fuckin life!! Who the fuck wants to live a fucked up life that way?!?! NEVER ME!!!

Like I said: i just wanted to be a happier prettier girl since I was a kid— is that so much to really ask?!?! NO!!! There really isn’t excuses for them to screw around with my identity and my life because they let 8 year old girls in beauty pageants, they let preteen girls wear makeup, and they let teen girls dress like sluts which makes men catcall them and give them whatever they fuckin want!!

So I’m not going to lower my standards and betray myself just because these losers want to prevent me from being my authentic self as a woman!! And who even gives a flying fuck about what I was born as?! That’s the past which DOESN’T exist anymore!!

I apologize if this sounds unorganized or generally nonsensical. I've been struggling deeply this last week and I'm losing my ability to be concise.

I'm a 22 ftm guy in utah. I've been 'out' to my family for around two years, but I've had issues with gender since I was 14. my parents aren't fond of my identity, but they respsect my chosen name and pronouns.

The difficult topic for them is being publicly trans. I've wanted to start hrt badly, and use my chosen name at my job. My mother is convinced it'll only draw negative attention and get me hurt.

I do acknowlege the issues that'll come with being visibly trans. It's something I've had to wrap my head around over and over and over again. It scares me. But what scares me more is living in the decaying image of someone I cannot recognize. it feels like a humiliation ritual; pretending so I don't risk backlash from my family.

they say they love me. I believe them but this doesn't feel like love.

realistically, I could start hrt without their blessings, but I'm terrified of what that'll do to our family. I don't know how my mother will react. I don't think she would kick me out, but I can't be sure.

My goal was to just repress until I could move out and have a good job. that is feeling less and less feasible with how often I find myself melting down over just going to work and being greeted as a woman.

Haii all, I'm 17, MtF, I've known since I was 10 and long before I knew what "gay" meant, felt this way since before so.

My house is conservative and transphobic, my parents are polyamorus, but it's okay when they do it, apparently. My brother is Christian and everyone else is agnostic, everyone is conservative, though my brother is more centrist than them, but still queerphobic. Both of my mothers know, my biological mother convinced herself that I grew out of it or some shit and my step mother never said anything about it, they found out when they went through my discord messages with my friends. My father doesn't know.

So I wanna leave asap, I wanna be myself for once in my life.

When I turn 18, I will still have to finish highschool because I was born in late September, so I'll be 18 and a half when it's done.

I cannot become financially independent as of now because I live in middle of nowhere in Florida, and am unable to get a job, and I can't drive because I don't have a car.

I've planned to move in with my best friend from elementary school once we turn 18, she was born a few months after me.

I'm planning on becoming an electrician or something and going into a trade school as soon as I leave highschool.

I'm thinking of doing DIY until I can actually speak to a therapist or whoever so I can actually get it properly done by a professional. But I have no idea how.

My Christian brother is controlling and evil. One day we were driving in the rain and I pointed out how the streaks from the windshield wipers look like a rainbow. He then went on a homophobic rant. Another time I wanted to get an Against Me cd and he started going off saying all trans people are toxic and brought his friend into it just to berate me. I had panic attacks for days after that. Another time at an anime/comic convention he was trying to control what I buy. He's always trying to control what I buy. Now he's trying to control who I vote for, and he went on a rant the other day supporting corporations and AI data centers. He just got mad at me for having a doll hair brush because I use them for my toys. I've never had a positive experience with Christians and I'm convinced they're all like this.

Looking for some possible advice/venting?

Honestly having a little bit of a dilemma, one of my younger siblings and I are queer/Trans. They are MTF and I'm nonbinary (been on T for almost a year atp) In short my sibling and I have no relationship, we havent talked in almost a year now due to poor decisions of their own. Recently I found out they had legally changed their name to Lillian..and my legal name is Lily. I don't plan on changing my name legally as it was used on a lot of legal things like my partner and I's car, mortgage, etc.

The only reason I found this out is via our mother telling me, and my sibling telling her "since they dont use Lily anymore I'm going to" (I use Alex as a nickname but most of our family still calls me Lily which is totally okay)

I'm just shocked, dissapointed, and have a lot of negative feelings towards it as it's almost like my identity is being stolen if that makes sense? And it genuinely weirds me out that they would do that considering my sibling and I do not have a relationship at all.

I'm just looking for any advice/help because I genuinely dont know what do to? I've tried reaching out to them politely wanting to have a conversation but I get met with no response every time.

Atlas here! Everyone calls me Apollo though, I'm 16 stuck living at home with my mom and stepfather (it's not too bad but let me explain) So I recently came out to my mother, she's supportive of me but my issue is that my stepfather (despite being a good man) is HEAVILY transphobic. This is my safest place to live right now and I'm not quite sure what to do. Do I stay in the close till I move out or do I come out and deal with the drama? What would you do in my situation. I work for my stepfather at the autoshop so there's no hope of that. And I'm broke because of court currently. Any advice? Thanks for reading Apollo Out. (Love you guys :3)

“Hi, I am a mom trying to fund my daughter’s gender-affirming surgery completely on the low because our immediate family is unsupportive and unsafe. I made this private account just to organize her mutual aid.

Since I can’t post this on my personal pages, I am relying entirely on the community to get the word out. Would you be willing to share her fundraiser link with your followers or network? It would mean the world to us. Thank you for your advocacy. Link: https://gofund.me/08f920664

Hello a little context to my life I am m21 I live with my parents and I work with my father my parents aren't bad people but the culture I live in and what they believe in is very right wing I believe they would not support my decision at all and would probably disown me that being said I would not like to live in the culture I am living in right now anyway and especially not if I was trans recently after many years of wanting to I bought fem clothes and started dressing/acting like a girl online and it's the happiest I've felt in a long time and there's a huge part of me that just wants to leave everything move to a new city on my own and become a girl and have a fresh start to my life my problem is I've worked with my father as a builder since I was 16 in my culture we don't go to school or college or uni men work with the fathers untill they work by themselves and I do not know what I would do for money if I left as I know how hard getting a decent job is right now in the uk for anyone I have saved around 20k in my bank account and I have alot of money in cash aswell so theoretically I think I could hold myself up for a little while but idk what to do after that I enjoy my job doing building work but idk if I'd be able to continue on my own as a mtf and I feel like I'd want something more gender affirming yk but please if anyone has any words of advice I would be greatfull thank you (I live in the uk for context I also have my own car that's mine) also sorry for bad grammar I'm struggling to write this