Here we are again, a cosy Friday evening, letting go of the stress of the work week, a mug of chamomile tea, the warmth of which contrasts with the fall chill in the air. A warm cup of chamomile and my thoughts straying while working.
I find myself back in England, adjusting to the slower pace of the season. Moving more inward from reflection, taking more time for rest and recovery while still pushing ahead with my ambitions. The idea of ANR is like a lovely glowing ball of light inside a 3-dimensional spider’s web. Perhaps the perfect person is waiting just around the corner, and all of the future paths of this timeline would shift around this moment and time.
It feels like this would be the point in the personal where I’d sell myself to you. “Sell me this pen.” And, for the right person, I’d be very much enamoured with the idea of our potential connection. At the same time, I’m also happy, content. Life is good. I’m looking for much the same vibe in whomever I connect with. Someone who doesn’t need me in their life to be happy, but is much happier by proxy of my existence. A potential deep emotional connection that brings joy, love, laughter, affection, and warmth, but if it were to fade, wouldn’t bring destruction and despair.
If the universe deigns to have someone special reading this – I like to learn the little things. Hear the stories you were too shy to share with anyone else, see the way your eyes crinkle when you share something that genuinely makes you happy, create a meal together from what we have at home in such a unique way we ponder if anyone else has ever tasted what we’re experiencing. Someone who enjoys the life and beauty of this world – someone who would share themselves with me – the softness of your chest, the joy of your embrace, the same way that I’d share my joys and passions with you.
I work in Tech (so generic), even though I trained as a psychoanalyst. I’m a neurodivergent hobbyist, currently brushing back towards web development, expanding my breadth of electrical engineering with a mild emphasis on off-grid survival (electric power from recycled electronics and efficient purification of rainwater). I’ve temporarily switched from Muay Thai to boxing; I model from time to time, and I’ve gotten back into sprinting, which just feels incredible both physically and for mental well-being.
I don’t have a perfect person; I have a vibe. If my writing makes you feel something – even mild curiosity- please do get in touch. I really love to receive detailed messages, especially when they talk about who you are and what you’re looking for. I will say that if your intention on this subreddit is to find a boyfriend/husband and ANR is a side component, and if the desire to find someone is particularly urgent/intense, I am probably not for you.
I am open to connections in Europe and Asia, but to draw me out there, you would have to be someone of incredible proportions, substance or both.
Warm regards,
C