hii, im questioning if im a lesbian or not, because i have prominent attraction to fictional men, yes, very embarrasssing to say!!! i only look at real men for validation because of some issues i have but im aware of that, but am i a lesbian or bi if i am attracted to male characters ?? and some celebs

hi sorry in advance I'm terrible at writing and Wording stuff to start I've only been feeling This feeling for about 6 months now I Want to be a girl I think I'm trans Also when I think about myself being a future parent I don't want to be a dad I want to be a mom I've told two of my sisters and they support me but when they called me a girl or they call me a pretty or beautiful I don't get massive Euphoria I kind of feel Numb to it I kind of feel like I'm Faking it And when I wore some of their clothes I felt The same kind of nothing i Also have a feeling in my chest like something missing I feel ok in my boy clothes but i feel super naked without a shirt on And if I have a choice I almost always pick a girl on the video game And I used to role play as Girls On AI chat bots And I Fudging love Yuri or any wlw It got to a point where I was Jealous of the couple Like I want that And I don't have overwhelming dysphoria Like I can go days without even thinking about it like makes me feel like I'm faking it And I'm so scared about my future with all the things going on in the world right now I don't know what to do I'm sorry if this was too long and worded weirdly I just want to know if I'm trans or not