Hi!
I am a current first-year at UVM studying neuroscience and film. I have so many interdisciplinary interests. I love science, but I also have such a passion for the arts and could see pursuing a career in film, music, dance, acting, PA, doctor, scientist, etc. I love UVM's campus, and my professors + research opportunities are great. I pay about 20k a year out of pocket through merit scholarships. However, a part of me feels off here. It's a very big school, and the social scene is not great for me. I have a couple of friends, but Greek life has a strong presence (which i hate), and I feel overwhelmed all the time and very isolated. While I consider myself very liberal and outdoorsy (which i thought UVM would match well with), I still feel so off here. Plus, most of my family has gone to college in New England and has pursued science careers, which i like, but part of me wants to break free from that.
I am an independent student since I've lived with my grandparents most of my life. I almost applied to Oxy when I was in high school but thought it was too far. Part of me wants to go to college close to my hometown, but not for my family but for my friends. But I also want to put myself first, and I think that the part of me that wants to stay close is just the comfort I have with it already; change is scary for me. I live in Maine, and even 4 hours seems like a long time, but I think it's mainly the odd amount of time, like I could go home for the weekend, but it's a lot of work, and knowing I'm close also feels odd, like, oh well, I might as well be home.
The arts scene and science combination is considered so weird in New England (maybe everywhere), but when I visited LA, I saw so many different types of people with different interests. I want a school environment where I feel safe, listened to, and supported. I struggle with mental health and a rough childhood, and I feel very disconnected from resources and other people here with similar struggles. I feel so out of place. I have accommodations that I did not have in high school that help a lot, but still, the discipline here is not good. Nothing has been done about assault allegations, and they treat harassment like it's something to push under the rug.
From what I've seen, Occidental looks pretty tightly knit with so many different interest opportunities. Am I correct? Could Oxy be a good fit?
I realize this post was a bit everywhere; I just have a lot of factors that are playing into my decisions and outside factors both for me and against me.
Thinking of applying for spring term, but that could be soon?
If anyone has any advice or input, lmk!
I took 10 APs in HS, lots of extracurriculars, and an unweighted 3.79. My grades are average right now in college. We haven't done many exams yet, and I haven't been as motivated here as I was in high school, so the rest of the semester is a bit up in the air,