Hi guys I’m a 21F, from the outside I live a great life I attend an Ivy League school and I’m conventionally attractive I care so much about my looks. However I’m an ex drug addict (none of my school friends know) and one month off Crystal meth, alcohol and cocaine. I’ve always struggled with anger and my family fucking hates me. I hate school, I hate having friends, I hate socializing, I can’t get out of bed unless one of my AA friends drags me out of my apartment. I’m about to fail out of a college I worked so hard to get to and I feel extremely suicidal recently. I feel like the biggest burden to my family and those around me it seems as if everything I touch turns to fire. Has anyone else felt like this, what helped you? I’m completely not feeling like myself anymore I’m so sick of feeling this way

Can depression be completely cured through therapeutic activities? Reddit has really opened my eyes; I’ve learned that in some countries, psychiatrists may manipulate patients into taking excessive medication and attending frequent consultations—even when such high doses of medication aren't actually necessary. (I’m no expert, but I’ve heard that for some medical conditions, taking too much medication can lead to addiction essentially because certain drugs have effects similar to those of addictive substances.)

A few years ago, there was a surge in advertising campaigns for depression treatment in my country, which led me to wonder: is it possible to fully recover from depression without medication? Could it be as simple as ensuring a patient exercises, eats a balanced diet, and cuts down on sugar?

I'm 20 years old, but I feel like I've been in stasis since I was 14. I look a little different but mentally I don't feel like an adult. My life also isn't different.

I'm in school. I can't drive. My card has the minimum limit. I have no credit card. All my friends are from highschool. I'm depressed and I think about killing myself sometimes. I can't imagine having a full time job. I cry at the smallest things.

Is it over. Be honest. Is it over for me. I don't think I'll ever be an adult.

Most of you will relate to the wish of have someone who genuily loves you, even if you are a weird person who struggle with social interactions but you make in effort to be better and when the another person recognize this and accept you it should be one of the most nicest thing in the world.

I wish had someone to wait for me when i came at home tired from work and hug me and say i love you, being able to cry next to the person and venting about my problems without judgment being able to give love and affection i already can imagine the scene in my head of a woman who treats me like that.

A woman who doesn't care about my height i am 5"6 and she loves me even though.

im 17 and I think I am a total fucking loser. I’ve had depression since I was 11 and anxiety for even longer that’s gone untreated, so I just sit in my room all day when im not doing school (or on the rare occasions I decide to actually attend the gym). any hobby I ever had I’ve quit and now I have nothing. any good opportunity ive ever gotten i just throw away and waste it. I don’t even have the motivation to have a hobby or do anything anymore. im a genuine fucking nobody. I barely have any friends. the friends I do have like their other friends more. I’ve dropped a lot of friends because they ultimately thought I was annoying and I was only hanging around them out of desperation. I might not even deserve friends atp because I always say or do stupid things and sometimes end up hurting people (not physically but ykwim)

I will always be a loser. I will never have a good life. I blew it.

Please don’t bully my typing I have autism and it’s hard for me to write sentences. I used to be thin at 18,19 years old and guys would be interested in me but I was very bad with makeup so I think I didn’t look good in real life I think I don’t know. I had a curvy slim athletic body but even when my body at my peak I was treated badly. Maybe it’s my face??? I look ugly??? I just don’t look good??? I take selfies and I feel pretty but when my parents take a photo of me I look insanely ugly and now I’m even more uglier than ever because I’m fat from eating too much. I’m 22 medium fat I’ve been working my ass off since last year to get my dream body I was hitting abs hardcore for two weeks and it really helped me lose weight and then I tear my ACL and because of that I get fat again and I got this wave of despair. My parents last year tried to get me on Ozempic and this year I’ve had enough so I might use Ozempic for three months, my therpist also said it helps people getting their shit together I don’t have my shit together at all, My room is a mess all the time for months it’s insanely hard for me to do easy tasks because i have cognitive disfunction issues. I just hate my body and being fat makes me look ugly I get jealous of fat people with pretty faces and I feel ashamed
for feeling jealous. I wonder if I am ugly maybe I’m scared to admit I’m ugly. When I go on dates from online they always end up Flaking on me when I meet them in real life and I feel disappointed . I used to wish for romance thats like this manga called Veil. Go see the stars with someone and go to a cafe and talk for HOURS and maybe he would gift me little things or handmade gifts pick flowers for me and give me bouquets. I’ve never received flowers from a guy THAT WANTED to gift me flowers if I was pretty maybe they would. The only time I was gifted flowers was a rose bouquet apology for him making me wait for four hours. Stupid man. I want a tall sweet handsome man with muscles that’s a gentleman to talk to me but I’m just not pretty enough and I’m dirty now for giving up at 18 on love giving away my first kiss and my body to random people that don’t gaf. Recently, I look at this handsome nerdy guy on instagram our hobbies match and he loves Jojos Bizarre adventure but he’s wayyy too out of my league and I get sad. I would bake him really good sad girl moist banana bread. It’s sad girl banana bread because I make it sadly because I’ve never had a boyfriend and I wait for the day for him to appear which will maybe happen??? There’s a lot of people who get married so if they get married maybe I’ll get married and maybe I will find a handsome man. The Handsome Instagram man reminds me of the Girl from Impanema song. Except, he’s not a girl maybe I’ll get his attention if I draw him. I’m good at capturing emotions and that’s romantic. I’m good at drawing. But in the end, I’m ugly all roads lead to Rome. I wish attraction wasn’t so look based but now it is because of social media because everyone hyper focuses on looks. I don’t think I’ll find an handsome man because I have high standards. I want to build better boundaries this year and not give a shit about anyone’s opinion and make money after I heal my acl. I think my acl injury is making me depressed I’m wishing for things to go well after I get surgery in a week I’m nervous. Anyways goodnight 🌙 if anyone read this thank you for reading. If you want my secret sad girl banana bread recipe I’ll share it.

Tomorrow is my birthday. I’ll be 35. I feel like I’ve not gotten anywhere in life. Yes, I have a job and a degree. I recently moved to a bigger area for more opportunities. I want to try to be happy tomorrow. I hope I am. But, I just don’t want to get older and have nothing to show for it. I feel anxiety. 35 is almost 40! Does anyone else hate getting older?

I need someone to talk to. I can’t believe what I’m going through. 33 and with her for 14 years married for 6 and we have a 5 year old little girl. It’s 3am i work at 6am and have gotten 4 hours of sleep in the last 48 hours. Everytime I close my eyes I just picture her and this guy and everything they’ve been doing. Please someone message

is life genuinely worth living

I’m so suicidal and depressed it been years now. i have had times where i’ve been happy and genuinely did enjoy my life and loved myself because i had people around me constantly hanging out and doing fun things but that always goes away and it’s this vicious cycle of enjoying life for one second then losing it all in another i know it’s all my fault why i gain and lose everything because im a dumb ass addict as well and don’t have self control with anything.

in my personal life i’ve dealt with so much horrible bullshit.i have complex ptsd and bipolar with psychotic trait this is not something that just gets better i have to mange how to live with be on meds that have other shitty side effects.

i feel so ugly i cant stand looking at myself with out makeup i feel like everyone secretly judging in public. i hate my body and my eating disorder is just getting worse and worse. i dont think anyone would ever love me

im losing grip of reality everyday i dont feel human. i feel like everyone around me thinks im weird or not normal. i try to make friends but its so hard and when i do i just lose them. i try everything in my efforts to try to be better or ask them if im doing anything wrong but everyone says im not doing anything. i think im just and unlikable perosn i had adhd and it makes me annoying i don’t know how to shut up because i get excited because i like being around people. ive always felt different even as a kid

even if i can change and get better look at the world it’s horrible so much shit going on everyday it’s so depressing. there’s so much issues i don’t even feel like talking about and not to mention we live in a world full of lies.

i don’t want to work a boring job for the rest of my life i want ti feel like im doing something i want to be a therapist but look at me i can’t even keep myself alive lol but there nothing else i can or want to do because that’s all im good at and im an actual dumbass

im going to have to community college then pay for uc/grad , then 3000 hours supervised to even work my own practice THEN it going to take forever to build up and while all that i’m going to have to pay my school debt, taxes,house or wtv bullshit adults have to pay for the rest of my pathetic life. and if i want to feel better about myself im going to spend more money on shit just so i dont feel ugly.

is it just to live to suffer. if i want to be happy im going to suffer so much in this life so fucking much
i know life is not suppose to easy but is it really just like this i have to pay to live and deal with the horrible world and then my own issues. i’m going deeper down the death hole everyday not sure how much longer

do or say whatever you want ill take anything honestly tell me how there no point or try showing me the point i’ll try to take whatever i can in. thanks for reading

I’m 26, married, and recently found out I’m pregnant. I’m still in the very early stages, and I’m genuinely struggling to decide what to do.

I got married at 24, and since then, multiple transitions across countries have caused quite a few breaks in my career. I was finally starting to pick things back up and feel like I was building a life for myself again.

I’ve always imagined having children someday, and when I picture motherhood under different circumstances, I can see myself wanting it. But right now, I don’t feel financially or emotionally ready.

I want more time to enjoy my life, travel, go out, focus on my career, spend time with my husband and experience being young and married before taking on the responsibility of raising a child.

I’m also scared of pregnancy, childbirth, losing my identity and potentially resenting the sacrifices.
My husband is also unsure, and we’re trying to figure this out together.

I’m considering termination, but I’m struggling with so many conflicting feelings. Part of me feels that I should wait until I’m more settled, while another part is scared of the decision itself.

I’m also spiritual, and I can’t help wondering about the karmic consequences of terminating a pregnancy. What if this is happening for a reason? What if I make this decision and regret it? What if I want a child later but it never happens again? I know nobody can predict the future, but these thoughts are making this even harder.

I’d love to hear from people who’ve been in a similar situation, regardless of what they chose.

If you terminated a pregnancy despite wanting children someday, how did you make the decision, and how did you feel afterward?

If you continued an unplanned pregnancy when you weren’t ready, how did it affect your career, identity, relationship and freedom?

How did you distinguish between being scared of motherhood and genuinely not wanting to become a parent at that point in your life?

If you’re spiritual, how did you navigate fears about karma, guilt or the idea that everything happens for a reason?

How did you deal with the fear of regretting your decision or not being able to conceive in the future?

I’m not looking for anyone to tell me what to do or to debate abortion. I just want honest experiences and perspectives that might help me understand my own feelings.

Thank you for reading. ❤️

24 M.

I have been dealing with bipolar disorder and depression for a very long time, but i was properly diagnosed 2 years ago. Even after diagnosis and after i got put on medication, I have a problem going to work and staying there for a whole shift, talking to strangers and being alone for a while. I have a feeling that lately its been getting worse and I don't know what to do anymore.

Hi I feel like I am losing it just broke up with my boyfriend after 18 years and feel like I am losing it and everyone is taking it to the advantage of me should I go see help

Hi I am a 19yr old male , I’m looking for some serious advice on how to face my current life problems everyone please this is a genuine cry for help , I was scammed out of £2000 by someone I trusted , I’m scared of losing my girlfriend and have hid some serious things from her I feel like shit , I have a poor diet and poor sleep schedule and struggle with mental health and overthinking, I recently started driving again after a year I’m learning slowly and have stopped playing the sport I love , I fail to stay focused in college and feel guilty about my girlfriend because she loves me so much , my work boss has burdened me with knowledge about being disloyal to his girlfriend and I’m scared he will blackmail me as he knows some things too , please some serious advice and stern help please, I’m always anxious and filled with envy resentment and negativity please help .

Okay, so, context, right? Look, I'm young. I just turned 18 last month. Last year was all about my growth, I was in therapy, rehab (for integrating myself into society, not any substance related issues.), everything. And it helped, I've grown a lot as a person and I'm proud of myself for that. I struggle with quite a few things, I think the only relevant one here is depression.

Last year, I had no friends, none at all. I now have quite a few friends! And I love them all so very much, they're genuinely all some of the greatest people I've met, and I'm so lucky to have them. I've never had so many friends before, I'm so grateful.

The only issue is.., sure, I have all these friends now. Some closer than others, one I've known since middle school, my best friend.

Even then, I just feel like I cannot actually talk to any of them. I do talk to them all, frequently, but when I do I'm more so the listener. I ask them questions, I keep conversations centered around them, avoiding myself in most any aspect. When I do talk about myself I give vague responses. I don't really share anything about myself, not things I enjoy, not stories, not things that bother me. I've stopped showing how I'm really feeling, or if I'm struggling. I just try to keep everything about me positive, I offer as much support as I can.

I simply feel like none of my friends are interested in what I have to say. Whether it's venting or simply talking about something I enjoy, no one seems interested. No one seems to care, everyone gets dry. So I keep the conversations on them.

I have a history of over thinking things, but I've been trying not to just, you know, do that. Some of the examples off the top of my head for feeling this way are;

My best friend has told me not to talk about my current interests at all, stating that I talk way too much about them. (Which, when they said this, I had only mentioned said interested twice before-hand, both times weeks apart.)

Another friend used to vent rather often, not like an overbearing amount, but still. Said friend would also talk about their interests constantly, and for both of those things I did not and do not mind and have encouraged. That's not the issue.
The issue is that the very few times I had ever tried to vent (2-3 times), I only got dry responses, such as 'I'm sorry that sucks :(' - when I had given far more effort and care to them.
As well, when I tried to talk about my own interests (3-4 times), I was just completely ignored.
I will say for the venting part this specific friend had mentioned way before that they are bad with comforting, so I can understand that and don't hold much blame for them due to that.

I used to be a very open person to friends, I used to talk frequently in the past to the people I was friends with. One of these people I am friends with now, my best friend.

Now I'm just.. not. Admittedly, before my year of therapy, I was in a 3 year horrible situationship that left me even more cautious of people, of letting people close. I am scared of vulnerability, and being hurt again. I know it's important to be vulnerable, and I do try. I want to let people in, or at least have one person I feel like I can absolutely trust so genuinely to let them in. I always preach how important it is, and I know how important it is, but I just don't do it for myself.

I'm more social, more outgoing, but I still feel alone. I think that's my fault. I'm just scared, and I know that must sound silly.

I used to love reading books, binge watching long shows, reading informative articles, or just consuming writing in general. But now I can't do any of it without completely getting into my own head.

For example, I will start a show and immediately my mind will be flooded with over analysing thoughts of the ethnic composition of the cast, the stereotypes, the "dark humour" joke that is in bad taste, any misogynistic connotation, so much so, that I will quit before the plot has even been established. It is so overwhelming, I cannot explain. And it's not even just this.

I can't even read a paragraph anymore without being afraid that I have forgotten the sentence preceding the one I am reading. I keep going back to the beginning and rereading the text to make sure I haven't forgotten. And all the noise around me! My mind keeps registering every little sound around me instead of registering the voice that is reading in my brain. I thought complete silence was the answer, but then, the thought that maybe I am just finding reasons not to read, maybe my attention span has been demolished to death.

But the thing is, I can't even scroll. I just don't feel like scrolling, I hate the fact that some algorithm gets to decide what emotion I will inhabit in a span of 1 minute. Maybe it really is the fact that my attention span has reduced but I genuinely cannot determine.

It's triggering a depressive episode, and I am just so lonely at the moment. I have no one I can talk to about this. No one I can talk to about anything.

Does this sound familiar to anyone at all? Can anyone relate?

I was diagnosed to have Bipolar 1 ..

I have two medicines valproic acid and olanzapine.. at first my medicine was free because we get it free on health center.. and now i cant have more because the stocks ran out .. so i will buy now.. i have been seeking help from family's to family's but rejection is the only i get .. please if someone here have and extra please send help..

I’m a 26 year old guy, and over the past year, I’ve noticed a recurring pattern. When I’m in a conversation with two or more people, the person speaking often directs almost all their eye contact toward someone else, barely looking at me.

For example, when sitting around a table with two other people, the speaker will maintain almost constant eye contact with the other person, occasionally throwing a quick glance in my direction.

This happens even when I’m actively engaged in the conversation. I’m good at asking questions and following up on what people say. I can ask someone something that gets them excited and talking at length, yet they’ll still direct virtually all their eye contact toward the other person.

I first noticed this around the time I started my current job, my first proper office job after graduating. Initially, I attributed it to seating positions, but it kept happening across different people and settings, both at work and in my private life.

It’s starting to get in my head. I find myself monitoring eye contact during conversations and have to consciously stop myself from trying too obviously to draw the speaker’s attention.
Some background: I’ve generally been fairly popular throughout my life and consider myself reasonably good looking. However, my self esteem and confidence have gradually declined since around age 23.

Growing up, I was frequently told I had a “tough attitude” and came across as cocky or arrogant, despite that never being my intention. I rarely received concrete examples, but I remember overthinking it a lot. I’ve wondered whether this left me with a lasting fear of being perceived negatively.
My current job is a new environment for me. Although it’s relaxed, I sometimes feel like an impostor and constantly monitor what I say and how I behave.

I realize it’s impossible to get a definitive answer from a Reddit post, but I’d appreciate perspectives on the possible explanations:
• Do I make people nervous? Could something about my appearance, demeanour or body language make people less comfortable maintaining eye contact with me?
• Does my low self esteem show more than I realize?
• Am I more socially awkward than I think, perhaps giving off subtle cues I’m unaware of?
• Could I still come across as arrogant, despite trying not to?
• Am I overanalysing normal behaviour because my declining confidence has made me hyperaware of it?
I’m open to other explanations, too. One detail worth mentioning is that people generally make eye contact with me when I’m the one speaking. The pattern is specifically about what happens when someone else is talking to a group.

I’m not looking for reassurance or sugarcoated answers. If you have a blunt, honest take, even if it’s critical of me or something I might not want to hear, I’m genuinely open to it. I’d rather hear an uncomfortable but plausible perspective than simply be told I’m overthinking things.

Has anyone experienced something similar or have any insight into what might explain this, either in terms of my own behaviour or how I’m interpreting other people’s?

I have been crying nonstop all the time since school started again. I know it’s probably burnout and stress because I’m taking harder classes and doing more extracurriculars but I can’t really just stop doing school or my GPA will suffer more than it already has. I have VERY traditional Asian parents and I feel afraid to ask them to pay for therapy for me because the last time I did that, they said I was talking nonsense and tried to use my mental health issues against me. I really want to get help because I feel like this will get worse. I already don’t take care of myself as often as I did before and my mood has gotten worse. I don’t feel suicidal, but I just feel really tired and I don’t have anyone to really talk to. I’ve gotten therapy before in the past, but it did not turn out well because the therapist I had before would tell my parents everything that I told her when she told me it was confidential. I think there’s something wrong with me, but I don’t want to self diagnose because I’m not a professional so any advice would be great. Thank you.

For the past year i have been noticing strange this about my existence and myself in general.

I have been aware about having brain fog almost everyday in my life. Thorough the day i usually feel dizzy, unreal, like i dont feel myself in my own body. At first I thought it was maybe my sleep schedule, so i started getting 7-8 hours of sleep instead of the usual 6 hours, nothing changed.

Then i tried maybe limiting too much unhealthy food, nothing happened. I exercise regularly, nothing changed at all.

I feel like i have no control over what i am saying sometimes to someone, either my friend or family member or maybe teacher at school. Its like my mind knows exactly what and when but when i actually talk everything feels unreal and i cant form my words properly, what is wrong with me…

I have been trying to ignore it but i cant deny that i feel like ill never feel like a normal person again, why is the easiest task ever so hard for me to do while others live so peacefully and do everything so unbothered?

I genuinely feel like i shouldnt get drivers license because my mind is so so clouded and loud all the time, its really irritating. I also often feel like an alien around other people

I feel like i used to be much more worried about life in the past but now its like nothing is really affecting me, like i cant express my emotions properly like i express everything so plainly and uninterested, i dont feel sad about bad grades, or when someone shares something that is supposed to be sad, its like i cant express the sadness w´properly on the outside, its like i lost empathy i once had, i just can no longer feel it.

I feel like im just someone spectating what is happening around me and i feel like i cant tell apart what is reality and fantasy , for example i remember someone yelling at me but it didnt affect me at all, it was like it didnt even happen and i just handled stoicly like. But people only viewed it like i dont care about people being mad at me, but in reality im as hell lost in my own person.

This was also whenever im at my psychologist appointment, i tried explaining to her what im feeling but all of sudden i went mute for shit because the world and i didnt feel real and i forgot she was actually waiting for my answer and i actually didnt have time to just turn off my system and go quiet like that.

Also happened to me when a teacher came over my house, teaching me math and i just had such hard time focusing, same thing as before happening.

Inalso figured it could come from me being neurodivergend (ADHD)

Ever since i was little i wanted to ne a psychologist and help people, but now i cant deal with them at all, and id rather work in some personal psychological lab room than listen to people complaining.

Im not sure if it even bothers me anymore lacking basic human emotions like this or perhaps being too “unbothered” about something modt people would be stressed about. I have been living in it for long enough time its just glued to me. I cant even bring myself to cry about anything, im just THAT mute fs lol

I think i might be some shizotypal person but cant just talk for myself but i dont think this is some temporary feeling since its been dragging with me long enough

Can someone help me understand what is going on within me? I think this might actually be a mental illness

Just a quick check in, is everyone doing ok tonight?🙂

If you aren't having a great day, if you think you are not enough or just want someone to listen to you and hear you as you speak your heart anonymous without feeling judged. Feel free to comment and be yourself 💜⭐

I genuinely need someone to give a reason to want to continue living. I 35m have never had a partner, I’ve only had sex 5 times and those have been out of pity only. I have tried and tried to seek relationships all my life and it always ends with im not interested or i get ghosted with no real explanation. I’ve been told numerous times that i come across as fake until people actually get to know me properly and realise im genuine but whats the point on really even saying that if no one actually kmwants to get to know me and arent forced into knowing me because they are someone i know.

It’s hard to explain, but I get this feeling like I’m a machine that others talk to, then once I’m alone it’s like i’m just nonexistent to the world until I see someone again? It seems that every activity I do alone is just something to fill the time until my next interaction, where I actually exist to the world again. Ironically Im introverted and don’t even enjoy being around people frequently, and enjoy solo activities, but I still have this feeling that they’re just filling my free time, like i’m just waiting and passing time rather than really living. Is there a name for this feeling, and does anyone else experience it? Appreciate the help

Hey guys! I'm a 20M from India.

After reading so many posts here, I realised that everyone is dealing with something in life. Sometimes, we don't need advice or someone to solve our problems. We just need a person who will listen to us without judging us.

So, if you're going through something, feeling lonely, or just want to share what's on your mind, you can talk to me. I'd be happy to be your friend and listen to your problems.

I'm not saying I can fix everything or give you the perfect advice. Sometimes, just talking about what's bothering us can make things feel a little easier.

And if you don't feel comfortable DMing me, you can share your thoughts in the comments. Maybe someone else here is going through the same thing as you, and you might find someone who understands what you're feeling.

You don't have to deal with everything alone.

Take care of yourself, guys.

Found out today that you should NEVER talk about suicidal ideation with your therapist. Was told I could talk about anything. Well I did and big mistake, they were pressuring me to go to a psych ward. Now I’m supposed to message everyday by a certain time and if I don’t they said they’d call 911. Used to really like this therapist, but now I might be done with therapy.

And this is why I didn’t go to therapy again after a bad experience before with a therapist who was crap. Should’ve known I should continue to keep stuff to myself.